#jackson drabble

"I just don't get it," he sobbed. "What do I do wrong?"

"I don't know, Jacks," you said, trying to comfort him. "You're perfect as far as I'm concerned."

He let out a chuckle and a sniff as he sat up and tried to clean his face. "I'm sure I don't look perfect."

You fought the urge inside you to tell Jackson exactly how perfect he was to you. You'd had a crush on him for a while that you just couldn't shake, but right now he needed a friend.

"What did she say?" you asked, trying to get to the bottom of the heartbreak so you could comfort your friend.

He gave a little shrug and shook his head. "She didn't like me," he muttered.

"Then you didn't do anything wrong," you explained.

"No, it's not..."

You could tell he wanted to tell you what had happened but was struggling to get the words out. Sitting silently you let him take his time.

"She liked the idea of me, of my job, my money," he admitted softly.

"This is why I said before you get too attached they need to meet me and/or your mum. We'll be your screening process!"

Instead of answering he leant into you again, this time wrapping his arms around you. You happily returned the embrace, giving him a comforting squeeze.

"Why can't I just find someone who likes me for me? Who will be there for me like I want to be there for them?"

You sucked in a deep breath as you bit your tongue yet again. Honestly, without confessing you didn't know what to say.

"Someone who..." Jackson looked up at you then, his puppy eyes so watery you felt a twinge in your heart. "Someone like you."

Well that comment was doing nothing to quell your crush. The pair of you seemed to freeze in the moment, each second guessing what the other might be thinking.

Without warning, Jackson threw caution to the wind and leant up, pressing his lips to yours.

Your common sense kicked in quickly and you pulled back.

"Wait," you said.

Jackson swore under his breath and withdrew completely.

"No, wait," you encouraged.

"I always fuck up, see, it's just who I am."

"Jackson," you snapped.

He stopped what he was saying and looked at you.

"You have no idea how much I want to kiss you back-"

"But?" he interrupted with a sigh, knowing it was coming.

"But, are you sure this is the right time? You just got out of a relationship. I'm here for you completely, but I don't want to be a rebound."

"Wait, wait. Hold on, can we back up? You said you want to kiss me? You arent objecting because you dont like me back?"

You chuckled. "You know that wasn't the important bit of what I said."

"Ok, but..." he pried, trying to get more information out of you.

"Fine, I've had a crush on you for ages, but you've needed me there, well, we've needed each other, and I wasn't going to risk that by confessing. I know what you've been through the last couple of years and I wasn't about to let you struggle alone because of a dumb crush."

"You're literally everything I said I wanted," Jackson explained, now edging closer to you again. "You've been there for me through everything, and honestly, I feel a connection with you beyond what I've felt with any other friend. You should know I will always care about you more than a rebound." He gently took your hand. "Maybe I went about this the wrong way, but I want to be with you."

"I want to be with you too," you admitted. "Just, maybe, let's take it a bit slower?"

Jackson nodded enthusiastically.

With a smile you leant in a pecked a quick kiss to his cheek before pulling him back in to rest against you.

"Feeling happier now?" you asked him.

"Yes," he replied simply and snuggled his head against you.

You couldn't help the smile that grew on your face as you held Jackson close. Never again would have you have to worry about him turning up on your doorstep heartbroken. You were planning on taking good care of his heart now you knew he was willing to let you in.

A = Aftercare

Jackson is good aftercare. He's gonna make sure that you are all hydrated and cleaned before he lets you doze off. It's rare if he doesn't take care of you, but that only happens if he dozes off immediately

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

Jackson will say he can't pick a favorite, but he's an ass man. You can catch him more often than not staring at your ass or giving it a squeeze once in a while. His favorite body part on him? I can hear him liking everything about him. He couldn't choose.

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

Whether it's inside you or on you, it's gonna be messy. I think he would just have a high semen count cause it doesn't matter if y'all fuck every day, it will look like he hasn't fucked in weeks with the amount of cum he let out.

