Sep 12, 2021
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i’m out here on my own
you’re not coming to save me
no one is
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is.na
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i’m out here on my own
you’re not coming to save me
no one is
Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
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From time to time
I forget but am reminded
Love is always conditional
Even love that has promised
To not be-
There’s always a point.
I have a knack for finding it
For tiptoeing the line
Of “I won’t run”
And telephone silence
It’s a good reminder
That I, too,
Am a condition,
An option,
A choice to be made
When I fall out of step
1, 2, 3, 4-
I’m sorry girlie
For wanting to break
5, 6, 7, 8
I’m sorry you can’t love me
When I want to fall
I’m sorry you can’t love me
When I think about falling
I’m sorry for my imperfections,
For the missed steps
I’m sorry for loving you unconditionally
And still hearing you hang up the phone
I’m sorry for this poem.
You’re still not a condition to me.
My heart, she called me darling.
I want to be with you in all the worlds: real and unreal.
Things I want to do with you (it’s 3am and I can’t sleep because you’re on my mind Edition)
1. Go to protests
2. Cook dinner
3. Get a dog
4. Go to our high school reunions
5. Have TOO MANY plants
6. Go to a lighthouse
7. Decorate our house
8. Buy art
9. Garden
10. Make pottery
11. Read by our huge windows
12. Fix things
13. Build something
14. Ride horses
15. Amusement parks
16. Buy a house
17. Get married (or just a big party where I can be like “THIS ONE, I LOVE HER SO MUCH”)
18. Kids? Or more dogs.
19. Concerts
20. See the world
21. Volunteer
22. Hospital visits (not that I want the hospital, but it’s inevitable because life)
23. Kiss. Always.
24. Christmas
25. Literally everything
Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
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It is time to return to merely dreams once more. To put my head down and pray to whatever it is I need to believe in that she makes an appearance, that as my eyes rapidly move it is my chance to look over every part of her again, to remember her again.
It is time to save my love for the clouds, for the soft white of my comforter. It is time to save my hopes for “not the real world”, except this time, it really won’t be. It is time to lock the visions of my conscious mind- those of her changing her mind, running to me; those of her needing me; those of her loving me- in a tight box, kept beneath my pillow.
I know it’s selfish to want to see you... but... god do I want to just lay eyes on you again.
I know you love me too, please come back.