#introvert problems.

Greg doesn’t have bad social skills nor is it a preference to be alone but, he’s very shy. I feel as though I’ve said this ninety-nine times on his blog. But with this being said for a hundredth time, due to his shyness Greg has a hard time, literally having fun, in moments of celebration. IF he has friends with him, it’s memorable. He’s happy. He’s like everybody else there. IF it’s business oriented or with people he does not know; Greg enjoys the atmosphere. He really does. But he feels bored and honestly, lonely. He has no reason to talk to anyone around him. He has nothing to really talk about at the top of his mind. So he’s just. Sitting there. Watching others and overall waiting for the good time to end.

God I just really need to grow a backbone. This is ridiculous. Why do I still care so much what others think? Just get over it. 

I walked into the staffroom this morning at 8am to have my breakfast and every table was full, except for a spare chair on each table.  I had to choose a group of people I don't know to sit with. I had to sit with people. It was actually scary, I walked into that staffroom and realised there were no empty tables and just stared around the room in fear.