#iwannabeweightless

i can’t handle such ugly numbers anymore

i gotta starve but my family always eat the 3meals together

idk how to starve so i purge but i still gain weight

Today has went well. I had to eat breakfast or my mom would throw all kinds of aligations at me. It was a cup of tea and a plain piece of toast. I did not want to eat and felt so full and horrible. At school I felt sick because of it. After school I went to my grandma's place and didn't eat lunch. My mom packs me a fruit every day but I didn't eat it. I've only got a scale at my grandma's apartment and I'm surprised I didn't gain weight from how much I ate yesterday. I got home in time for dinner and had some tomato and a 80 cal maggi soup. I'm full now :)

My mother asked what I ate for lunch and I lied and said I had some mini hot dogs. She praised me. I feel bad liying to her and I've got to be careful because she's the type of person to get really mad at lies. I brought up my hands cracking because of the cold where I live and she got mad. She said my fingers are too slim. Keep in mind that she is a fat woman and doesn't know what she's talking about. She said she is putting me on vitamins. Well atleast they don't have cals.

Perfect blue