For Darkest Part of Me: How did Brittany start going to bars again after she recovered a second time? Did she find it hard?
She’s at the point now where it’s still hard, but she manages. She likes seeing her friends have a good time and being around them. It’s the not dancing that is still the hardest for her, and that’s probably always going to be an issue. At least until she lets go of the last few things she’s not let go of yet. Which will come in time in the story.
All in all it really was a slow process (she’s been sober three years now), but she also kinda immersed herself sooner and more than she should have. Thankfully it didn’t lead to any relapses. (Aside from her ongoing anger issues of course. She overcompensates anger where that tiny part of her wants drugs or alcohol.)
A lot of the time now when she goes to clubs it’s when she’s feeling sorry for herself and just needs to get lost in the sound of the music and the feel of the dancing around her.