Aug 11
taking over and channeling this energy
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taking over and channeling this energy
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im less dissociated than i was lately but still it's not good
i kinda hope somebody takes over
our bun's health has improved but like. i kinda. i forgor when i was there in person and then i was unable to make a phonecall and fucked up registering bun's vet visit to make like, heart & lungs usg, however it's called.
vet who specializes in this sort of thing is on leave until september. we were supposed to have a visit with her a week ago, before she went on leave.
guilt doesn't consume me but it is there. it is what it is.
my mood is still very. very. unstable. and i think a shitton of negative symptoms are there. like very characteristic kind of using wrong words, and forgetting a lot of words, and getting lost in places i know aaand panicking about it, etc. i trust others of my crew to take over when necessary. they let me into the body, hell knows why. i want out. but everybody wants out. i gotta keep fighting to keep us alive.
maybe it's stupid but i think i need xanax before today's therapy. idk why but i feel terribly stressed.
so terribly in fact that im heavily dissociated and completely unable to reach the source of this emotion. and captain forbids me to search for it rn.
ive actually been way better this past week, EMDR meant like two days of feeling like shit but after that i was able to prepare sensible food, take care of my needs and do chores but do them according to my strenght at a given moment.
stress came yesterday evening (called middle of the night for some)(i was sleeping ~9:00-16:00 due to heat) and immidiately hit with full force. eh.
Iodine.
imo, putting iodine in salt was the right thing to do
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