you're lost and i'm insane
summary: You work at a mental institution filled with some of the most dangerous and deranged people. Your patient Bucky becomes dangerously fixated on you. word count: 18.7k+ pairing: patient!bucky barnes x fem!psychiatrist!reader notes: this is for stan-o-ween! i needed a ~spooky~ fic and wanted to try something a bit different. a tad bit inspired by born, madly & born, darkly by trisha wolfe, a dark romance duet! i even fear that this is like... way too dark and just too much but i wrote it and it's going to be put out so i don't cry about wasting hours/days on this fic so i don't even care if no one reads it this is dub-con/non-con - if you do not like DO NOT READ! i am not responsible for your media consumption. if you send me a message or ask saying it offended you or you were uncomfortable i will tell you that you shouldn't have read this because the warning(s) were made clear. warnings/tags: dub-con/non-con - 18+ only!!!, dark!bucky, inappropriate psychiatrist and patient relationship (or really just bucky being manipulative), dark sexual fantasies, mentions of violence and trauma, mention of reader blushing (as a manipulation tactic, not necessarily as a physical trait), implied stalking, smut, handcuffs, marking, fingering, oral (f&m!receiving), mention of hand in hair, unprotected piv, overstimulation, thigh fucking, slight cum play, breeding kink, very slight aftercare... well, not really more like vague threats, uhhh i didn't know how to end this fic so yeah here it is it's-tober! masterlist | stan-o-ween masterlist
The orderlyâs keys rattled against his belt as he unlocked the heavy door to the interview room. The hinges groaned like something out of an old horror film, the kind youâd half-watched on a rainy night as a child, before burrowing under the blankets. The smell of the asylum clung to everythingâbleach, old stone, rust, and something faintly sour that never really scrubbed away no matter how much disinfectant the janitorial staff poured into the cracks.
You adjusted the file in your hands, more for something to do than because you needed to. The paper inside had already been read through twice, your pen marks underlining words that were almost clinical in their emptiness: violent outbursts, manipulative tendencies, acute paranoia, possible PTSD, resistant to treatment. Each phrase felt sterile compared to the whispered warnings from colleagues who had looked at you with a mixture of pity and unease when they learned youâd drawn this particular assignment.
He was already sitting at the table when you entered, cuffs clamped around his wrists and linked to a bolted chain that allowed him just enough movement to rest his forearms on the scarred wood. His hair fell in uneven strands that framed his face, his jaw dark with stubble. He didnât look up when the orderly shut the door behind you and left, but you felt his awareness all the sameâlike the air itself had shifted to acknowledge your presence.
âSergeant Barnes,â you began, your voice steady but quieter than you intended. The metal chair scraped as you sat down across from him. His head lifted at last, and blue eyes fixed on yours. They didnât blink often.
He smiled faintly, the kind of expression that wasnât warm but deliberate. âDoctor.â The word stretched out, like he was tasting it.
You nodded, keeping your hands folded neatly on the folder so he couldnât see the slight tremor in your fingers. âIâll be meeting with you regularly. Our goal is to understand what youâve been experiencing, and to see what steps might help.â
âSteps,â he repeated, his voice low, threaded with an accent buried under decades. âSteps where? Out of here?â
âSteps toward treatment,â you clarified. Neutral, professional.
That was when he leaned forward, the chains clinking softly. He didnât break eye contact. âYou smell like lilacs.â
The clinical script in your head faltered. It was an odd observation, inappropriate, but his tone wasnât mockingâit was almost contemplative. âThatâs not relevant,â you said, sharper than you meant.
He smirked, leaning back just enough to make the chair creak. âItâs relevant to me.â
You took a slow breath and flipped open the file. âYour previous psychiatrist noted that you refused to engage in structured conversation. You spoke in fragments, and at times refused to answer questions. Iâd like to try again, if youâll allow it.â
His eyes flicked to the open folder, then back to you. âShe wore red lipstick. Thought it made her look older. More serious. She stopped wearing it after I told her it made her look like she was trying too hard.â
Your chest tightened. There was no note about that in the file. âHow do you know that would be important to her?â
His smile widened just slightly, but it wasnât pleasant. âPeople tell you who they are when they think you arenât listening. I listen.â His gaze dropped to your hands, still folded neatly. âYou bite your nails. Not lately. Youâve been trying to stop. Two weeks now?â
You curled your fingers in against the folder without thinking. The urge to defend yourself warred with the instinct to redirect the session, keep the upper hand. He hadnât seen you outside of this roomâhe couldnât have. Was he guessing, or was it some uncanny perception? âYou notice small things,â you said, trying to bring control back into your tone. âThat can be a strength.â
âOr a weapon,â he countered, his voice quiet again. He tilted his head slightly, like a predator measuring the reach of its prey. âI know more about you already than you know about me. That makes you nervous.â
Your pen tapped once against the paper before you forced it still. âWhat makes me nervous is when a patient avoids direct questions.â You looked up at him firmly. âWould you like to tell me why youâre here?â
He chuckled, the sound low and humorless. âYou tell me. Youâve got the file. The doctors who came before you decided what I am.â He leaned forward again, closer than before. The chain pulled taut. âWhat do you think I am?â
For a moment, the room felt too small, the walls too close. You remembered the orderlyâs warning glance before the door closed. Dangerous. Manipulative. He was trying to unsettle you. Still, you met his stare. âThatâs what Iâm here to find out.â
His smile thinned, sharp as glass. âThen I look forward to our sessions, Doctor. I think youâll enjoy them more than you expect.â
The clock on the wall ticked loud in the silence that followed. Somewhere down the hall, a door slammed. His eyes never left you, not even as you stood, signaled for the guard, and the lock turned again. And even as you left, you felt itâthe sense of being studied, catalogued, remembered.
The second time you saw him, the asylum felt heavier. It wasnât just the damp chill of stone walls or the flickering bulbs in the hallwaysâit was the knowledge of him waiting, somewhere behind a door, replaying the way heâd looked at you the first time.
Youâd told yourself not to think about it afterward. Youâd gone home, poured a glass of wine you barely touched, sat on your sofa with a book that you never opened. But even then, it had felt like his eyes were still on you, cataloguing every flick of your fingers against the page, every sigh, every unfinished swallow. The thought had burrowed under your skin: He shouldnât know. He couldnât know. So how did he?
Your colleagues had noticed something. You caught the sideways glances in the break room, the muttered âbraveâ and ârecklessâ when your name was paired with his on the assignment list. One older psychiatrist had cornered you, his hand heavy on your arm. âBarnes isnât like the others. He gets under your skin. Thatâs his game. Donât play it.â Youâd nodded, thanked him, and promised you knew the boundaries. But even then, part of you had bristled at the warning, as if he was questioning your competence instead of his danger.
Now, walking the long corridor toward the interview room, the sound of your heels echoed louder than usual. Two orderlies flanked the door, and when you nodded, they opened it with a glance that said everything they didnât say aloud: good luck.
Bucky was waiting. He always seemed to be waiting. His posture was deceptively casual, chair angled back slightly, chains pooled loose around his wrists. He raised his head the moment you entered. No smile this time. Just that relentless stare. âDoctor,â he greeted, voice low.
You shut the door behind you, nodded at the guard who lingered just a moment longer than necessary, then took your seat. âSergeant Barnes.â
âYou didnât sleep well,â he said, almost immediately.
You froze with your pen halfway out of your pocket. âExcuse me?â
His lips curved, faint, deliberate. âYour eyes. Tired. Coffee before you came hereâtwo sugars, no cream. You only do that when you need the caffeine more than the taste. Means you didnât sleep.â
It was nothing he could have witnessed. You felt a prickle race up the back of your neck. âYou canât know that.â
He tilted his head, studying you. âI notice things. Itâs what kept me alive. Noticing. Youâd be surprised what people give away.â His gaze lowered to your hands again. âEven you.â
Your fingers curled around the pen too tightly. âThis session is about you,â you said firmly.
âEverything is about me now,â he countered, quiet but assured. He leaned forward, the chain taut. âYouâve been thinking about me.â The denial rose on your tongue, sharp, professional. But he kept talking, his words a blade sliding between your ribs. âYou went home after last time. Poured yourself a drink, tried to read something, couldnât focus. You replayed what I said about the lilacs, didnât you? Wondered how I knew. Wondered if Iâd been near you without you noticing.â His eyes gleamed, satisfaction curving his mouth. âYou wondered if I could be right outside your door.â
The pen snapped against the paper as you slammed it down, voice tight. âThatâs enough.â
His laugh was soft, humorless, echoing in the small room. âTouched a nerve.â
You forced yourself to breathe, to sit straighter, to let the silence linger long enough for control to return. âTell me about the night terrors,â you said finally, forcing the conversation back to the file in front of you. âYour previous doctor noted you reported vivid dreams.â
He didnât answer right away. He let the silence stretch until you looked up, and then he said, âDreams arenât the problem. Waking up is.â
âExplain.â
âYou wake, and for a moment you donât know where you are. You reach for somethingâsomeoneâthat isnât there. Your chest feels like itâs being crushed, your lungs burn, your body begs you to believe itâs all real. Then you realize itâs not. And youâre alone.â His voice dropped, barely above a whisper. âYou know what that feels like, donât you?â
The words slid under your skin like ice water. âThis isnât about me,â you said, more brittle than you intended.
He smiled again, slow, certain. âBut it could be.â
The orderly outside coughed, the faint sound of movement reminding you there were other people within shouting distance. That reminder steadied you. âThatâs all for today,â you said, closing the file with finality.
He didnât protest. Didnât move. Just watched you stand, watched the guard unlock the door, watched you leave. But just before it shut, his voice followed, curling after you like smoke, âsweet dreams, Doctor.â
You kept walking, even though your pulse hammered in your ears. And all through the rest of the day, no matter how many files you reviewed, how many colleagues you nodded to in the hall, the words stayed with you.
Sweet dreams.
---
The rain had been relentless all morning. The kind of storm that rattled the barred windows of the asylum and left the halls reeking faintly of damp stone. You sat at your desk with his file open, the pages already softening at the edges from the number of times youâd turned them. There was a note from administration at the top in neat, block handwriting, consider termination of sessions if patient continues to escalate.
You traced your thumb along the margin where youâd written observations after your last meeting. He knew too much. Not just about his environment, but about you. That wasnât in the manuals, wasnât covered in your training. The textbooks didnât explain how to handle a patient who seemed to look through you like glass.
Still, you signed your name on the attendance sheet, and when the orderly opened the door, you walked in. Bucky was already there. He always was. He sat with his chair angled slightly away from the table this time, his cuffed wrists loose in his lap. The posture was a showâyou could tell. It was carefully chosen to look unguarded, almost lazy, but the line of his shoulders was taut. He turned his head toward you when you entered, eyes catching the weak fluorescent light. âDoctor,â he said softly.
You set the file down. âGood morning.â
He chuckled under his breath, leaning forward until the chain rattled against the table. âIs it?â
âDo you want to tell me why it isnât?â
For a long moment, he just stared at you. Then his voice dropped into something almost conversational, intimate, as though you were two people speaking in confidence instead of psychiatrist and patient. âI dream about blood,â he said. âThe weight of it. Not nightmares, not really. More like⊠memories with teeth.â He looked down at his hands, flexing the one still covered in faint scars. âI remember their faces. Not all of them. Just enough. Screaming, choking, going limp. And I liked it.â
The air left the room. You were careful not to move, not to flinch. âYou liked it.â
He lifted his gaze back to yours, unblinking. âYouâre supposed to say I didnât. Youâre supposed to tell me it was conditioning, that I wasnât in control. But I was. At least part of me. You canât take that away from me.â
You inhaled slowly. The words were deliberate, crafted to provoke. âWhy do you want me to take it away from you?â
A sharp laugh burst from him, humorless and low. âBecause if you say I wasnât in control, then I get to walk around thinking Iâm not a monster. And if you donâtâŠâ His smile spread, thin and sharp. âThen I know exactly what I am.â
âWhich do you want to be?â you asked, steadying your voice.
