#izzy thoughts

Honestly... a lot of people hurt and used me as a way to just... further themselves along and in that, it was killing me on the inside. I had gotten rid of so many characters that I still loved because my stories weren't enough and they needed more problems and plot. It drove me insane and I realized I was injecting my own life into those characters. I never fully got to explain myself, but whenever I saw them, I couldn't write something just about the characters themselves. I *had* to push myself and have interactions with people I felt really didn't care much about me.

Most of my fear is worrying that others won't like it or someone would tell me that they think they know my own characters better than me. Has it happened? Yeah. I don't know why, but it did and it scared me. It scared me to think those very same friends I trusted in the past did that to me, that it affected how often I write now.

With the stuff that happened recently in the community, it made me realize no matter how much a few members caused me anguish and pain, I still love whump and I can look forward to creating stuff with my own flair. I even opened up my own server to try and accommodate to those who were sick of people not listening to them or giving them a chance to fit in just so we could all have fun.

My mental health has never been first for me, but after getting diagnosed with PTSD, Anxiety, Depression, and dealing with my own medical issues, I realized how much I look to this community to try and feel better. One of my bestest friends is from this community and they came to my house and honestly made me happy to be alive.

there’s a 3ds game that I thiiiink currently is being translated? But like. The other two ds games don’t have translations and were ever only released in Japan.

Also the judges really liked my cosplay and that made me really happy because that's literally me im izzy I was just me being me and they said I could definitely just go out and about wearing the outfit because it was really cute and looked really good on me and I'm still happy about that

Oh and also in the morning I went to the bathroom and when I got out of security guard called me over because he was wondering what I was doing in the women's bathroom and I unknowingly rested my tits on the counter as I leaned over to talk to him and I showed him my badge which has Summer's name on it so he was still a little bit skeptical but he called me ma'am so I guess that was fine

I also got to wear my platform sneakerboots all day long and that was awesome and I had a lot of fun and I really should do things in public one and I wish my close friends (& significant others) were able to join me but they will next year so I'm really looking forward to that

There was literally only one bad thing about today and that was when I got back to my hotel room and I was making mac & cheese and I snagged one of my kandi bracelets on something and it broke and spewed little rock stuff all over the floor but I guess that's OK because yesterday Garnett found one so I came here with two and I still have two so I guess that's okay

There were so many cool ponies and so many cool people and so much cool stuff and I was really glad I was able to go

Who are these people?

Why am I at a teenager’s birthday party in the Spice Market?