#itsmyfirstsorry

“YAH. YOONGI! WAKE UP!”

What is it now. Everything was still fuzzed, but through blurry eyes I could see her throwing things on the floor. My clothes out of the drawers, our frames on the wall, everything was going everywhere.

‘WHAT ARE YOU DOING?’

“TRYING TO HELP YOU GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER.”

‘AND HOWS THAT WORKING WITH ALL MY THINGS ON THE FLOOR.’

“BECAUSE YOURE FINALLY UP AND TALKING TO ME.”

Shit, I should’ve seen this coming. I’ve ignored my girlfriend for the past month and to think I was going to get away with it. With everything piling on top of each other, I’ve fallen behind on my lyrics and my

Her eyes were filled to the rim with tears, but I could tell she was trying so desperately to hold them in. I can’t believe she’s waited for me for this long. I try and reach over to grab her arm but she yanks it out of grip, staring into my eyes, and that’s when I notice it.

There was something different about her. The eyes. Her eyes were off. They had lost their life. They lost their spark.

I did that. I blew out the flame in her windows and now her soul was pitch black. This was my fault and I need to fix it.

I grabbed her hand and pulled her into my arms before she could run away. Her body just collapsed in mine and then a rush of relief came over me. She was still warm. There was some heat still radiating from her.

Thank god.

“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. Please forgive me. I’m so sorry. Please. Don’t let me go. I’m so sorry.”

I heard her whisper these words and something inside me broke.