His eyes narrowed, the smile lingering. âWhich would you rather I be?â
The question caught you like barbed wire. It was manipulative, designed to entangle, but some part of you felt the trap tighten around your ribs anyway. You forced your gaze down to the notes in the file. âThis isnât about me.â
âItâs always about you.â His voice softened, coaxing. âYou come here, sit across from me, ask your questions with that careful tone. But youâre listening. Really listening. The othersâthey just want to put me in a box, shove me full of pills until I drool. You want to understand.â
âThatâs my job,â you said.
He leaned forward, closer, the chain pulling taut. âNo. Itâs more than that. You need to understand me. You want to know how deep the rot goes. You want to know if you can fix me.â
The silence stretched. The rain battered harder against the windows. Finally, you asked, âand can I?â
His mouth curved, slow, deliberate, like a knife sliding free from its sheath. âNo one fixes me, Doctor. But you⊠you might be the one I let try.â
Your pen dug into the paper, the ink pooling in a sharp dot before you forced yourself to keep writing. âTell me about Hydra,â you said, redirecting before the weight of his words could sink too far. âTell me about what they made you do.â
His smile didnât fade, but his eyes changed. Darkened. âThey stripped me down. Took away my name, my memories, my choices. Left the shell. You want to know what it feels like to stop being a man and start being a weapon?â
âYes,â you said.
His stare burned into you, unflinching. âIt feels like being fucked by ghosts. Every time you blink, thereâs another one inside you, another command, another hand on the trigger. You donât even know where you end and they begin. And then theyâre gone, and itâs just you. With blood under your nails and no excuses.â The words made your throat tighten, the pen nearly slipping in your hand. And then, softer, more insidious, âsometimes I wonder what command Iâd follow if it came from you.â
Your pulse jumped hard enough that you prayed it didnât show in your face. âThatâs not appropriate,â you managed.
He smiled, wolfish now, tilting his head. âThatâs not a denial.â
The orderlyâs knock on the door broke the moment, sharp and sudden. You blinked, tearing your gaze away, closing the file too quickly. âThatâs all for today.â
But as the guards came in to unchain him, he didnât move his eyes from yours. His voice followed you out, low and almost gentle, âyou could tell me to do anything. Anything at all. And I would.â
The door shut behind you, and for a long time, you just stood in the hall, the storm hammering against the building as though it wanted in.
---
The lights buzzed overhead with their usual sickly hum, the pale fluorescence tinting everything in the asylum to the same washed-out shade of grey. Youâd grown used to it, but sitting across from him it was suddenly oppressive, like the bulbs themselves bent lower, dimming the air between you.
He was quiet when you entered this time. No greeting, no smirk. Just a steady gaze as you set the folder on the table and sat down. His posture was too still, his hands folded neatly in his lapâan imitation of calm, you realized, rather than the thing itself.
You clicked your pen and began, âIâd like to continue where we left off. You said Hydra took away your choices. That you felt like a weapon.â
His eyes flicked down to your hands, then back up. âThat bother you? Hearing me say that?â
âWhy would it bother me?â
âBecause you want to believe you can talk me into being human again. You want to believe your voice is enough to overwrite years of programming.â His mouth twitched in a humorless smile. âLike a magic spell.â
You let the silence hang, writing a note you didnât need to. He leaned forward. The chains rattled, but the sound was soft, almost intimate. âYou ever think about control?â he asked.
Your pen stilled. âControl?â
âYeah.â His voice was low now, coaxing. âHow much of it you really have. Over yourself. Over the people in this place. Over me.â He tilted his head, and the fluorescent lights caught on his eyes, making them gleam faintly. âDo you think you control this room?â
âYes,â you said carefully.
He smirked, leaning back, the chair creaking under him. âThen tell me to do something.â
Your chest tightened. âThis isnâtââ
âTell me.â His voice was firm now, almost a command. âTell me to do something simple. Anything. Say it.â
You hesitated, pulse spiking against your throat. Every professional instinct screamed that you should redirect, shut the suggestion down. But your mouth betrayed you before you could stop it. âSit up straighter.â
For a moment, his expression didnât change. Then, deliberately, he slid his shoulders back and straightened, spine rigid, chin lifting. The movement was slow, measured, exaggerated just enough to show that it was no real obedienceâit was a performance. âSee?â His voice was a near whisper. âYou could tell me to do worse than that. You could tell me to get on my knees, to beg. You could tell me to wrap these chains around your wrist and drag you across the table. And I would.â
The room shrank, air pressing tight against your lungs. âThatâs not appropriate,â you said, your voice sharper than intended.
He laughed, quiet and dark. âBut itâs true. You donât believe in control, Doctor. You believe in power. Difference is, power doesnât ask permission.â
You gripped the pen tighter, fingers aching. âYou said before you dream about blood. Do you dream about power, too?â
His eyes narrowed, studying you, and then he spoke with a soft kind of certainty that felt worse than shouting. âI dream about you.â
Your heart stopped.
âIn the dark,â he went on. âYour face at the edge of the light. The sound of your voice when you try to keep it steady. I see your handsâalways your hands. Holding the pen, the folder, the little twitch of your fingers when youâre nervous. And I dream about what else those hands could do.â
Your throat worked, but no words came out. He smiled, sharp and slow.
âYou think I donât notice how you avoid touching this table? Like itâs dirty. Like if you keep your hands on the file youâll stay safe. But I see it. I see the way you sit straighter when I get close, the way you hold your breath.â He leaned forward again, the chain taut. âI see you, Doctor. Better than you see yourself.â
The silence was unbearable. Your pulse thundered in your ears, the rain from outside pattering against the window like a metronome. Finally, you forced your voice into the space between you. âDo you think these confessions help you?â
His smile dropped into something flat, colder. âThey help me remind you who I am. And who you could be.â
The orderly knocked at the door. The sound made you jump. He saw it. Of course he did. âThatâs enough for today,â you said quickly, snapping the folder shut.
The guards entered, stepping behind him to unchain his cuffs. He didnât resist. Didnât even move his gaze from you. As the door swung shut, his voice followed, quiet enough that it felt meant only for you. âNext time, tell me something youâve never told anyone. Fairâs fair.â
The door locked, the bolts sliding into place. But you walked the corridor with the weight of him pressing against your back, his words burrowing under your skin where no lock could reach.
---
The storm had passed, leaving the asylum damp and eerily quiet. The hall smelled of bleach and wet concrete, the kind of sterile rot that never quite left the walls. You sat at the table first this time, file open, pen ready, spine held deliberately straight. You told yourself the posture was for control.
When the door opened, he entered with the guards, his cuffs already fastened. He didnât look at them. He looked only at you, eyes locking the moment the threshold was crossed. A faint curl of a smile touched his mouth as he sat down, the chain scraping against the table. âYou came back,â he said softly.
âItâs my job,â you replied.
He tilted his head, studying you. âThatâs what you tell yourself.â
You wrote the date at the top of your notes page, ignoring him. The scratch of the pen was loud in the silence. âDid you think about what I asked you?â His voice cut through the quiet. âAbout telling me something youâve never told anyone.â
You didnât look up. âThis is not about me.â
âIt is now.â
His certainty pressed against your ribs. You inhaled slowly, kept your eyes on the file. âWeâre here to talk about your experiences. Your memories. Youâve mentioned dreams, nightmares, memories with blood. Today, Iâd like you to tell me what you feel when you wake.â
He leaned back, smirk widening. âCold. Alone. And hard.â
Your gaze flicked up despite yourself, and the deliberate spark in his eyes told you heâd been waiting for it. âThatâs not appropriate,â you said evenly.
âBut itâs true.â His voice softened, coaxing. âYou want truth, donât you? Isnât that why you keep coming back, no matter what the others say? You want me to bleed the truth out for you.â
âTruth is not the same as provocation,â you countered.
âProvocation is just truth with teeth.â He leaned forward, chain rattling. âYou want me to bare mine? Iâll do it. But youâll owe me.â
âOwe you what?â
âA piece of yourself.â
The silence stretched, taut. His stare didnât waver, didnât soften. Finally, you said, âwhat do you want me to tell you?â
He smiled faintly, victorious. âSomething small. Something soft. Something human. Not your resume, not your degrees. Something real.â
You shifted in your chair, the file heavy in your lap. âWhy?â
âBecause itâs the only way youâll ever understand me. You canât stand behind that glass forever. You want me to confess? Then you confess too.â His voice dropped lower, intimate. âYou show me your pulse, Iâll show you my knife.â Your throat tightened, words caught behind your teeth. He saw it, of course. His smirk deepened. âYouâve never been married,â he said suddenly.
You blinked. âThatâs notââ
âYou donât wear a ring. No tan line. You donât talk about anyone waiting for you at home. You go back to an empty apartment, donât you? One glass of wine, sometimes two, maybe a book you donât finish. You fall asleep with the TV still on so you donât have to hear how quiet it is.â
Your chest went tight, your hand gripping the pen too hard. âThatâs enough.â
But he leaned closer, the chain taut, his voice low and certain. âYou hate being alone. Thatâs why youâre here. Thatâs why you keep walking back into this room, even when you should run. Because youâd rather sit across from me than your empty walls.â
The pen tip dug into the page, bleeding ink into a black dot. Your mouth was dry. âAnd what do you get out of this?â
He smiled, sharp as a blade. âEverything. Every look, every twitch of your hands, every word you wonât say. Thatâs my confession. I want you, Doctor. Not the way they think, not as some project to fix. I want to get inside your head the way youâre trying to get inside mine.â
Your pulse thudded, loud enough you swore he could hear it. âThatâs not therapy,â you said.
He leaned back finally, but his eyes stayed on you, gleaming. âWho said I wanted therapy?â The orderly knocked on the door, the sound like a gunshot in the silence. You closed the file too quickly, stood too fast. The guards entered, unshackling him. As they pulled him to his feet, he bent his head closer, voice pitched just for you. âBring me something next time. Not a file. Not questions. Something of you.â
The guards led him away, but his words lingered like smoke in your lungs, burning long after he was gone.
---
The room felt warmer than usual when you stepped inside, though the air vents hummed the same dull current overhead. You told yourself it was in your head. You told yourself a lot of things these days.
Bucky sat where he always did, cuffed at the wrists, but he looked different this timeâslouched in a posture almost lazy, legs spread, chin tilted slightly as though heâd been waiting not just minutes but hours for you. His mouth curved faintly when he saw you, as though heâd been expecting you to arrive exactly like this. âDoctor,â he drawled.
âSergeant Barnes.â
âYou look tired again.â
You set the file down, deliberately not acknowledging the comment. âWeâll begin with your last statement. You said you wanted to get inside my head. Tell me what that means.â
His gaze slid slowly down your figure, then back up, unhurried, deliberate. âExactly what it sounds like. You think youâre the only one who gets to dig? You think I donât notice how you cross your legs when you sit, like youâre making a barrier? Or how you keep your hands folded on the folder, like itâs a shield? You think I donât see the pulse in your throat when I lean forward?â
Your jaw tightened, but you didnât look away. âThatâs not what this is about.â
âThen what is it about?â he murmured. âBecause it doesnât feel like therapy anymore. Feels like foreplay.â
The word hit the air like a slap. You froze, pen halfway between your fingers. âThatâs inappropriate.â
He smiled, slow, dangerous. âSo you keep saying. But you never walk out.â
You forced the pen to move, scratching a note you didnât even read. âYou said Hydra made you into a weapon. Did they also make you into this?â
His eyes darkened, the smile fading. âNo. This is mine. This is the part they couldnât take. The hunger. The way I look at you and imagineââ He broke off with a low laugh, shaking his head. âNo. You donât want to hear that.â
âTell me,â you said, though your voice came out lower than intended.
