So, we didnāt ever finish one of our conversations. Thereās some stuff Iād typed and never got to send because we went to sleep. I just want to tell you. Everything after this was supposed to be a text, sometime after weād gone to rodeo.
As a general someone I care about, Iām going to check on you.
Itās not something I see as a chore. Iām here willingly. You didnāt force me. I chose to be with you, knowing not every day is going to be a good one, and that Iād be there for bad ones and be faced with deciding what to do about it. This is true of anybody I spend my time with.
Which yes, does mean I may step away from someone else for you, but thatād be my decision, of my free will.
Even if you were the reason I made that decision, I still chose that, and I would choose it again, over and over, because I care about you.
And if that ruined a moment, itās 100% worth it if it means you feel supported and cared about when you need it. Thatās my choice. I choose you. There will be other moments. I only have one of you.
However, I enjoyed today, despite everything. I can give you reasons why if you need them.
And, I can tell you that my Opa likes you. And who gives a shit about my siblings?
My Opa called you the 4th gkid at the gate when we walked in.
He was worried about you today; He doesnāt worry about just anyone. I donāt say that to make you feel guilty- thatās supposed to be reassuring?
Heās not hiding anything, unless heās lying to me too, but heās kind of the only adult I trust to not do that to me.
My sister doesnāt like any of my friends. She doesnāt like ME. I know that isnāt comforting the way it needs to be, but If anything, it just means youāre just as liked as anyone else.
My brother doesnāt care as long as he can play Roblox at the wedding
Idk if any of that is reassuring. Especially considering everything, it does make sense that youād worry.
But all of that being said-
I think me not knowing what to do was also a factor in today, and we should talk about that too.
But overall I just want you to know you didnāt ruin anything. Iām sorry the day was off, but I donāt think it was ruined unless you didnāt enjoy it.
[this letter was written on a previous date]