#jadethemoonchild

I’ve always wanted to fall in love 

With someone who has stars in their eyes.

I want an all-consuming love,

One that transcends time;

One that, like stars

Will be there;

 even if the world doesn’t see.

With him 

I don’t see just stars; 

I see constellations.

Orion smiles on me

When he speaks.

Pisces shines

When he cries.

No planetarium can replicate

The way the speckled stars

In the iris of my love

Shine and illuminate

My darkest days.

I’m back from what felt like an eternal hiatus! I really just needed a break from Tumblr. Some of the energy on here can be quite toxic... Anyway, I probably won’t be posting too much on here because I’m in school, but I want to upload more of my poetry and maybe some original stories! Stay tuned!

-Jade

Hi everyone!

There aren’t many of you that follow me, but perhaps those of you who read my writings and musings on here probably realized that I've been gone from Tumblr for a little over a month. Life has been hectic, and I’ve really been taking the time to work on myself. I may or may not talk more about this journey, as I think it might be worth documenting. I’ve upped my bullet journaling game and I have some new poetry in the works! Stay tuned!

xoxo,

A/N: Here’s my first “Dear Somebody,”! It seems utterly pretentious and low-key creepy because I wrote it for somebody for which I’ve newly developed feelings of infatuation. Regardless, I’m (kind of) proud of it, though I’m sure it could be a bit more poetic. My romance muscles need a bit of a stretch. Anyway, here it is! (btw, I may be writing multiple for the same person(s))

Dear somebody,

           I appreciate you. I see you all the time, probably with a million things on your mind. I see you speed down the hallway to your next destination, without a thought devoted to the girl admiring you from five feet away. My longing for you was sudden, and came out of nowhere. However, I knew from the moment I saw you that one day I could be hopelessly infatuated with you. I’ve never handled feelings well, particularly those of the romantic kind. I know how this goes: I fall for you, you never notice me, I make no efforts to change that, you find someone else or we never see each other again. Time and time again, I have yearned for the affections of someone who can barely see me.

           I worry that I’m invisible to you. We’ve made good conversation a couple of times, but what I desire extends deeper beyond the shallows of small talk. I wish to know you, your feelings, your thoughts. I want to get lost in your mind and for you to never want me to leave. I know you have your friends, and I have mine, and for now, we are nothing more than decently acquainted spirits roaming a shared space at the crossroads of the rest of our lives. I can only hope that I can walk the path a little further with you, and I dread the day that the road will diverge and my time to get to know you will be up.

           This is not a profession of love, for I have not spent the time with you required to be in that deep. However, you make me smile, even if you don’t know it, and I have been pondering on the idea of what it would be like to share something with you. I do think that one of these lonely days, my feelings will reach an unbearable intensity. Already when I see you, my cheeks flush and my heart races a little.

           The heart is not fair in the war of love and affection. I did not choose this. I didn’t choose to feel this way for you, because I know better than that. Had I chosen to feel this way willingly, I would have been choosing to have my heart broken by yet another boy with a kind heart, gentle smile, and soothing voice.

           Perhaps I romanticize you too much. This is clearly the early honeymoon stage of a textbook infatuation. I will eventually learn of some of your flaws, or little things that are supposed to turn me off, but I will probably ignore them, or learn to love them. There’s no better way to phrase it: I like you, or perhaps the idea of you. My knowledge of you sits on the surface, patiently waiting for a breakthrough. Until then, you will be on my mind and in my thoughts, and I will remain hopeful that one of these days you will want to know me too.

xoxo,

Checkout my post to see what this means! 

https://jadethemoonchild.tumblr.com/post/179224640470/what-college-has-taken-from-me