He leaned forward, the chain clinking as it pulled taut. His voice dropped with it, dark and intimate. âI imagine what youâd sound like if you stopped pretending. If you let go of that polished doctorâs voice and just⊠gasped. Moaned. Begged.â
Your fingers clenched around the pen hard enough to ache. âThatâs notââ
âAppropriate?â he finished for you, smirk curving again. âYouâre going to keep saying that until you believe it. But you donât believe it now. Not really. Youâre picturing it. You canât stop.â
You inhaled sharply, tried to redirect. âYou said you want me to confess something. What would you want me to confess?â
âThat when you leave this place, you donât think about the other patients. You think about me. About the way I talk, the way I look at you, the things I could do if these chains werenât here. You go home and you sit in your quiet little apartment, and you wonder if Iâm right. If Iâd make you scream or if Iâd make you whisper.â The pen slipped, clattered against the folder. His eyes flicked down to the movement, then back up, satisfaction sharp in his expression. âDo you know what my nightmares really are?â he asked softly.
âWhat?â you managed.
âTheyâre not about Hydra. Not about blood. Theyâre about you walking away.â He leaned closer still, so close the chain strained. âTheyâre about you deciding not to come back. Thatâs worse than anything they ever did to me.â
Your chest tightened. âYou donât know me.â
âI know enough.â His voice was velvet and steel, quiet but unyielding. âI know youâre the only one who sees me, not the weapon, not the file. I know youâre the only one who makes me feel alive. And I know that if you told me to get down on my knees right now, I would.â
The silence stretched, your pulse loud in your ears. You swallowed hard, forced the file closed. âThatâs all for today.â
He didnât move, didnât look at the guards when they entered. His eyes stayed locked on you, his smile faint and chilling. âYouâll think about it tonight,â he said, his voice so soft it barely reached. âAnd when you do, it wonât feel inappropriate. Itâll feel inevitable.â
The door locked behind you, but the echo of his words followed like breath on the back of your neck.
---
The air in the room felt heavier every time you came back. You noticed it before you even sat down: a thickness in the silence, like someone had turned the oxygen down a notch. You told yourself you were imagining it. That it was just your own heart rate, your own anticipation.
Bucky was already there, as always, hands cuffed, posture deceptively loose. He didnât smile this time, didnât even greet you. He just watched you as you closed the door behind you, eyes following the movement of your fingers on the knob, the sweep of your coat as you sat down. âYouâre late,â he said quietly.
âBy two minutes,â you answered, opening the file.
He tilted his head. âTwo minutes is a long time in here.â
You ignored the comment, wrote the date at the top of your notes. âWeâll continue where we left off. You said your nightmares were about me walking away.â
âThey still are,â he said. His voice was flat, but underneath it was a tremor of something elseâanger, or need, or both. âI wake up and I canât breathe. Feels like youâve been ripped out of me. I sit in this cell and I think about what Iâd do if you stopped coming.â
âThatâs not a healthy attachment,â you said evenly.
His lips curved faintly. âYou think this is about health?â He leaned forward, the chain sliding across the table. âDo you think Iâd let anyone else see what I tell you? Youâre not just a doctor anymore. Youâre a confession booth. Youâre a church.â
âIâm not your priest,â you said, though your voice came out lower than intended.
âNo,â he murmured. âYouâre something else.â
The silence stretched, taut. You made yourself ask, âtell me what you dream about besides me walking away.â
His eyes darkened. âYou really want to know?â
âYes.â
He leaned in, his voice dropping to a whisper that filled the space between you. âI dream about you walking in. Only this time you lock the door behind you. Only this time you put the key on the table and slide it toward me.â
Your fingers tightened on the pen. âThatâs not reality.â
âIt could be,â he said softly. âYou keep telling yourself it couldnât, but youâre picturing it right now. Youâre picturing how it would feel. My hands on you. My mouth at your ear. Youâd still be telling yourself youâre in control even when youâre on your knees.â
âStop,â you said, your voice sharp.
He smiled faintly. âWhy? Youâre shaking.â
âIâm not.â
âYou are.â His eyes flicked to your hands, your throat. âYou always do when youâre turned on.â
Your heart lurched, heat flooding your face before you could stop it. âThis is inappropriate.â
He chuckled, low, dark. âWeâre past that word. You donât come back here for appropriateness. You come back here because you like the edge. You like sitting across from the thing youâre supposed to be controlling and wondering if you could survive it.â
You forced the pen to move, wrote somethingâanythingâon the paper. âTell me about Hydra,â you said, grasping at the clinical like a life raft.
His expression didnât change, but his voice softened. âThey taught me a lot about pain. About power. About taking what you want. They taught me how to read people, how to find the cracks. Youâve got cracks, Doctor. Beautiful little cracks all over you. I think about sliding my fingers into them.â
Your breath caught. âEnough.â
âYou keep saying that,â he murmured. âBut you never leave.â
He leaned closer, so close the chain went tight with a metallic snap. His voice was a whisper against the hum of the lights. âDo you know what I think about when Iâm in my cell at night? I think about your voice. The sound it would make if I pressed you against a wall. The way youâd gasp if I put my hand around your throat. I think about how long it would take before you stopped telling me to stop.â
The air felt thin, your lungs too small. âYou donât get to fantasize about hurting me,â you said, but your voice wasnât steady.
He smiled, wolfish now. âItâs not about hurting. Itâs about showing you what you want. You want someone who sees you. Someone who doesnât flinch. You want someone who can take all the darkness you hide and swallow it whole. Thatâs why youâre here.â
âThatâs not why Iâm here.â
âThen why are you?â You opened your mouth, but nothing came out. He sat back slowly, the chain relaxing, his gaze still locked on you. âTell me something true,â he said. âTell me something no one else knows. You donât have to say it out loud. Just think it. Iâll see it in your face.â
You swallowed hard, gripped the pen until your knuckles whitened. âThis session is over,â you said.
He didnât resist when the guards came in, but his eyes stayed on yours. His voice followed, soft and sure, âyouâll think about me tonight. Youâll touch yourself, and youâll hate yourself for it. And then youâll come back.â The door closed behind you, but you still felt him, like a shadow pressed against your back.
---
The room felt different today, and not just because youâd decided it would. You had prepared for this session differentlyâgrounding exercises before entering, controlled breathing, and a plan to shift the power dynamic. Youâd even changed your seating; instead of sitting directly opposite him, youâd placed your chair at a slight angle, an old tactic meant to reduce confrontational energy and reclaim some control. When the door opened, Buckyâs eyes went first to the new position of the chair. He smiled without teeth. âClever.â
You kept your tone even. âTake your seat.â
He obeyed, though the way he did it made it feel like he was humoring you. He sat with his legs slightly apart, the cuffs slack but still present, metal glinting under the fluorescent lights. His gaze stayed on you as you opened the file.
âToday weâre going to use a new approach,â you said. âYouâll answer questions. Directly. Yes or no.â
He tilted his head, amused. âA game of truth.â
âA structured session,â you corrected.
âTruth,â he repeated softly, as though savoring the word.
You held his gaze. âDo you understand?â
âYes,â he said, a little too easily.
âDo you want treatment?â
He smiled faintly. âNo.â
âDo you want to get better?â
âNo.â
âDo you want to hurt me?â
The smile widened, slow and deliberate. âYes.â
Your pulse thudded once, hard, but you kept your voice even. âWhy?â
âBecause it would make you look at me the way you should.â
You noted it, pen moving steadily. âDo you want to kill me?â
He paused, eyes narrowing slightly. âNo.â
âDo you want to control me?â
âYes.â
âDo you think about sex with me?â
His expression shiftedâhis head tilted, eyes darkening, the faintest curve of his lips. âAll the time.â
âDescribe it,â you said flatly.
For a moment he just watched you, the silence thick. Then his voice dropped low. âI think about you on your knees in this room. Not dressed like you are now. Nothing between my hands and your skin. I think about your hair in my fist. Your breath against my thigh. The sound youâd make when Iââ
âThatâs enough,â you cut in sharply, but your voice wasnât as sharp as youâd hoped.
He smiled slowly. âYou wanted me to say it. Youâre writing it down, but youâre picturing it too.â
You inhaled through your nose, forced the pen to keep moving. âDo you understand that this behavior reinforces your confinement?â
He chuckled softly. âDo you understand that youâre blushing?â
âIâm not,â you said automatically.
âYou are.â His eyes flicked down, back up. âYour throat, your cheeks. Every time I talk about you in my mouth, you color up like a candle.â
You shifted the angle of the questioning. âWhen you imagine control over me, what do you actually want? Physical domination? Emotional submission?â
âYes,â he said simply.
âThatâs not an answer,â you said.
âItâs the only answer,â he murmured. âI want you bent. Not broken. Bent. I want to see you stop pretending youâre untouchable.â
You straightened your spine, flipped to a clean page. âDo you imagine me consenting?â
His eyes stayed on yours. âSometimes.â
âDo you imagine me resisting?â
A small pause. âSometimes.â
âWhatâs the difference?â
He smiled faintly, leaned forward until the chain went taut. âHow you sound.â
Your stomach clenched. âYouâre projecting.â
âIâm confessing,â he said, voice velvet and steel. âYou wanted confession, Doctor. Here it is.â
You set your pen down deliberately. âI want to try something else. A visualization exercise. Close your eyes.â
He raised an eyebrow but obeyed, lids lowering. âAlright.â
âImagine yourself in a safe place,â you instructed. âDescribe it.â
His lips curved faintly. âYouâre there.â
âThatâs not what I asked.â
âThatâs whatâs there,â he murmured. âA room. Small. Concrete walls. No cuffs. You standing over me, keys in your hand. You tell me what to do. I obey. And thenâŠâ He chuckled low. âThen you stop telling me what to do.â
You clenched your fingers against the folder. âDo you ever imagine hurting yourself?â
âNo.â
âDo you ever imagine hurting others?â
âYes.â
âWho?â
His eyes opened again, sharp, unblinking. âAnyone who touches you.â
Your throat worked, but you forced the next question out. âDo you think thatâs normal?â
He smiled faintly. âI think itâs inevitable.â
The silence stretched. The pen trembled faintly in your hand. Finally you closed the file. âThis session is over.â
He leaned back slowly, the chain relaxing, but his eyes never left yours. His voice followed as the guards came in. âYouâre getting good at the games,â he murmured. âBut games end. Youâll come back. And one day, youâll stop asking questions and start answering.â The door shut behind you with a heavy clang, but you walked down the corridor feeling his voice still against your ear, like a promise you hadnât agreed to but couldnât shake.
---
The corridor to the interview room was quieter than usual. The storm had cleared overnight, leaving a grey morning behind. The wet smell of the concrete mixed with disinfectant, and every footstep echoed back at you like a countdown.
Youâd spent most of the night building a plan. The techniques youâd used so far had kept you above water but hadnât changed the current. He was always setting the tempo; you were reacting. Today would be different. Today youâd try something new. When you entered the room, the chair was already in place for you. You didnât sit right away. You stood for a moment, file in hand, looking at him.
Bucky sat at the table in his usual postureâbut not slouched. Upright. His wrists cuffed but resting loosely on the table. He didnât greet you this time. He just watched, like a predator clocking a shift in the wind.
