#itsdarkout

Wow it gets dark so early now. Ugh #daylightsavings #ugh #itsdarkout (at Torrance, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/B5mMq1fpHF3/?igshid=1ggua8jsbtayz

An hour ago I thought that I would sleep tonight. I think I'll just lay here until the night sky turns into the dimly lit cloudy morning and then even longer still. I feel drained and I feel incapable. Four weeks ago I couldn't feel any better and now everything is falling apart, I'm falling apart. Please don't leave me here. But if you do, I wish to rot. I wish to fester in the depths of my error until it eats away at all that I am, until it leaves remnants of me that cannot even be distinguished as human. Maybe then, I will understand where I go wrong, but even more so, then it is that I will be be able to pick myself up, once I have exceeded all options. Once the only way to go is up, I'll simply have no choice.

Despite the tears and gripping fears, I know that things will be alright.

#itsdark #itsdarkout