Jun 8
just finished a craft project ive spent 3 months on and i feel literally nothing about or for it except mild malaise. like yeah that sure is an object. allegedly i made it.
#pigeon squeaks#everything ive ever done or made is like this.#i genuinely beieve anybody whos ever said oh when its done youll be glad you did it#is flat lying.#i have never and i think will never get any good brain chemicals from completing a long or challenging task#ANYWAY theo if you see this im glad i made it for you im glad you get to have it its a good fucking bag objectively its pretty and well mad#the issue is chemical and not the result of specifically making This Item#its probably good for me to make things and im glad the result is my friend gets a cool item#i jut RALLY wish my brain could like. reward me. any. at all. for completing a long skills based task i put a lot of effort into.#i could hit my head against a wall for 15 minutes and feel Exactly the Same#im sure its fine#im fine.