You set the file down, drew the chair out, and sat at an angle again. âGood morning.â
âMorning,â he said softly.
You opened the file, but you didnât look at it. âI want to try something new today.â
He tilted his head, eyes narrowing slightly. âNew how?â
âLess clinical.â You made your voice steady. âMore human. Youâve told me a lot of things. Violent things. Fantasies. But I donât really know you. Not as a person. Iâd like to.â
Something flickered in his expressionâsurprise, maybe, or amusement. âYou want to know me?â
âYes.â
His smile was small, slow. âFinally, a real question.â
You nodded. âTell me about something before Hydra. Before all this. Something real. Not blood. Not training. Something you miss.â
For a moment he didnât answer. Then he leaned back, eyes going distant. âBrooklyn,â he said quietly. âSummers on the stoop. Smell of hot asphalt and cheap beer. Steveâs laugh when he still had a voice. The sound of a ball game on a radio from somebodyâs window.â
Your pen moved automatically, but your gaze stayed on him. âThatâs good. Keep going.â
He looked at you again, eyes sharp now. âYou like that? You like me soft?â
âI like you human,â you said simply.
He chuckled low. âYouâre good.â
You shifted in your chair, kept your tone calm. âThis is how we move forward. This is how treatment works. If you want me to help you, you have to let me see the man, not the weapon.â
That was when his expression changed. The faint smile flattened, his eyes hardening. âTreatment,â he repeated.
âYes,â you said. âWe can discuss optionsââ
The chair screeched against the floor as he surged forward, the chain clanging taut between his wrists and the table. It happened so fast you barely saw itâone moment you were speaking, the next his body was lunging across the narrow space, the chain snapping like a leash at full stretch.
Your chair tipped back a fraction as you scrambled to move, your file sliding to the floor. His metal fingers slammed down on the table hard enough to leave dents, his face inches from yours. The guards outside banged on the door but hadnât yet come in. His voice was low, raw. âDonât say that word to me.â
âTreatment?â you managed.
âLike Iâm sick,â he growled. âLike youâre going to fix me. Youâre not. Youâre mine.â
You forced yourself to stay seated, to breathe evenly, though your heart thundered against your ribs. âSit back, Sergeant Barnes.â
He didnât move. The chain rattled as his hands flexed. For a moment you thought heâd pull the whole table toward you. âYou think youâre in control,â he said, voice dark. âYou sit there with your little notes, your soft voice, like youâre safe. But Iâve been planning every second youâve been in this room. Every inch between us. Every breath you take.â
The door clanged as the guards burst in, shouting. Buckyâs head turned slightly at the noise, just enough for one of them to grab his shoulder. Another moved for his arms. He didnât resist, not reallyâbut he didnât step back either, not until heâd said what he wanted to say. âYouâre not going to fix me,â he said, voice dropping to a whisper meant only for you. âYouâre going to break first.â
The guards dragged him back, forcing him upright. He let them, a faint smile curving his mouth again, like the whole outburst had been a rehearsal. As they pulled him toward the door, he looked back at you once more. His eyes had gone cold again, but his mouth moved around words you almost didnât catch. âYou wanted to know me,â he murmured. âNow you do.â
Then he was gone, the door slamming shut behind him.
You sat alone at the table, your pen on the floor, your notes scattered, the dents in the wood glinting under the harsh light. And in the ringing silence, you could still feel the heat of his body leaning over you, the metallic snap of the chain, the whisper of his voice like a bruise under your skin.
The corridors of the asylum felt longer on the walk back from the interview room. The guards didnât speak; they just watched you from the corners of their eyes. Everyone always did after a breach. It was a ritual here: an incident, a debrief, a whisper network.
You forced yourself to keep your steps even, even though your hands still trembled. The pen was still on the interview table; youâd left it behind without realizing it.
Dr. Milton was waiting at your office door, a heavyset man with thinning hair and the permanent expression of someone whoâd seen too many things. He shut the door behind you as soon as you stepped in. âSit down,â he said. You did, setting the file on your desk with hands that didnât feel like your own. âYou were warned,â Milton said quietly. âBarnes isnât like the others. Heâs not an ordinary sociopath. Heâs disciplined. Strategic. And youâve been feeding him.â
âI havenâtââ you started.
He cut you off with a raised hand. âYou have. Youâve given him attention, proximity, stimulation. And now heâs testing the perimeter. You saw what he did today? That wasnât him losing control. That was him demonstrating it.â
You pressed your palms against your knees, forcing them still. âHeâs a patient.â
âHeâs a predator,â Milton said, his voice hard now. âYouâre not here to rehabilitate him. Youâre here to contain him. Donât forget that.â
He left before you could answer, the door clicking shut behind him.
For a long time you sat at your desk, staring at the empty space where the file sat. Your heartbeat still hadnât settled. You thought about his eyes inches from yours, the heat of his body across the table, the dents in the wood. Donât say that word to me. His voice had been low, almost a growl, but thereâd been something else under it, tooâsomething almost like hurt.
You didnât remember walking to your car. You didnât remember the drive. But when you blinked you were home, key in the door, apartment dark and silent around you. You turned on the lamp by the couch and stood in the living room, still wearing your coat, staring at nothing.
The apartment felt smaller tonight. The walls closer. The hum of the refrigerator too loud. You dropped your bag on the counter and went to the bathroom, gripping the sink. Your reflection in the mirror was pale, eyes rimmed with fatigue.
You thought about what Milton had said. Predator. Containment. You thought about the way Bucky had leaned across the table, how his face had been inches from yours, how heâd said youâre mine like it was a simple fact.
And then, before you could stop yourself, you thought about his other words. His promises. His fantasies. The way his voice had dropped when he described what heâd do if you stopped pretending. You closed your eyes, pressed your palms against the cool porcelain of the sink.
Youâre picturing it right now. Youâre picturing how it would feel.
The memory of his voice curled through you like smoke. Your stomach flipped. Heat pooled low, shame mixing with something you didnât want to name. You forced yourself away from the mirror, back into the living room. You poured a glass of wine but didnât drink it. You sat on the edge of the couch, staring at the clock on the wall. The second hand ticked loud, loud enough that you could imagine it was footsteps in the hall.
In your head, you heard him again.
Theyâre not about Hydra. Not about blood. Theyâre about you walking away.
Your phone buzzed on the coffee table. A text from an unknown number: Sweet dreams, Doctor.
Your chest tightened. No one outside the asylum had that nickname for you. You stared at the message, waiting for it to disappear, for it to turn out to be a wrong number. It didnât.
You locked the phone, set it down. Your hands shook. You told yourself it was a coincidence. A prank. But when you looked toward the window, you swore you felt eyes on you from the street below.
Later, when you finally lay down, you left the light on. Sleep came in fragments. Dreams came in flashes: his voice at your ear, his hands at your throat, the snap of the chain going taut. You woke at 3:17 a.m. with your heart racing, the sound of rain against the glass, and the faint smell of metal on your skin that shouldnât have been there.
You sat up, hugged your knees, stared into the dark. And you thought, not for the first time, that maybe Milton was rightâmaybe you werenât containing him. Maybe he was already here.
---
The interview room had changed. The chair you usually used was bolted now, a subtle but unmistakable shift. The guards who escorted you didnât speak but their eyes said everything: this was containment, not treatment.
You walked in with the file tucked under your arm, the pen already between your fingers like a weapon. Bucky sat at the table with both wrists cuffed and chained lower, the links shorter than before so he couldnât lean too far forward. He still looked relaxed, but the set of his shoulders told you he hated the new restrictions.
He raised his eyes when you entered. This time, there was no smile. Just that steady, deliberate gaze that felt like fingers on your skin. âDoctor,â he said quietly.
âSergeant Barnes.â
âTheyâve tightened the leash,â he murmured, glancing at the chain. âDoes that make you feel safer?â
âIt makes everyone safer,â you replied.
âNot you.â
You sat down across from him, your posture deliberately straight, the file opening with a crisp snap. âWeâre continuing our sessions. But with new parameters.â
He tilted his head, almost amused. âParameters.â
âYouâll answer my questions. Directly. No provocation.â
âAnd if I donât?â
âThen the session ends.â
He smiled faintly, slow and deliberate. âYouâre learning to threaten me. I like that.â
You wrote the date at the top of the notes, forced your hand to stay steady. âLetâs start with last week. The outburst. Why did the mention of treatment trigger you?â
He leaned back slightly, the chain rattling softly. âBecause you said it like you could fix me.â
âI want to help you.â
His gaze sharpened, his voice dropping low. âYou want to understand me. Thatâs not the same thing.â You tried a new tactic: silence. You let it stretch, pen poised but unmoving, eyes steady on his. People hated silence. They filled it. Bucky didnât fill it. He stared back, expression unreadable. Then slowly, deliberately, he leaned forward until the chain stopped him, eyes still on yours. âYou missed me,â he said softly.
âIâm your psychiatrist,â you said evenly.
He smirked. âYouâre my obsession.â
âThatâs not healthy,â you countered.
He chuckled low. âStop talking like a textbook. You donât sound like that when youâre home.â
Your pen twitched. âAnd how would you know how I sound at home?â
His eyes glinted. âYou hum. You donât even realize it. Little broken bits of songs. You did it Tuesday night while making tea.â You froze. He smiled faintly. âYou left your blinds half-open. I know your kitchen light now. I know the way you tilt your head when youâre reading. I know which window is your bedroom.â
âStop,â you said sharply.
âWhy?â His voice was quiet but relentless. âYou like being seen.â
âThatâs a violation.â
âThatâs a confession,â he said.
Your heart pounded, but you forced the pen to move. âTell me what you want from me,â you said, trying another new tactic: direct confrontation.
His expression didnât change, but his voice didâsofter now, darker. âI want to watch you unravel.â
âThatâs not going to happen,â you said firmly.
He smiled faintly. âIt already is.â
You shifted, crossing your legs, pen scratching furiously on the paper. âDo you fantasize about harming me?â
âNo.â
âDo you fantasize about controlling me?â
âYes.â
âExplain.â
His eyes gleamed. âYou walk in here wrapped in rules, in coats, in professionalism. I want to take each layer off. Slowly. Until thereâs nothing left but you.â
âThatâs not reality.â
âThatâs inevitability,â he murmured.
You set the pen down, trying a final tactic: empathy. âI think youâre lonely,â you said softly. âI think all of thisâthe threats, the fantasiesâis about connection. Youâve been hurt. Youâve been used. You donât know how to want someone without trying to own them.â
For a moment, something flickered in his expression. A crack. A shadow of something softer. But then it was gone, replaced by that slow smile. âYouâre good,â he said quietly. âBut youâre not safe.â
The guards shifted at the door. The tension in the room was palpable.
You stood, closing the file. âThatâs all for today.â
He didnât move. He just watched you, eyes following you to the door. His voice followed, soft, low, like a promise, âsoon, you wonât leave until I tell you.â
The door shut, but you walked the corridor with the sense of him pressed against your back, as if his words had weight and hands and were already on your skin.
---
It started quietly that night, the way most bad dreams doâwith something ordinary. You were in your apartment, lights dim, rain whispering at the windows. The clock on the wall ticked softly. You were making tea, humming without realizing it.
Except it wasnât quite right. The air was heavier than it should have been. The light from the lamp flickered. The hum of the refrigerator slowed down, like someone dragging a fingernail across a record.
You turned, mug in hand. The kitchen was empty, but the apartment felt occupied. That sensationâof being watchedâpressed against your back like a hand. You set the mug down on the counter and looked toward the hallway. It was dark there. Darker than it should have been. A heavy kind of dark, the kind that eats the edges of things. âHello?â you said softly.
