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My dear Eunice,

It has been a year and 2 months since I first met you. From hearing the audio you posted, to the exchange of sweet compliments on wallposts, ‘til the never-ending banats on Y!M and Tumblr asks. I never knew we could make it this far. I was expecting nothing from you, I was just a simple guy who admires you from afar; a Mindanaoan and a Bisaya (okay ang racist mo lang hahaha) who is dying to hear your voice on one of your audio posts. Everything that has happened in the past year was part of the unexpected reality. I could never forget the first audio post you made exclusively for me, when you sent me a file on Y!M and it was really too cute I would die every time I hear it. I know I wasn’t in love; but I know I am just a step away to falling. There are no words to describe how happy I am every time I’d talk to you, I know you brought magic into my life and made it an enchanted one, you aint cocaine but I knew I was addicted to you. Since then, we never stopped talking, but a day came when you suddenly backed out and I started to feel the coldness within. From the coldness to the numerous fights, to the never-ending jealousy *ehem Jenny ehem* *eheeeeeem Hannah ehem* I knew our team almost comes to an end. But our story doesn’t end that soon, I knew there was something which holds us together.. and we knew we were unconsciously in love.  It was a good thing I ended 2010 and started 2011 with you, and having you as my baby. Every day, I knew I was dying to tell you how I felt for you, yet I was too sheepish to admit that I am obsessed and in love with you; and I knew there was something I have to admit yet which stops me from admitting. Finally, we marked and sealed the date, February 20, 2011 as our monthiversary. It was March when you turned a year old and celebrated your 20th year of existence in this world. It was also one of the biggest challenges I’ve accepted; because as far as I know, it’s hard to give a gift when you’re in a relationship, how much more when you’re in a long distance relationship. It was also March when I had you as my wife through our friends helping hands.  It was April when we had our first major fight as a couple, from all those jealousy to the suicidal fights; from the little misunderstandings down to the break up attempts. Those days were filled with sadness and tear-jerking moments. I knew I was turning—from the best boyfriend to the beast boyfriend—yet, we still managed to believe in the love we have and held hands together, made God as the centermost part of our relationship. We were happy and gay; but I know all these lies must come to an end. Yes, I told you who I really am, and I was ready for every consequence I am about to face for telling you the truth. But your love covered every hurt and pain you felt for me, and you managed to stay with me through everything. I gave you all the time to move on and know me a little bit—and a little bit more—and now; here we are, back in each other’s arms and hearts again.

Love, it has been a rollercoaster ride for us, and I am expecting for more tickets and more rides to come. Thank you for staying with me through everything. We may have numerous fights and differences yet I hope we would conquer each one and stay together, forever.

I’m glad we’re ending this year and starting the next year together. Love, thank you so much for everything. Sorry for those times I’ve hurt you; I wish I could be the best this time.

Thank you for the good memories. Hinding hindi ko yun makakalimutan. :) Lalo na sa mga naging ka-close ko dito. Pati narin yung pag inactive ako ng matagal, hindi niyo parin ako inuunfollow. Thank you talaga super. :D Dito rin ako nakahanap ng mga totoong kaibigan. Basta ayun.

Ako: Hoy finofollow kita! Gusto mo patunayan ko?

Ako: Dapat mas mahiya ka pa nga sakin eh. Finofollow mo si Xian Lim tapos may reply ka pa sa tweet nyang "I wanna share my happiness". Che.

Siya: Hahahahahahahahahaha!

Ako: "Can you share that happiness with me?" pala ha.. Yaan mo bukas magoonline ako itutweet ko din si Anne Curtis. Humanda ka.

Siya: Sige, magbbreak tayo pag ginawa mo 'yan!

Ako: Xian Lim or ako? Bbreakan mo ko dahil itutweet ko si Anne Curtis? Gagawin ko 'yon para quits!

Friend: Why don't you just leave her?

I woke up during the best part of my dream last night. It was you, sitting on my lap, while I held your waistline, smiling. My arms were sling around your waist and your arms were around my neck. Our eyes met, and yours was too stunning too look at. I felt my knees were shaking that moment not because you were hella heavy but I was really nervous of what was about to happen. You slowly drew your head closer to mine, while I reached onto yours. Our lips went on a silent argument―I pressed up against you and you did the same. I couldn't explain that feeling―it was magical―and I was licking my lips as I woke up.

It was electrical.

Siguro sa mga oras na nanghihina ka, hinding hindi ko malalaman kung ano ang tamang salitang sasabihin para maging okay ka. Pipilitin ko at susubukan ko hanggang makakaya ko na mawala sa isip mo ang mga bagay na nangyari't nakasakit sa'yo, kahit pansamantala lamang.

Hindi ako ang Prince Charming mo, isa lang akong hamak na binatilyo; hindi ko kayang saluhin lahat ng problema mo, pero sana malaman mong mahal na mahal kita kahit na hindi ko alam kung pano ko papatunayan sa'yo kung gaano ako ka patay na patay sa'yo. Pero alam ko, balang araw, magpapakalayo tayo―tayong dalawa lang, at dun ako magpapaka Don Romantiko.