#itsjustwrong

Today’s confession

This morning my wife and I had a time of prayer, for our situation and the ministry. Right after the prayer, I told my wife that I was again having struggles with porn, lustful masturbation and the like. I asked her for prayer and was also at the same time praying that she wouldn’t be hurt. She smiled and comforted me. She said she had some thoughts too recently, then she prayed for me. I really…

Here are the questions again; Did I have any sexual fantasy the night before until now ? Did I look at any pornographic material the night before until now ? Did I masturbate the night before until now ? ok, so I’ve been caught up with stuff and can’t recall all of it, but as much as I remember its; 25th – Yes to Q1 & Q3, no for Q2 26th to the 30th – Yes to Q1 and No to Q2&3 31st – No to all,…

Lately my girl has been down with the flu. She doesn’t sleep well, her nose is all stuffed up. She gets up in the middle of the night, cries out loud for milk… Its extremely difficult to get her to take meds, and even drink enough water. Sometimes when these things happen, my wife loses it. And she doesn’t particularly handle it in a mature, motherly manner. She bursts basically, but nothing…

21st and the 22nd Q1 yes, but no to Q2 & 3 23rd Yes to Q1 and Q3 I’ve still been going on about the fantasizing part. Somehow I am allowing myself to continue to think of wrongs things with the girls again. Give me strength to arrest these thoughts Lord !

One thing I really long for are good, deep relationships. It’s something I’ve never really had much of, and also am I’m really really bad at. I do his a lot, I imagine the girls (mentioned in previous posts) and myself meeting and talking. Nothing sexual, nothing erotic (I mean those thoughts come, but of late I’m really pushing those thoughts away and not letting it linger..), just a simple…