Nothing.
You stepped toward the hall. The boards under your feet creaked like they were further away than they actually were. When you reached the hall, the apartment was gone. The walls were concrete now, damp and grey, lined with pipes. The hum of the refrigerator had become the hum of fluorescent lights. Somewhere in the distance, a chain rattled.
You looked back over your shoulder. The kitchen was gone too. Just a long corridor, doors on either side, closed and numbered but without handles. A shadow moved at the far end of the hall. You told yourself to wake up. You even tried to move your fingers the way youâd practiced in college when youâd read about lucid dreaming. But your fingers felt heavy, like they werenât yours.
The shadow moved closer. A manâs silhouette. Broad shoulders, dark hair falling across his forehead. âWhere are you going, Doctor?â His voice echoed, low, dark, familiar.
Your stomach lurched. âThis is a dream,â you whispered.
He laughed softly. âIs it?â
You started to run, but the hallway stretched as you moved, every step landing in slow motion. The doors on either side began to rattle, as though something inside them wanted out. You reached the end of the hall and found a single door ajar. Dim light spilled through the crack. You pushed it open and stepped inside. It was his cell.
The bed was there, the table bolted to the floor, the single high window. The air smelled like metal and damp concrete. But the cuffs were empty on the table. You turned to leave but the door slammed shut behind you.
You spun back, heart hammering, and found him there. Not the chained version from your sessions. This Bucky was unbound, standing in the center of the room. His hair was damp, clinging to his temples, his blue eyes fixed on you. âYou keep coming here,â he murmured. âEven in your sleep.â
âThis isnât real,â you said, though your voice was shaking.
He stepped closer. âYou think you can study me, write your notes, go home to your quiet little apartment. But Iâm already there.â
You backed up until your spine hit the cold wall. âWake up,â you whispered to yourself. âWake up.â
He kept moving, slow and deliberate. âI told you I dream about you. Did you think you wouldnât dream about me?â When he reached you, he lifted his metal hand and placed it against the wall beside your head. The cold radiated through the concrete. His body was a breath away from yours. âSay my name,â he said softly. You shook your head. His smile was faint, dark. âSay it.â
You forced your mouth open. âBucky.â
He leaned closer, his breath brushing your ear. âThatâs better.â His flesh hand came up, fingers curling around your chin, tilting your head up. âYouâve been thinking about this,â he murmured. âThe edge. The danger. Me.â
âNo,â you said, but it sounded like a lie.
He chuckled low. âLiar.â You tried to push him away, but your arms wouldnât move. They felt like they were encased in concrete. His hand slid from your chin to your throat, not squeezing but resting there, his thumb brushing over your pulse. âYou feel that?â he asked. âThatâs what control sounds like.â
âStop,â you whispered.
âYou donât want me to,â he said. He bent his head closer, his lips almost touching your ear. âSoon, you wonât wake up.â
Your heart thundered. âWake up,â you whispered to yourself again.
âWake up,â he echoed, his mouth curving. âOr donât.â
He pressed closer, the weight of his body pinning you lightly against the wall. His hand at your throat wasnât squeezing but you could feel the strength there, the threat of it. His mouth brushed your jaw, not a kiss but a promise.
You jerked awake with a strangled gasp, sitting bolt upright in bed. The room was dark, the rain whispering against the window. Your heart was hammering. For a long time you sat in the dark, your palm pressed to your throat where his thumb had been in the dream. The skin there was warm, but you swore you could still feel the cold edge of metal.
On the nightstand, your phone lit up with a new text from the same unknown number. No words this time. Just an image: a concrete wall, grey and damp, with a handprint pressed into it.
---
The asylum was humming with its usual unease when you arrived the next morning. The air smelled faintly of bleach and damp fabric, like it always did after a storm. Staff moved through the halls with their clipped steps, clipboards clutched close, their eyes sliding over you but not quite meeting yours. Word of the incident had traveled. It always did.
You went through security as you always didâbag checked, coat hung, file folder pressed against your ribs like armor. The guards didnât say anything, but one of them, a younger man with a shaved head, gave you a glance that lasted too long. A warning, or pity.
By the time you reached your office, you were already tightening your shoulders against it. You opened the door, flicked on the light, set the folder down on your desk.
And froze.
There was something on your chair. A folded piece of paper. Crisp, clean, resting directly where you would have sat. Your hand hovered before you picked it up. No one was supposed to have access to your office without keys. Security was strict. Files were checked out and logged. But the paper was there, simple as breath.
You unfolded it with slow, careful fingers. Inside was a single line, written in neat block letters: You hum when youâre scared. I like that one the most.
Your chest tightened. You folded the paper again, shoved it into the desk drawer, locked it. You didnât tell anyone. You should have. You knew you should have. But the thought of handing it over to Milton or the guards made something inside you coil tighter. If you gave it up, youâd be admitting heâd gotten past the locks. Past the rules. Past you.
When you saw him later that day, he didnât say a word about it. He sat with his hands folded, cuffs gleaming, eyes calm and steady. But when the silence stretched and you forced yourself to meet his gaze, the corner of his mouth lifted, just slightly. Like he knew you were carrying his words in your pocket.
The gifts didnât stop. The next came at home. You walked into your apartment after a long day, dropped your keys on the counter, and there it was: a book lying on the table. You knew you hadnât left it there. An old copy of Dracula, worn at the edges, the spine cracked. Inside, a bookmark pressed between two pagesâa scene where Mina writes about feeling watched. In the margin, a neat, sharp hand had written: She wanted it too.
You slammed the book shut, your stomach flipping. Your locks were intact. No windows broken. No sign of forced entry. But the book was there, solid and undeniable. That night you called maintenance, asked for new locks. The man who came the next day installed them without comment, but you swore you saw the faintest smirk tug at his mouth when you asked if they were âsecure.â
By the third gift, you couldnât keep it to yourself. You came into your office one morning and found a single lily lying on your desk. White, perfect, dew still clinging to the petals as though it had just been cut. No note this time. Just the flower. Your stomach clenched. Lilacs, heâd said once. Heâd smelled lilacs on you that first session. Now it was a lilyâstark, pure, funereal.
Milton walked past your office just as you were staring at it. He stopped, frowned. âWhatâs that?â
You swallowed. âA flower. Someone must haveââ
âNo one should be in here,â Milton said sharply. He stepped inside, looked at the lily, then back at you. âBarnes?â
âI donât know,â you said quickly.
He studied you for a long moment, then his voice dropped. âHeâs gotten into your head.â
You looked down at the lily, at the pure white of it, at the way it seemed almost obscene against the stack of sterile files. âMaybe he always was.â
Milton picked up the flower, snapped the stem, and tossed it in the trash. âYou need distance. Or youâre going to drown in him.â When he left, you sat alone, staring at the trash bin. The lily lay bent, crushed, but still beautiful.
That night, you dreamed again. Only this time there was no corridor, no doors, no transition. You were just in your apartment. The lights flickered. And Bucky was there, sitting in your chair like he belonged in it, metal fingers tapping against the armrest. âI told you,â he said softly, âIâll always bring you something.â
When you woke, there was nothing in the room. But on the nightstand, where you were certain there had been only your lamp and your phone, there was a small piece of folded paper. You opened it with shaking fingers. Soon you wonât have to wake up alone.
---
The asylum corridors had always been sterile, humming with fluorescent light and faint bleach, but lately they felt hostile. You noticed it in the way the guards lingered longer outside your office. In the way staff lowered their voices when you passed. In the way Miltonâs eyes followed you like he was waiting for you to collapse.
But it wasnât them you noticed most. It was him. Every time you entered the interview room now, he was already watching. Sometimes with that faint half-smile, sometimes with nothing at all, but always steady, like he had been waiting for you specifically. âMorning, Doctor,â he said one day, his voice low, conversational, as though the chains didnât exist. âBlue dress today. You havenât worn that one in a while.â
You glanced down before you could stop yourself. He was right. You hadnât worn it in months. You made your voice firm. âWeâre not here to discuss my clothing.â
He smirked. âYou put it on for me, though. Didnât you?â You ignored him and wrote the date, your handwriting tighter than usual.
At home, the intrusion became subtlerâor maybe you were simply starting to notice what had been there all along. One evening you came back late, coat damp from the rain, and found your apartment exactly as youâd left it. Almost. The lamp by the couch was turned an inch to the left. A book youâd left on the coffee table was open, spine cracked to a random page. You told yourself you might have done it, might have forgotten. But when you closed the book, a note slipped out.
It was short, written in the same neat block letters as before: You should eat more. Skipping breakfast isnât good for you.
Your stomach dropped. You hadnât eaten that morning. You hadnât told anyone. You crumpled the paper and shoved it in the trash, then immediately dug it back out, smoothed it flat, and locked it in your desk drawer at home. You told yourself youâd bring it to Milton. But you didnât.
By the third week, you were jumpy. Every knock on your door, every footstep in the hall, every shadow under the streetlamp outside your apartment windowâyou flinched at all of it. At the asylum, you tried new tactics: grounding exercises, silence, even simple rapport-building techniques. One day you tried to take control by leaning forward first. âYou said you wanted me to know you,â you said. âTell me something real. Not fantasy. Not control. Something from your childhood.â
Bucky studied you for a long moment. Then his mouth curved. âYour auntâs maiden name is Carroll. Your father worked in insurance. You moved to the city when you were eight.â
Your pen froze on the page. âThatâs not about you,â you said, though your voice wasnât steady.
âNo,â he said softly. âItâs about how much I already know about you. More than you know about me.â He leaned forward until the chain tightened, his voice low. âTell me something real, Doctor. Or Iâll keep leaving pieces of you on your desk until you admit youâre mine.â
That night, the gift wasnât in your apartment. It was in your car. You slid into the driverâs seat after leaving the asylum, file clutched tight in your hand, and saw it immediately: a single Polaroid lying on the passenger seat. Your chest tightened as you picked it up. The picture was grainy, dim. It was your building. The window to your bedroom, lit from within. On the back, written in those same block letters: I like the way you look when you read in bed.
Your throat closed. You dropped the Polaroid like it burned.
Sleep stopped coming easy. When it did, the dreams came back. Always the same walls. Always the same corridor. Always him. Sometimes cuffed, sometimes not, but always moving toward you with the kind of certainty that made you feel like running was pointless. One night you dreamed of being back in the interview room. You sat at the table with your pen and file, and when you looked up, the cuffs were gone. He was across from you, leaning forward, his hand sliding the file away from you like it was a toy. âStop pretending you want to save me,â he murmured. âSay what you want.â
In the dream, you did. You told him you wanted him. And he smiled like he had been waiting for it all along. You woke up sweating, your sheets twisted around you, the echo of his laugh still in your ears. On the nightstand, where there had been nothing when you went to bed, there was another note. Youâre almost ready.
By the time you arrived at the asylum the next morning, you were trembling with exhaustion. Milton stopped you in the hall, his face hard. âYou need to step back,â he said. âBarnes is escalating. Heâs not safe. And youâre compromised.â
You swallowed. âIâm fine.â
âYouâre not.â Miltonâs voice dropped. âHeâs in your head. Everyone can see it.â
You tried to protest, but the words tangled. Milton shook his head. âOne more incident, and Iâll pull you off his case. Permanently.â
You walked away before he could see the way your hands shook. But in the interview room, when you sat down and opened the file, Bucky looked at you with that slow, knowing smile, and you understood something you hadnât wanted to admit: You were already his case.
