some of you act the way that you do because instead of working through your self-hatred (and all of the internalized prejudices attached to it) you've internalized it as proof of your transness and proof that you are deserving of community and support, Because you have reached a threshold of suffering that means you've "earned" it
you've defined yourself By your suffering because you've convinced yourself that your suffering is eternal. and that makes you Violently lash out at anyone that threatens your way of thinking.
which means trans people who represent those traits that you either hate in yourself OR traits that you're terrified of other people Seeing in yourself. you see a trans woman with a beard or a trans man with boobs or a nonbinary person who refuses to define themselves by society's expectations and think "if that person is like Me then that means that I'm like Them."
so you relentlessly punish these trans people that don't or Can't conform to your expectations, and you never question Where This Disgust And Anger Comes From. trans people who are different from you CAN'T understand, because you're Right. you have to be right. because otherwise this anger and hatred and fear was for nothing.
and worst of all is anyone trying to tell you that these trans people should be Happy that they're different. that these trans people that represent these traits that you can't stand should be proud to be who they are and exist freely and Happily in the community you're Sure they haven't suffered enough to Earn
anyways, I think people are being too harsh on jax digital circus as trans representation, and we should consider that her story was written to SAY something
