So, I don't know how to really put this, I have friends always asking me "if I'm okay?" Or "Is there something wrong?" And Ive always kept this to myself, knowing there are others out there that feel this way, but I cant (don't) want people to see this side of me. This things happens to me almost every month, I call it (like Danisnotonfire. Cause he had the only words for it that sounds best.) an Existential Crises/Depression, it makes me feel down about everything, Like I know people have these moments but, I dunno, I just get so distant from everyone I love and ever loved and when I come back from this "crisis" I feel so bad because I did that. I feel bad for drowning in my own emotions while people watch me break myself down. I cry about almost everything I cant seem to find the motivation to even say hi to my friends and family. Im usually a happy, bubbly person. (With a slight inner dick personality.) And while I get like this I make ally friends worry, I make my family upset due to my lack of words. The only good thing outa this is that it goes away after a while. Do I somehow subconsciously like the attention I am gaining from those whom I worry? No one can tell me. I cant even tell me. Now I have been diagnosed with depression. Yes, I should medicate myself or seek help from friends or family but mentally and physically my body breaks down and tells me. "Nothing can make this time of utter hell stop." So, yeah, I don't know why I made this post, hell, I might Delete later. But yeah.