---
The storm came back with a vengeance that night. You could hear it even inside the asylumârain slashing the walls, wind clawing at the windows, thunder rolling so low it rattled the pipes in the floor. The lights flickered once, twice, and then the entire building went black.
The sudden silence was worse than the storm. The hum of the fluorescents gone. The steady drone of the security fans cut off. For a moment, the only sound was the rain hammering against the concrete and the faint, too-close sound of your own breath.
The emergency lights didnât come on. They should have. But they didnât. Staff voices called in the halls, radios sputtered static. You caught one guard saying âgeneratorâs downâ before the words blurred into noise. Someone shouted for flashlights, someone else cursed.
You were already moving down the corridor toward the patient wing. Your pulse was hammering, but you told yourself it was procedureâmake sure high-risk inmates were secure, check doors, and confirm locks.
Buckyâs cell was halfway down the block. The hall was pitch-dark. You used your own small flashlight, the beam thin, bouncing off concrete, throwing long shadows. Every door looked the same, steel reinforced with narrow viewing slots. When you reached his cell, you lifted the flashlight, shining it inside. Empty. The bed was there. The table. The chains bolted to the wall. But no Bucky.
Your throat went dry. You flicked the light across the room again, heart hammering. Empty. Absolutely empty. âShit,â you whispered. You spun, hand fumbling for the radio clipped to your belt. Static only. No voices. No signal. âShit,â you said again, louder this time.
That was when you felt it.
A breath against the back of your neck. You froze. The flashlight trembled in your hand. You didnât want to turn. Every part of you screamed not to. But you did.
Too late.
An arm snaked around your waist, the other clamping over your mouth, pulling you back into a body that radiated heat and strength. The flashlight clattered to the floor, beam spinning uselessly across the concrete.
âMiss me?â Buckyâs voice was low, right against your ear. Calm. Almost amused.
You thrashed immediately, shoving at his arms, twisting, trying to stomp back at his shin, but his grip only tightened. His flesh arm crushed your torso against him; the metal hand at your face was unyielding, cold against your skin.
âEasy,â he murmured. âStop fighting.â You shoved again, desperate, nails digging at the band of muscle around your ribs. He grunted but didnât loosen. âI said stop.â His voice sharpened, the steel underneath flashing through.
You tried to scream into his palm, but it came out muffled, pathetic. He laughed softly, the sound curling hot in your ear. âThatâs cute.â
You twisted harder, nearly broke free for a breath, but he caught you by the wrists, spun you, and slammed you against the wall. Not hard enough to knock you outâbut hard enough that your breath left you in a gasp.
Your wrists were pinned above your head in his metal grip, his body close enough that you could feel every line of him against your back. âYou think you can run?â he murmured, breath rough now, chest rising against you. âYouâve been running since the first day. But you came back. You always come back.â
âLet me go!â you hissed, voice ragged.
He chuckled, low and dark. âNo.â
You tried to kick backward, catch his shin, but he only laughed again, dragging you away from the wall. His grip didnât falter. You fought every inch, heels digging into the floor, but he was relentless.
He pulled you toward his cell. The door was open. The locks that had been shut when youâd looked in were now unlatched, hanging uselessly from the frame.
Your heart thundered. âNoââ
âYes.â
He hauled you inside, the shadows swallowing both of you. You clawed at his hands, your voice breaking as you tried to scream again, but his body dwarfed yours, his strength absolute.
When you saw where he was dragging you, your stomach dropped. The bed. The cuffs bolted into the frame. âNoâstopââ
He shoved you down onto the mattress, the metal frame groaning under the weight. His flesh hand pressed your chest down as he snapped one cuff around your wrist with the other. The sound of it closing was deafening in the dark.
You twisted violently, tried to pull free, but the restraint held fast. âStop fighting,â he said again, firmer now. âYouâre mine. Youâve always been mine.â
You snarled, kicking up at him, but he caught your ankle easily, pinning it against the mattress. His body loomed over yours, his breath ragged now, matching yours. The second cuff closed around your other wrist. Cold, unyielding, locking you to his bed.
For a moment, he just stood there above you, breathing hard, staring down. The shadows cut across his face, eyes gleaming with something raw and hungry. Then he leaned close, his lips brushing your ear. âNow,â he whispered, voice a promise and a threat all at once, âyouâre not going anywhere.â
The frame of his bed was cold beneath your back, the thin mattress no buffer at all against the steel. Your chest rose and fell fast, breath shaking, your arms stretched above you and tethered wide.
Bucky was still standing over you, his shoulders rising and falling with his own breath. His hair clung to his forehead in damp strands, a mix of sweat and rain. The storm outside pounded against the barred window, thunder rolling in low and long like a warning drum.
âStop fighting,â he said again, voice lower now, roughened from exertion. He braced a hand on the bed by your hip, leaning down until his face was a few inches from yours. The smell of himâsweat, metal, the faint tang of something darkerâfilled your head. âI told you what would happen if you kept running.â
You yanked at the cuffs, twisting your wrists hard enough that the metal bit into your skin. âLet me go!â
He chuckled, soft but dangerous, his eyes flicking down your body and back up to your face. âYou still donât get it. Youâre not here because I let you be. Youâre here because you came back. Over and over. And nowââ he dragged a knuckle slowly down your sternum, not hard enough to hurt but enough to make you shudder âânow Iâm done waiting.â
You thrashed again, trying to get a knee up, but his hand slid to your thigh, pressing it back down against the mattress. The metal arm shifted, catching your other leg when you tried to kick, pinning you open. âStop,â he said again, this time a growl against your ear. âStop fighting.â
âNoââ
His metal fingers wrapped gently but unyieldingly around your jaw, tilting your face up to his. The cold of the vibranium contrasted with the heat of his flesh thumb brushing over your pulse. âYou think I donât like it?â he murmured. âYou think I donât like watching you try?â He leaned closer, until his lips were at your ear, his breath warm against your skin. âBut weâre past trying now. You know it. I know it.â
He shifted, his body coming over yours, caging you without even needing the cuffs. His weight was held just enough to keep you pinned without crushing. One of his knees slid between your thighs, prying you open by inches.
You bucked against him, wrists straining against the cuffs, but it only made the metal creak and your skin burn. He caught your chin again, made you look at him. His eyes were dark, but not wildâsteady, intense, like a tide pulling you out. âLook at me,â he ordered quietly. âLook at me while you fight.â You did, even though your heart was hammering, your breath ragged. âThatâs it,â he murmured. âThatâs the look. Thatâs what Iâve been waiting for.â
His hand left your chin and trailed down, slow, deliberate, fingertips skimming the collar of your blouse, tracing the line of fabric as though mapping it. His metal hand stayed braced above your head, gripping the bedframe, anchoring him.
Outside, thunder cracked. The emergency lights flickered once, then died completely, plunging the cell into a dim blue darkness from the storm beyond the bars. The only illumination came in flashes, lightning strobes that cut across his face and the gleam of his metal arm.
He bent closer, his mouth a breath away from yours, voice a low growl threaded with something like a promise, ânow stop running.â His palm flattened against your stomach, sliding upward a fraction, the heat of it stark against your skin. âOr donât,â he whispered. âIt just makes it better.â
You yanked at the cuffs again, wrists aching, chest rising and falling fast. You felt the mattress shift under you as he settled his weight more fully, knees braced on either side of your hips, caging you completely. The sound of the rain on the window and the thunder outside blurred with the sound of your own pulse.
âSay my name,â he murmured, lips brushing your jaw. âSay it while youâre still fighting.â His mouth descended, aiming for yours, but you jerked your head aside, jaw clenching. Your heart hammered. His lips brushed your cheek instead, hot and insistent, stubble scraping your skin as he murmured, âstill fighting? Even now?â
You twisted away again, baring your teeth, refusing the kiss. A dark, pleased sound rumbled in his chest. The metal hand slid from the bedframe and caught your chin, steel fingers unyielding as they guided your face back to him, thumb pressing against your lower lip, prying it open. âLook at me,â he ordered again, voice molten and low. âI said look at me.â
You glared up, jaw aching, breath coming fastâbut he only grinned, leaning in so close you could taste the heat of him. His mouth crashed onto yours, not gentle or coaxing, but hungry, claiming. You tried to twist free but he held you there, tongue sliding past your lips, swallowing the start of a protest. Your defiance was fuel to him; he devoured it, teeth scraping your lower lip until you gasped, the sound muffled against his mouth.
His flesh hand moved to your throat, palm warm as it circled the column of your neck. He squeezedânot enough to cut off breath, but enough to claim, to hold you steady. âKeep fighting,â he whispered against your mouth, breath hot. âLet me see how much you want to lose.â
He kissed you again, deeper this time, the weight of his body shifting, chest pressing yours into the thin mattress. His hips slotted against you, the hard line of his cock a promise through the thin fabric. Your legs kicked uselessly beneath him, but he only rocked his hips, grinding down until you felt the heat of him, thick and aching, through both your clothes.
He dragged his mouth from yours to your jaw, then lowerâlips and teeth marking a trail along your neck, finding the place where your pulse pounded wild. He nipped there, sucking until you whimpered, the sound escaping before you could choke it back.
âMine,â he said, lips brushing the new bruise as his hand slid down, gripping the buttons of your blouse. You tried to buck him off, arching your back in defiance, but he pinned your hips, the metal hand slipping to your jaw again to hold you steady.
One by one, he popped the buttons open, slow and deliberate, baring your chest to the cold air and the heat of his gaze. Lightning flickered again, and you saw his eyes devour youâgreedy, wild, possessive.
He bent to your collarbone, kissing, then biting, leaving marks in his wake. His teeth grazed your skin, followed by the slick heat of his tongue, soothing the sting. You writhed, wrists aching, and he just growled softly, his hands everywhereâstroking, gripping, exploring every inch of newly revealed flesh.
His mouth closed around your nipple, tongue circling, sucking until it peaked and you gasped, arching into the touch despite yourself. He lifted his head, breath ragged, lips glossy with spit. âYou taste fucking perfect,â he growled, then bit down just hard enough to make you whimper again, pain blooming bright and hot under his mouth.
You turned your head away, panting, refusing to look at him. He grabbed your throat again, turning your face back, eyes burning. âNo hiding,â he snarled. âYou want to fight? Fight. But Iâm not letting you go.â
His metal hand slid lower, cold against your ribs, slipping beneath your skirt, pushing it up inch by inch. His palm cupped your thigh, squeezing hard, thumb pressing bruises into your skin as his mouth claimed your lips again, bruising and relentless.
You tried to twist away, but the cuffs held you wide, the bed unyielding beneath you, his body a cage. He kissed you harder, tongue invading, swallowing every protest, every moan. When he finally broke away, your breath was ragged, lips swollen and tingling from his rough attention.
He stared down at you, his hair shadowing his eyes, chest heaving. âYou donât get to hide from me,â he said softly, a threat and a promise both. His hands moved lower, peeling the rest of your blouse off, exposing you to the dark and to him.
âKeep fighting,â he whispered, voice thick with hunger, âand Iâll just mark you up more.â
His mouth returned to your skinâbiting, kissing, licking, each mark a declaration. Your body arched, torn between defiance and a pulse of want that you tried, desperately, to deny. Lightning flashed, painting the room in stark relief, the silver of his arm gleaming where it pressed between your thighs, cold and merciless as he spread you open. âYouâre not going anywhere,â he repeated, his lips dragging lower, mouth hot and hungry as he tasted his way down your body. âYouâre mine now.â
He pressed your skirt higher, bunching it around your hips, then slid his handsâflesh and metalâdown to your knees. His palms urged your legs wider, baring you to the chill air and the heat of his gaze. You bucked in the cuffs, wrists aching, but he only smiled, holding you open, drinking in every involuntary shudder and the flash of anger that lingered behind your eyes.
