#intpproblem

As an INTP and an internal medicine resident, I currently have no ambitions. I don’t have the ambition to win competitions, publish papers in top journals, pursue another degree, and so on. Like, what’s the point of chasing all of that? I just want to graduate soon, make money, help people, and spend quality time with my family.

I can say that I don’t put all my effort into being the best — just enough to pass the exams. Yeah, I’m sure most other INTPs are the same: not really ambitious about competitions or things like that. Sometimes I’m afraid that if I do my best, people will rely on me, and then one day, when I don’t have the motivation anymore, I’ll disappoint them.

I just wonder how some people have such amazing determination to be at the top, because we INTPs never have that (LOL).

But now I have a problem that every INTP has, and I really want to solve it: how can I become a consistent person? I just want to have positive routines, but it’s always difficult to turn them into habits because they never last very long.

1. You’ve had five forkfuls of soup already before you realize something is off.

2. You had to reread #1 multiple times to understand what was “off."

3. You often floccinaucinihilipilificate.

4. You actually searched up that word.

5. After searching up that word, you will use it in casual conversation.

6. You’re thinking "that's so me! ...But wait, is it really?" as you read these statements.

7. You tack on “that’s debatable” to the end of each of these statements.

8. You can remember the names and properties of each element in the periodic table, but you have no idea what you ate for breakfast.

9. You debate with everyone, about EVERYTHING.