D = Dirty secret (pretty self-explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Jackson would enjoy some body worship just as much as the next person. Tell him that you love staring at his handsome face and that you really love his arms, hands, chest, etc., The compliments will get him hard real fast.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

He definitely has some experience under his belt. This man is no virgin. He knows exactly what he's doing, so you are in good hands

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

Doggy style. Y'all shouldn't be too surprised that I said that. He likes the view

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

He's honestly a mix of both serious and goofy but leaning more serious. The goofiness happens by accident more so or not because he likes to focus on your pleasure

H = Hair (how well-groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

He does have some hair and he can forget to handle it sometimes, but that's only during heavy promotions times. He trims pretty often

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

Jackson can be really romantic, especially when he has deep feelings for you. It gets really sweet and passionate more often than not.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

He has a healthy libido. Probably masturbate three times a week max, but he would rather fuck you than use his hands.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

Definitely enjoys some spanking. He would leave a handprint on your if he could. He likes the way your body jumps from the smack sometimes. Also really enjoys overstimulation with you. The way how you squeeze around and beg for him just makes him want to drive you over the edge more.

L = Location (favorite places to do they do)

He would prefer to keep it in the bedroom/house for the most part, but he wouldn't mind trying other locations if you both want to do it then and there.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

Jackson is a simple man. It doesn't take much. Some touches and some 'please fuck me' eyes could definitely do the trick. Say something flirty or sultry and boom y'all making out

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn-offs)

I see him getting jealous or irritated more often than not if he shares you with another (as in a threesome) or someone watching you both. He does not like that. He would stop completely and tell them to leave if they were watching.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

The man loves giving and receiving equally. He will give you oral for who knows how long and that man will stay down there if you don't say anything. But then if you are good at oral, he would want you to stay down there too if he wasn't eager to fuck you silly

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

Jackson can be whatever pace you want him to be. Do you want to fucked rough and fast? He can do that. Do you want some soft and sensual? He can also do that. Just let him know what type of mood you are in and he will accommodate.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

He doesn't mind quickies, but he wouldn't prefer them, so it wouldn't happen often. He would rather take his time than try to rush because it's not as fulfilling. But if you both are feeling frisky, a quickie will do

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

Jackson wouldn't mind experimenting from the time to time, but not frequently. He'll take some risks with you and other days he won't. It really depends on his mood

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

The man has been dancing and performing for years. He has very good stamina. Jackson goes for however long his partner is willing to go unless he gets tired first. If that's the case and you haven't had an orgasm, he's using his mouth

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

He would use toys sometimes. If he just wants to add a little bit of spice to the sex that day, he'll grab a vibrator or two to tease. Don't let him use it as he eats you out because then your screwed

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

His teasing isn't excessive, but he does it at the worst times Sometimes he'll do it when you are about to cum or you're sensitive from cumming the last time. But the teasing doesn't last for long because he's impatient

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

He tries to be considerate of the neighbors, but it's hard when you feel so good and you just know his body so well. His mouth is just as honest as his body.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

Jackson definitely got scolded by a neighbor one time because they kept them up in the middle of the night and Jackson has never been so flustered a day in his life. He sent the neighbor a gift basket as an apology

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

It curves up and it gets thicker at the base, so you get a nice little stretch with him. Maybe has a vein at the underside that is sensitive if you run your tongue against it. It's a good size dick

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

He's a healthy man with a healthy libido. He'll see if you are in the mood to help him, but if not, he'll handle it himself. Simple

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterward)

“Why am I such a coward?” You cry to the sky. The trees around you sway in response but whatever their answer is, it is lost to you. The park settles into the silence of night, and you slump into the bench. 

“Good to know some things never change.”

Your back straightens as your eyes go wide. If only a shooting star would blaze across the sky, then you could wish yourself away. Sadly, the stars twinkle at you from their fixed spots. “What? My random screaming?” You ask with a forced chuckle.

“It’s healthier to scream than to keep everything inside.” Jackson lowers himself onto the bench beside you, his knee inches towards yours. He tries to catch your eye, but you keep your focus on the sky. A shooting star could still appear.

“I suppose.” You dig at the grass with your toes.

“You’re not a coward.” The sincerity in his words chokes a laugh from your throat. “I mean that.” He bristles.

“I know you believe that.” You meet his eyes, “But it’s not true.”

“You’re the bravest person I know.” You shake your head, so he continues. “No matter what comes your way, you find a way through it and come out with a smile on the other side.”

“That’s not bravery. That’s perseverance. Everybody has that.”