His mouth descended, tracing a path from your knee up your inner thigh, pausing to nip at the sensitive skin there until you jerked, a choked sound tearing from your throat. âThatâs it,â he murmured, lips pressed to the softest part of you. âLet me hear you.â His stubble scraped rough, tongue soothing the sting in a pattern that left your skin tingling and raw.
He mouthed up, his nose nuzzling the edge of your panties, breathing deep, the warmth of his breath making you squirm. You turned your head away, refusing to look, but the hand at your thigh squeezed, metal thumb digging a warning into the soft flesh. âEyes on me.â You ignored him, breath coming in short, angry bursts, but when you didnât obey, he hooked his thumb under the thin cotton, dragging the fabric aside with a single, patient motion.
Cool air licked over you. Then his mouth was there, hot and wet, tongue flat against your folds as he licked a broad stripe up the length of your pussy, groaning low and hungry against your skin. âFuck, you tasteââ his words cut off as he buried his face deeper, tongue circling your clit, lips sealing around it as he sucked, slow at first, then with building pressure.
You twisted in the cuffs, a desperate little gasp ripping from your lips. He didnât let up, the metal hand pinning your thigh, his flesh fingers spreading you wider, holding you perfectly open for him. His tongue was relentless, lapping through your slick, tracing every line and dip until your hips bucked against his mouth, searching for escape or for more, you didnât even know anymore.
He groaned again, the sound vibrating against your clit, and you felt the deep answering throb all through your body. His mouth was hot and possessive, his teeth grazing just enough to make you shiver, then soothing the spot with soft, slow licks that threatened to undo you completely. Every time you tried to pull away, he followed, locking you down tighter, eating you like a man starving.
âLet me hear you, doc,â he growled, lifting his head just enough that his breath teased across your soaked skin. âLet them all know who you belong to.â Then he dove back in, tongue swirling, two fingers sliding inside you without warningâthick, relentless, curling to hit that spot that made your whole body arch off the mattress, a ragged, involuntary moan bursting from your chest.
âNâah, f-fuckâ!â Your thighs trembled, legs trying to close, but the grip of his hands and the cuffs at your wrists left you nowhere to go, nothing to do but take every hungry, punishing lick he gave you. His tongue flicked and circled, his fingers thrusting slow and deep, drawing out every wet sound from your cunt, every tremor from your core.
He watched you with hooded eyes, lips slick with you, drinking in every shiver, every gasp, every filthy, unguarded noise. âLook at you,â he murmured, voice wrecked and triumphant. âYou can fight all you want, but your body already knows who owns you.â
He leaned in, mouth sealing over your clit as he sucked, fingers pressing up, unrelenting, until the tension coiled so tight in your belly it felt like breaking. âCome for me,â he growled into your skin. âNow.â
And when the pleasure finally broke, crashing through youâhot, unstoppable, loudâyou screamed, the sound echoing off concrete and steel, your body thrashing under him as he held you pinned and open, feasting on every shudder and sob that ripped free.
He licked you through every aftershock, savoring the taste, then finally lifted his head, lips swollen, eyes wild and greedy. He crawled up your body, pressing a filthy, possessive kiss to your mouth, making you taste yourself on his tongue.
He didnât bother undressing himself; his clothes stayed on, rough fabric scraping against your bare thighs as he braced over you, knees spread between yours. His cock strained the front of his pants, pressing hot and thick right where you ached for friction. He dragged the head of it through your slick folds, coating himself with you, grunting in pleasure at the way you whimpered and tried to close your legsâeven though he had you pinned, nowhere to go.
âLook at you, fuck,â he rasped, grabbing your jaw in one callused hand, forcing your head back so you couldnât look away. His other hand slid between your bodies, pulling his cock free just enough to push the head against your entrance, stretching you as he thrust in slow and unyielding. âSo fucking wet for me. Donât pretend you didnât want it.â
You writhed beneath him, every inch a live wire, wrists aching in the cuffs. He held you pinned, his cock forcing you open, inch by thick inch. The first thrust burned, made you gasp, but he didnât pause; he bottomed out, groaning as he filled you to the hilt, hips grinding down, pelvis pressed to yours.
You twisted, fighting against the grip he kept on your face, your voice breaking, âNâlet goâ!â
He just smirked, rolling his hips, grinding deeper. âWhy would I let you go when you sound like that?â His metal hand slid down, bracing your thigh wide open, thumb digging into the soft flesh. He drew back and fucked you hardâslow at first, making you feel every ridge, every stretch, every time your cunt gripped and fluttered helplessly around him.
His mouth dropped to your throat, biting hard, leaving fresh marks beside the others. âYou hear that?â he growled, voice muffled by your skin. âThatâs you. Thatâs what you sound like when youâre mine.â
The rhythm picked upâharder now, desperate, each thrust shoving you up the bed, making the cuffs rattle and the mattress squeal under your hips. Your skirt bunched higher, the thin cotton soaking up your slick, panties stretched and useless where heâd pushed them aside. Every time you tried to twist away he just fucked you harder, pinning you down, chest pressed to yours, breath hot at your ear.
You clenched around him, every thrust driving a whimper or gasp from your lips, but he shushed you with a kiss, tongue forcing your mouth open, stealing the sounds right out of your throat. âKeep fighting,â he panted, biting your lower lip, âkeep fucking fighting. Feels better when you tryânghââ His cock slammed deep, grinding, the head rubbing right where you needed it, drawing a sharp, broken moan from your chest.
He shifted, angling his hips, one hand slipping down to rub circles against your clit, merciless and fast. The pleasure punched through your body, white-hot, shattering the last of your control.
You came with a strangled cryâlegs shaking, cunt pulsing tight around his cock as he kept fucking you through it, hips snapping, fingers never stopping on your clit. The pleasure was overwhelming, sharp and endless, making you sob and gasp, every nerve lit up.
He didnât stop, didnât let up, riding your orgasm out with brutal precision, hips never faltering. When you tried to squirm away, he just pressed you down, fucking you until you were shaking and soaked, the cuffs creaking with every helpless jerk of your arms.
And through it all, he never cameâjust kept you pinned and open, marking you with every thrust, every bite, every growl of your name in your ear. His cock throbbed deep inside you, thick and hot, but he denied himself the release, focused only on wringing every last cry and tremor from your body.
When you finally collapsed beneath him, raw and trembling, he leaned down, pressing a filthy kiss to your jaw, lips curling in a satisfied smirk.
He didnât release you. Instead, he leaned over, eyes dark and sharp, hands spreading over your chest and belly, holding you down as he rutted slow against your thigh. âNot done,â he growled, voice low, lips brushing your ear and jaw. âWant your mouth on me.â
Before you could answer, he movedâkneeling over your head, knees braced on either side of your shoulders, his bulk and presence blocking out everything but him. His cock was swollen and leaking, the tip flushed, slick with your arousal. He gripped the base and tapped it against your lips, smearing a line of salty precome. âOpen,â he ordered.
You clenched your jaw, turned away, but his metal hand slid under your chin, fingers cold and strong as they forced your face up. âDonât make me ask twice.â He pressed forward, cock sliding along your lips, and when you tried to bite, he just laughedâa deep, savage soundâand wedged his thumb between your teeth, prying your jaw open. âThatâs it. Wide.â
He guided himself into your mouth, thick and insistent, groaning as your lips stretched around him, the taste of him filling you. His hips rocked slowly, pushing deeper, the head of his cock hitting the back of your throat. âFuck, thatâs good. Take it.â His flesh hand tangled in your hair, holding your head steady, as he fucked your mouth with slow, unhurried thrusts, dragging out the slick wet sounds, the choke and swallow of your throat.
You tried to twist away, but the cuffs held your arms above your head, body pinned under his weight. His metal hand slid down, tracing your cheek, thumb stroking the corner of your mouth as he watched himself disappear between your lips. âSuch a pretty mouth, doc. Bet you never thought youâd be here.â He pulled back, letting you gasp for breath, spit slicking your chin, then thrust in deeper, making you gag, drool sliding down your neck. âThatâs it. Take it. Let me feel you fight.â
While he rocked into your throat, his other hand drifted down between your legs, fingers finding you slick and sensitive. He stroked your folds, teasing your clit, then shoved two fingers inside you, curling and thrusting in rhythm with his cock, forcing you to moan around him, every sound vibrating up his shaft. âGonna make you come again like this,â he snarled, hips snapping harder. âWanna feel you choke and shudder, wanna fuck your throat while you come on my hand.â
You squeezed your thighs around his arm, trying to squirm away, but he only fingered you harder, the heel of his hand grinding your clit, his cock filling your mouth, choking you with every thrust. The air was thick with the sounds and the desperate, helpless whimpers that spilled out as you lost the rhythm of your breathing, your body betraying you, hips rolling up into his hand.
âLook at you, fuck,â he grunted, pulling back just long enough for you to gasp, air and spit flooding your lips, then slamming forward again, cock hot and heavy and unforgiving. âSuch a mess for me. You like being used, donât you? Say itâah, fuckâsay youâre mine.â
You tried to speak, but he kept you full, only more muffled sounds escaping. The pleasure built fast, shame and need tangled as his fingers drove you wild, his thumb never leaving your clit, his cock stretching your throat until tears prickled in your eyes.
The orgasm hit hardâtight and suddenâyour body shuddering around his hand, pulse racing, cunt gripping his fingers as your mouth and throat fluttered helplessly around his cock. He fucked you through it, not letting up, his own breath ragged, hips slowing only when you finally collapsed, spent and gasping, drool and spit slicking your lips and chin.
He pulled out, cock glistening, one hand stroking your cheek. He pressed his forehead to yours, voice still hungry but gentle now, his thumb tracing your lip. âNot finished with you, doc,â he whispered, âbut you take me so fucking well.â
He pulled back from you, your legs sprawled and trembling from the last brutal wave heâd forced from you. He knelt between your thighs, palms pressed possessively to your inner knees, spreading you widerâyour skirt bunched around your waist, panties still only dragged to the side, the cuffs at your wrists tight enough you felt their bite in every throb of your pulse.
His cock was still out, hard and flushed, glistening from being buried in your mouth and from the mess heâd made of you. The air was thick with sweat and storm, a low thrumming energy in the dark.
He dragged you a few inches down the bed, grip strong and certain, until your thighs bracketed him perfectly. He held your legs wide, savoring the sightâhis jaw flexing, lips parted, eyes locked on your face. âLook at you. All fucked out and still trying to glare at me.â He spat in his hand and stroked himself, slow and deliberate, the thick head of his cock nudging the inside of your trembling thigh.
The rough fabric of his pants scratched your sensitive skin as he settled between your legs, pressing your thighs together around him. âHold still,â he growled, guiding his cock into the slick heat of your thighs, sliding the shaft along your soaked folds, the head catching on your clit with each drag. âGonna use you just like this.â
His metal hand slid up, cold and firm, clamping over your knee to keep your thighs squeezed tight around him. The pressure forced every pulse of your cunt against his cock, slicking him up, every thrust making obscene, wet sounds as he fucked the soft flesh between your legs. Your breathing stuttered, your body betraying you with another sharp pulse of pleasure as his cock ground just right, the head nudging your swollen clit again and again.
Bucky grinned down at you, breath hot and ragged. âYou feel that? Thatâs how wet you are for me. You wanted thisâyou wanted every fucking inch.â He pushed harder, rutting between your thighs, the roughness of his uniform scraping your skin, his cock sliding faster, wetter, hotter every second.
