#iphoneaddiction

(A poem about what’s going on in my head because of my iPhone) 

 When thoughts turn into blinding lights

 that flash up in my head 

 Or I wake

 and I can’t hold your ghost 

 As sunshine floods my bed

 I Grab my phone and try to find an angel there instead 

 look so hard like Magic Eye 

 I tune my thoughts and waste more time 

 Electric pictures Bleaching over Darkness in my mind 

 Phones fake life Like flattened dreams 

 Hard to understand like memes 

 Cant fill the void that fills my head 

My hands can’t soothe the creeping dread 

 so i tap the screen instead. 

 I shave off a little slice of me 

 You catch it in your iphone screen 

butterfly net for the fluttering fingers 

 New Replacement for daydreams 

 I flash up for a moment 

 lookin like that moment’s stolen 

 and I see you saw my moment 

 Now it’s my nerves you’ve got a hold on 

 Then I see the purple circle 

 Click and see emojis twinkle

 are you telling them or telling me?

 I’m tryin to work out what you mean 

 Double tap to show your love 

 Validate me through the screen 

 The net I hope will catch me 

 Shows up a little memory 

 A picture I dont want to see 

 I stick over it sloppily 

 little square pictures shield my mind 

 the glowing shield i hide behind

 I bury a piece of me 

 it never shows up on your screen

 dig up another little square 

 a me that doesn’t seem to care 

 You catch it in your iphone screen 

 You say that you know what I mean 

 Swipe down through my emails just switching off one day

 I’m like hold on Wait a second… 

What did that email say?

 hate mail pops up With a neck snapping head spin 

I choose to click on open And let the devil in 

” i got your email from your website And I don’t like what u say 

 Your godless life is poison I pray you find the righteous way

You may call me psycho I get that every day 

 It’s just a last resort For idiots When all other insults fail

 I have pity for your child 

 living with a bitch like you

 I stalk u on the Internet 

 My spies tell me what you do

 I’m a decorated veteran

 Listen to what I say.

  I’m holier than thou And Ive been watching you Miss Rae” 

 I’m like “What the hell I don’t need this

 Just Fuck off you psycho. 

 I just post videos of floating dogs while playin Mac Demarco

 But I’m glad u read my article about Nantasket Beach.

  Faded memories and carousels And a life that’s out of reach.

  Thinking it was aimed at you speaks of loudly of delusion

 you may have spent some time there 

but You’ve reached the wrong conclusion.

  Leave me and my phone alone 

 We are just having fun

 painting pictures of weird seaside towns In cloudy summer sun” 

 But my phone becomes a battle map 

 Marked out in cyberspace 

 Black words cut into white In a non existent place.

  Counter Attack with finger taps

 keyboard daggers stab me as I pull them from my back

 Things are getting nasty 

 Caps lock is now involved

 The war of keyboard warriors 

often fought but never solved

 Left Swipe past the past Empty out the net 

 Shake away the demon and delete all that was said 

 Now I’m happy going back To simply Sticking pictures over Mad thoughts that linger 

 Absorb myself in touch screen dreams of happiness together 

 2d pictures of a life that’s passed