He shakes his head. “Not everybody. A lot of people give up because it’s easier.”

Glancing away from him, you huff. “Stop trying to make me feel better about my cowardice. I am a coward and that’s that.”

“Why do you think you’re a coward?”

“Because I couldn’t kiss-” Your jaw snaps shut as you remember to whom you are talking. “Never mind.” You push yourself off the bench and dart down the path back to your apartment. Jackson is quick to follow, even when you tell him you are fine without an escort. He walks with you all the way to your door and blessedly remains silent as you mentally reprimand yourself.

When the deadbolt clicks, he speaks. “Not kissing someone doesn’t make you a coward.”

“Jackson…” You turn to face him, ready to tell him to drop the subject, but the words lodge in your throat when you see his face. His smile is sad, his eyes soft.

“Whoever you wanted to kiss is a lucky man, and he is the coward, not you.”

“It’s you.” You blurt before your brain can stop your mouth.

You two stare at one another, the silence growing thick. You place a hand on the door knob, ready to escape to the safety of your apartment and let the silence continue into perpetuity. Those will be the last words you ever speak to Jackson. You will let time wash the horror from this memory, and when you are old and shriveled you will be able to look back on this day without wanting to disappear.

“You wanted to kiss me?” His face glows in the light of his smile.

“Yes,” you stumble over the word. Your brain has given up. Your mouth is on its own. “I’ve wanted to kiss you for a long time. If I’m honest, I’ve wanted to kiss you since I met you. I promised myself I would do it last year. I wasted the whole year telling myself next time. Finally, I thought mistletoe would be a good excuse, and when I failed at that, I thought the New Year’s Eve party.” You rush through it all and at the end, stand gasping for breath, hand still on the door knob ready to bolt.

You were walking around the kitchen with your baby girl in your arms, smiling down at how adorable and peaceful she looked. 

“Isn’t she precious?” Jackson walks over with a proud smile on his face and kisses your forehead before leaning down and kissing the top of his daughter’s head as well. 

“The cutest little bean! I can’t believe we made her.”  He takes a sip of his coffee. 

“I want another one.” Jackson nearly drowned on his coffee when you said those words to him, coughing loudly and causing your baby to stir in your arms. You quietly shush her and rock her back and forth and she falls back asleep.

“I’m sorry, you said you want another baby??”

“Yes! I mean not right away obviously but... someday in the near future?” 

Jackson doesn’t say anything in response and that worries you. You glance up and find this his brows are furrowed and he’s staring hard at the ground. 

“Oh.. you don’t want another child?” He looks up and glances at you and you see nothing but concern in his eyes. He takes a few moments before he speaks again. 

“It’s not that I don’t want another kid. I’m just.. afraid.”

“Oh? Why are you afraid?” You walk over towards him and rest your hand on his shoulder for a moment, rubbing your thumb across it in an effort to encourage him to be honest with you. 

“Because your last pregnancy wasn’t exactly easy. You were in pain all the time, we had to take you to the hospital because of your nausea being so bad you couldn’t eat anything and were dehydrated. Plus you didn’t sleep at all. I’m just.. worried about your health and I don’t want you to have to go through that again.” You consider his words carefully before you respond. 

“You know the first pregnancy is usually always rough. After that your body gets used to it and it probably won’t be as bad.”

“Probably?”

“Yes, probably. I can’t say for sure I won’t have any morning sickness, or nausea, or that I won’t be in pain or tired all the time like before. Everyone’s body reacts differently. All I’m saying is that we went through it once already and everything turned out okay. We have a beautiful daughter that we both love to pieces. You are going to be an amazing dad and you already adore her so much. I just want to share more of that love. I’m sure our daughter would love a little sibling!” 

“Ha! I think she would love being a spoiled only child more.”

“But she would be lonely.”

“She can make friends.”

“A boyfriend or girlfriend someday?”

“We don’t talk about that in this house. My little girl will never experience the pain of heartbreak so therefore she will never have a boyfriend or girlfriend.” You both chuckle at that. Jackson seems to have relaxed some so you lean in and press a kiss to his lips. 

“I love you.”

“I love you too. I think... someday I would be okay with having another child just not yet. Let’s just focus on spoiling our little one we already have and maybe in a year or two we can talk about it again?”