The hand not pinning your leg moved between your bodies, two fingers shoving back inside you, curling mercilessly as he fucked your thighs, stretching you wide while he worked your body in rhythm. The pressure, the friction, the slick grind of his cock against your clitâall of it coiled tight, so tight you couldnât hold back another desperate moan.
He leaned in, lips brushing your ear, voice raw: âCome again. Right now. Squeeze my fingers, let me feel it.â
He worked your cunt, fingers pressing and stroking, the head of his cock gliding up and down, every thrust bumping your clit. You sobbed, shaking, your body spasming as another orgasm ripped through you, thighs clamping hard around him, cunt clenching on his fingers as you cried out, the cuffs rattling above your head.
Bucky didnât stopâhe growled, his own pleasure cresting as he fucked harder between your slick thighs, squeezing your legs around him until with a rough, choked gasp, he came, cock throbbing hot against your skin, spilling messily between your thighs and over your cunt, marking you with every pulse. His breath came heavy and wild as he shuddered through it, grinding until there was nothing left but the slow pulse of the storm and the filthy heat between your bodies.
He pulled his fingers from you slowly, dragging them up to your mouth and smearing your lips with the taste of yourself and him. âGood girl,â he murmured, thumb pressing between your lips, watching your mouth part for him. âTake it all. Every fucking drop.â
Bucky stayed between your legs, his palms dragging up your trembling thighs, slow and lazy, as if he had all night to enjoy you. His gaze flickered up to your face, and a crooked, knowing smile spread across his lips.
You swallowed, pulse rabbiting in your throat. You tried to summon your voice, tried to wrestle your breathing into something that sounded like authority, like you still had a shred of power left. âBucky. Listen to me. You donât have toââ
He cut you off with a low laugh, leaning over you until his face was right above yours, his hair hanging in your eyes. âDonât have to what, doctor?â He dipped down and pressed a kiss to your cheek, then your jaw, rough and taunting. âDonât have to make you beg? Donât have to keep you cuffed?â
You tried again, shaking, âYouâre not thinking straight. This isnât youââ
His lips crashed down on yours, swallowing the words, tongue pushing past your lips, hot and insistent, filling your mouth before you could protest. His metal hand cupped your jaw, angling your head just the way he wanted, the cold steel forcing your mouth wide. He kissed you hard, tongue fucking into you, devouring every attempt at speech and turning it into ragged moans.
You tried to keep talking, words muffled against his mouth, âyou canâtâah, Bucky, let meâlet me goâ!â but he just growled, lips dragging along your tongue, claiming you deeper, swallowing every desperate syllable. Every time you tried to speak, he just kissed you harder, relentless, wet and possessive. His tongue traced the roof of your mouth, circled your teeth, played with the soft, shuddering muscle of your own tongue until you couldnât do anything but gasp into him.
He pulled back just far enough to speak, breath ghosting your lips. âKeep talking,â he taunted, a dark glint in his eyes. âI love feeling you try to fight with your mouth full.â
He kissed you again, tongue plunging in deep, teeth scraping your lower lip until it throbbed, then sucking it into his mouth. The taste of him was everywhereâhis cock, your own slick, the sweat and salt of the storm around you. He devoured every word, every whimper, every attempt at reason.
You squirmed, wrists aching, but the cuffs just rattled uselessly. Your thighs clenched as he pressed his hips down, grinding the sticky mess of his spend against your cunt, smearing it all over your skin. âYou keep thinking you can talk your way out of this?â he murmured against your lips, a smirk in every word. âMaybe I should fill your mouth with something better than arguments.â He pressed two fingers into your mouth, pushing past your lips, making you suck them clean. âGo on. Show me you can be good for something.â
You glared up at him, spit slicking your chin, but he just pushed his fingers deeper, tongue lapping at your lips before he bit you again, kissing you until your head spun.
âBucky, you have to let meââ he just cut you off with another filthy, devouring kiss, tongue plunging deep, making you choke on the taste of yourself and him. You kept talking, trying to reason, voice breaking around his tongue. âYou donât have toâplease, Buckyâletâlet me go, you canâtââ
He grinned against your lips, biting hard at the corner of your mouth, words curling dark and rough in your ear, âwhy should I ever let you go? You look so fucking pretty like thisâopen, ruined, mine.â
His cock, still rock-hard, nudged at your thigh, leaking against your skin as he rutted slow between your trembling legs, grinding his mess against your slick, swollen folds. The sensation made you shudder, moaning into his mouth even as you tried to bite back the sounds. âKeep talking,â he taunted, voice dropping to a growl, âI want to feel you try to say no while Iâm tasting you.â
He dragged his tongue down your neck, kissing you until you went limp for a second, breathless, only for your body to tense again when he shifted, bracing one knee on the bed, the other hand palming your bellyâpressing down, holding you flat. His lips brushed your ear, his teeth grazing the shell, then his words dropped low and dirty, a promise that made your whole body jolt.
âMaybe I should just fuck you full,â he whispered, voice hoarse with want, âbreed you so youâre marked as mine for good. Have you dripping for days, walking out of here with my come inside you, everyone knowing who fucked you open like this. Would you fight me then? Or would you beg for more?â
You shook your head, but the denial came out ragged, helplessâcaught between defiance and the pulsing ache of want. He ground his cock against you, teasing your entrance with the thick, slick head, letting it slip up and catch on your clit, rolling his hips until you gasped again. âSay you want it,â he taunted, lips catching yours, his tongue fucking deep, filthy, until your protest was nothing but a muffled moan. âSay you want me to breed you. Make you mine for real.â
His words lit something molten in your belly, shame and need twisting tighter. You shook again, half sobbing, half cursing, but he just kissed you deeper, tongue pushing between your lips, swallowing everything, not letting you look away.
âYouâre not going anywhere, doc,â he groaned, fucking his cock through your folds again, threatening to push inside, ânot until you give me everything. I want you dripping. I want you ruined. I want everyone to see you and know I did thisâmarked you from the inside out.â He sucked a bruise high on your throat, lips dragging down to your chest, hands never softening their grip. âYouâll take it,â he growled, tongue flicking over your nipple, teeth scraping. âEvery drop. Youâll take it all, and then youâll still beg for more.â
He devoured your mouth again, hips grinding, his cock poised at your entrance, his words a low, dangerous promise between filthy, breathless kisses: âYouâre mine. And by the time Iâm done, youâll never forget it.â
You shook your head, tears prickling at your eyes, every breath trembling. âNo, Bucky, donâtââ
He caught your jaw, turning your face to his, eyes burning into you. âNo more running,â he breathed, voice rough as gravel. âYou want me to stop? Say it. Mean it. Or else Iâm going to keep you like this all night.â
His mouth crashed down on yours, devouring, tongue forcing your lips wide as he kissed you breathless, swallowing every protest, every moan. When you tried to speak, he fucked his tongue deeper, sucking on your tongue until you were gasping, voice ruined, heat pulsing between your legs.
He broke away, breath hot on your cheek, his words curling filthy and low in your ear. âYouâd look so good bred full of me, doc. My come dripping down your thighs, so everyone knows youâre mine. Maybe I should just keep fucking you until you take it allâuntil itâs inside you, leaking out, marking you where nobody else can touch.â
He pressed his cock against you, the head sliding inside, slow, stretching you until you couldnât do anything but moan and jerk in the cuffs, the sounds spilling raw and desperate as he filled you, every inch driving his claim deeper.
Bucky fucked you steady and deep, each thrust grinding into your core, pelvis slapping your ass as he set a rhythm meant to push you over, again and again. His mouth stayed at your ear, voice all threats and promises: âThatâs it, sweetheart. Take it. Take all of meâlet me breed you. Let me make you mine forever.â
Your legs tried to close, but he forced them wide, his metal hand gripping your knee, holding you open as his cock pistoned in and out, thick and relentless. You felt him everywhereâfilling you, stretching you, every stroke sending sparks up your spine and down to where his fingers pressed bruises into your flesh.
He reached down, thumb working your clit in tight, brutal circles, his hips pounding faster as you broke apart, body clenching tight around him, crying out as your orgasm tore through you, wet and shattering. He never stopped, rutting through your climax, cock dragging every tremor from your wrung-out body.
With a guttural groan, he slammed deep, cock throbbing as he finally let himself go, pulsing hot inside you, filling you so full you felt the slick drip down your thighs with every last grind of his hips. His breath stuttered out as he collapsed over you, mouth biting your throat, grinding the claim in with one last roll of his hips.
He stayed there, pressed tight to your body, his come leaking out, the cuffs biting your wrists, your body so used you felt youâd never be empty again.
His voice was low, dangerous, as he nuzzled the shell of your ear: âYouâre mine, doc. Now, tomorrow, forever. No one else will ever have you.â
He didnât move for a while. His breath stuttered against your skin, forehead pressed to the hollow of your throat, hands gripping you tight as if the world might drag him away. You could feel the shape of him inside you still, the warmth of his come pooling between your thighs, marking you just as thoroughly as his bruises.
When he finally lifted his head, his face hovered above yoursâhair wild, cheeks flushed, eyes soft and hungry both. The storm had left the cell almost black, but every flash of lightning painted his expression in sharp, unforgettable lines. He cupped your jaw, thumb brushing your cheek, gentle for a heartbeat as he looked at you like heâd never get enough.
âYou did so good,â he murmured, kissing your eyelids, the bridge of your nose, his lips softer now, dragging tenderness through the rough aftermath. âSo fucking good for me. Didnât think you could take it, did you?â
Your voice was little more than a hoarse, ruined whisper. âYou⊠you didnât have toââ
He shushed you, gentle. His thumb pressed your lips until you stopped talking, until all you could do was shiver as he laid kisses down your cheek, the corners of your mouth, your jaw. His fingers stroked soothing patterns down your ribs, thumb catching on the raw lines where your wrists had pulled hard against the cuffs.
Then his touch changed, shifting from gentle to possessive. His metal hand traced the curve of your thigh, squeezing hard, pressing into the bruises heâd left behind, the cold a jarring shock to the warmth of your flesh. He dipped his fingers between your legs, swirling through the mess heâd left, then dragging his hand up, smearing it over your belly, marking you all over again.
âLook at you. Look at what Iâve done,â he said, voice low, somewhere between wonder and cruelty. He made you meet his eyes, the look in them making you want to flinch and melt all at once. âSo fucking pretty with my come dripping out of you. With my marks all over you. No oneâs ever going to touch you again without knowing I was here first.â
You tried to look away but his grip on your chin tightened, not enough to hurt but enough to make clear you werenât going anywhere. His mouth slanted over yours, kissing you slow, deep, stealing every breath you had left. He gentled againâfingers carding through your hair, his body curling around you, heavy and sheltering and immovable.
âYouâre safe here,â he murmured, pressing his forehead to yours, voice thick with something like devotion. âAs long as you stay mine.â
But the cuffs stayed locked. His arms curled tighter around you, the heat of him sinking into your bones, and when you tried to shift, tried to test your freedom, his hand moved to your throatâlight but warning, a reminder of every edge youâd just been pressed over.
His words were soft, almost loving, âgo on. Rest. Youâre not leaving until I say so.â
Outside, the storm rolled on, the world reduced to darkness, to heat, to his body and his claim and the ache of being owned so completely.
And you knew, as you drifted on the edge of exhaustion, that this was both the promise and the threat: he could be so gentle, so soft, until the next time he wanted to break you open all over again.
edit (11/12/25): i've gotten multiple asks and comments about a part 2 for this. there will be no part 2, simple as that. i talk about why in these two posts: one and two, and also this extremely well-worded post from someone else. and i had to make a third post to get my point across again. i sincerely thank you for reading and enjoying my story, but please stop asking for more.















