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I SEE YOU FETAL

I see you fetal,

Blanketed by and 

Made cold by

Invisible storms,

Your body is tight - trembling.

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Memories, guilt and lies, 

Bind your perfect heart,

Hiding it even from you.

Quieted but for the noise only you hear.

Silenced, by personal, 

Terrible distortions,

Of Truth,

Life,

And Love.

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I wish I could show you,

That I really can relate,

Enough.

Listen.

Enough.

Love you.

More than enough for both of us.

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But your future is too distant.

An unrepentant past pounds 

Like a hammer at your temples,

Fueling repetitive voices in your mind,

Keeping your heart in the shadows 

and your soul out of reach.

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I know your heart exists 

It is touching me at all times.

Your soul is meshed with mine.

It is home there and I need it.

We are home and you crave it.

There is no end to how long I can wait…

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I wait by your mouth, poised to pounce,

On the whisper of any fleeting whim,

Or the need to be kissed to know you are loved

Into action, I'll make sure,

And get back to waiting again.

One step at a time. 

One kiss at a time.

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Until a flake of hope and knowing falls,

From your nest of coiled limbs,

I’ll be a shelter of safety around you,

Where you can rebuild your faith again.

Warmed by the sun,

No more fear of getting burned

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