#itsfallz

You Couldn’t Teach Me Integrity - crywank (hawk pov?)

Monsters - All Time Low ft. blackbear

I Bet on Losing Dogs - Mitski (Ivy pov)

She Don’t Want To Live - I Hate Myself Because (hawk pov)

Texas Reznikoff - Mitski (ivy pov)

After Dark - Mr. Kitty (hawk pov)

Looking Out for You - Joy Again (hawk pov)

Song for a Guilty Sadist - Crywank (not exactly accurate to the lyrics, but, hawk pov on ivy and the whole dark forest training thing)

Bad Idea! - Girl in Red (ivy pov)

OK SO I FINALLY GOT TO LISTEN TO THESE. Some thoughts while I was listening to them...

You Couldn't Teach Me Integrity - Crywank Hawk in the early days of training Ivy, recognising the pattern he has with obsessing over people, trying to make a change, knowing the impossibilities of this love, questioning if it even IS love

Monsters - All Time Low ft. blackbear & Demi Lovato Hawk knowing that he's putting not only himself at risk but mostly Ivy at risk, and Ivy (thinking she knows) knowing what she's getting into but still going back each night

I Bet On Losing Dogs - Mitski Ivy staying with the Dark Forest and knowing they're going to lose but not wanting to lose a single second she can spend with Hawkfrost. Potential evil!Ivy AU where she gets further down but still knows she's doing Bad. But also AU where Ivy dies in the final battle and Hawkfrost takes her spirit back to the Dark Forest to get lost together

She Don't Want To Live - I Hate Myself Because Hawkfrost trying to convince Ivy to leave the Dark Forest because he wants her to live but she won't leave. Possibly connected into the above. Like. He's begging her to live for them. Bonus if it's a ghost!kits AU too ;)

Texas Reznikoff - Mitski Hawk telling Ivy about the Old Forest <3 Ivy wanting to go back there together, but Hawk doesn't know if he can even leave the Dark Forest long enough to go there, so they dream of this life where they could travel back and return to the forest to be together, just the two of them

After Dark - Mr. Kitty I get both vibes for this, like. Ivy going to the Dark Forest one last time to have one last night with Hawk, trying to draw out the moment as long as she can to be with him. Hawk thinking about her during the day and how he can possibly ask her to be with him, swirling in his head

Looking Out For You - Joy Again Canon-Compliant HawkIvy?? Hawk seeing Ivy pull away from the Dark Forest, maybe seeing her acting as spy and reporting back to the others, but he doesn't do anything about it. And he can't tell her about his feelings. He just can't. He wants to so bad, and they just keep filling time with training, or talking about other things, but mostly anything but talking about themselves

Song for a Guilty Sadist - Crywank I rly like this for Hawk's POV, they're fighting and she wants to keep going and he feels guilty but he holds back his feelings to give her what she wants. They're struggling. Hawk wants to show her love but he doesn't know how to. Ivy wants to keep getting stronger, and that he can give her. They could be soft. But they can't. Not here

bad idea! - girl in red god. yeah. Ivy's regrets, Ivy knowing she should stop, knowing she needs to pull away, knowing this is bad and it's a bad idea but she just keeps going back for more.

OK SO.

(as a note, I have read as far as AVOS' end currently but I do not remember most of AVOS)

HollyAsh. Hmm.

I don't know how they would get together. So I'm leaning towards unrequited from HOLLY's point of view. Somewhat inspired by your drabble before! Ashfur doesn't really take notice or else he thinks it's just an apprentice crush.

(Ashfur accepting apprentice crushes are often ridiculous and short-lived, but also looking down on them even more as no apprentice can ever experience Real Love like he does)

Hollyleaf admiring him for many reasons but not really getting close to him. She wants to be, but there's not really anything they can bond over - she thinks. She isn't sure. She's working up her courage.

Then the fire happens, and she sees Ashfur at the top of that log. He's come to save them. She's sure of it.

But it isn't to be.

Between her grief for what she thought was the truth, the seeming loss of her parents, not knowing where she stands now... there's also him. Ashfur. Prepared to kill her and her littermates. In love with her mother. But Squirrelflight isn't her mother.

It's all over the place. She's all over the place.

She hunts him down, kills him, to save her littermates, to save what she can of her family, but she mourns him. She whispers for forgiveness. Her trust in the warrior code shatters.