I can’t do normal things normally. Everything is a chore; if it’s not a planned event, my head is flashing “EMERGENCY.”

You know what’s crazy though? I have ZERO problems interacting with strangers. Actually, I really enjoy meeting strangers. 

It’s acquaintances I have a real problem with. I also have a problem with interacting with people who I think are better than me... that’s pretty much everyone in the world right now.

I used to think that it was normal to operate this way, but I’m 25. This is definitely not normal. I’m ready to break from this. 

Once a month, I’m going to do something I’ve always wanted to do. The obvious social anxiety I have really prevents me from doing the most normal things.

I refuse to go for a run around my apartment complex because the fear that someone who knows me might recognize me LITERALLY paralyzes me from leaving my apartment.

I can’t “just do things.” I have to prepare. Again, it’s not normal. 

SOOOOO let’s do some fun things while I still have my “youth.”