#itsukei

That doesn't mean keiji isnt looking though. Keiji looks back, into itsuki's eyes. He knows him, but he cant speak to him. They never look at each other at the same time, they never share that eye contact. They know each other under the surface of a single glimpse, but not well enough to stare at each other. They can't handle the truth of their own feelings so why handle each others?

Keiji doesnt feel himself worthy of another relationship, not after how he ended the best thing he had. He doesnt feel himself worthy of anything in black-out, but he stays. He stays and thats what itsuki sees..that unstoppable force of hope, always staying, always going on. He hates it sometimes, just how much strength can one guy have?

..thats when he sees it. Keiji...doesnt. He sees the energy he exerts, how much of himself he gives up for this. He hates that- why cant keiji see it himself!? What is wrong with him why-

why does he feel like this?

sorry my brain is a bit scrambled all thats floating around is "doomed co-dependent itsukei yaoi"

But keiji sees itsuki for himself.

itsuki never thought he brought anything to the band except his skills and playing

but before anyone got close, there was talk of kicking itsuki out. chiaki and him wouldnt stop fighting, and it was getting too bad. He...was being "rude"...but not to keiji. To keiji he was scared, to keiji he was confused, he saw that, he saw him...he couldnt bare to see him go. it hurt him in the chest every day, why?? why why why him???

...so they stayed. Constantly hiding their true selves from each other, not knowing of the other's knowledge of the other. They just kept close, closer and closer. Looking each other in the eyes at the wrong times, never synchronized, but still together

they could never talk to each other deeply...only one time

that time on the roof (itsu2 in timeline order)..

oh, so this is "love".

...i...i dont like this....

itsuki cant take his eyes off of him...

and they finally stare

right at each other