#itulatin

to be completely honest , the concepts aren’t mutually exclusive for clint ——— or , rather , happiness & usefulness come hand - in - hand , and usefulness & overall success are tangled together. clint has the inevitable habit of measuring himself relative to other people , and how he is performing both compared to and for other people. you have to consider , fundamentally , his talents weren’t necessarily developed , or at least developed to the extent they are , because of his own interest , but because of an ability that was pushed on him and cultivated & that he’s since reclaimed for his own and to use at his own discretion. at it’s absolute basest value , what he is best at is something he was specifically made the best at , to be utilized for other people. & from that , clint gives as much as he can for the sake of pleasing others. because of the conflation , clint idealizes success over happiness because there’s an immediate reward system attached to success , and an immediate reward system that clint is used to , and can define and work within the parameters of.