#inkwings rambles

Hello love <3

First: I have received and read all messages before this one and I treasure them. I also wholly intend to respond to them. I hope my response to this short ask doesn't come as an offense to anyone who has taken the time to write me messages with gravity. (I feel these messages, a pang in my chest, and I wish I could Vulcan mind-meld somehow to show you my appreciation)

This ask dredged up something very secret and primal for me. I was married on Halloween. This summer my spouse killed themself. I am still in the process of grieving and it is as hellish as you can imagine. Asker, I know this is not what you wanted to know (also fuck yeah ask all your questions there are no rules and I invite all of them) but I hope it sheds a little light on my absence.

I am sorry. I write but I am having trouble editing. I really, really hope to put out a good Halloween chapter to give a little light on that day.

Here, have some random headcanons related to BMGWMBGG because I'm deranged:

As I embark on my editing process for chapter 20 of "bit my gun with my black-gold gums" let's all just take a minute to reflect on how fuckin chaotic my smut writing process is. I write this shit like a monk. we're talking jane goodall w/ the apes, calmly making bullet points. Also Microsoft Word is convinced I am offending my readers (I can only hope)

1. What made you decide to become a writer? (was it always something you knew you wanted to do or did it come to you later on in life.)

2. What was your favourite genre’s growing up? (could be a genre from movies or books)

3. What is your proofreading process like?

4. How do you stay motivated in your writing process?

That’s it for my question round 😂.

ps. Any chance for an update this week? 🙏 ❤️

This is so cute omg, thank you for the questions I love them too! <3333

I didn't really decide to be a writer, it just became a hobby organically in childhood. I wrote my first "story" at age 6 because I was obsessed with R.L. Stine kid's horror stories and the "Scary Stories to Tell in the Dark" series (and at age 8 I got in trouble for bringing my mom's Stephen King books to class LOL). It's always something I've just kind of *done*. I work in an unrelated field to publishing but I write a lot for work, so I think the hobby has served me well outside of stories, too.

Horror!!!! Scifi and fantasy were a close second in a cozy lil tie. In young adulthood I got really into romance which had some uhhhhh interesting interactions with my previous predilections

My proofreading process is chaotic and 100% novice. I write like a demon on crack for the first draft, and then a day or so later I'll sweep through it with a blowtorch and do a hack-job of copy-pasting entire passages into the order I want them. I catch myself switching tenses OFTEN because the tense I imagine stories in is different than the tense I write in (so there are quite a few typos I'll have to fix on the back end when I complete my fics/stories). Also I get "sticky" on certain words. I keep trying to put the word "ameliorate" in damn near everything I write and I have to go back and beat myself with a stick to remove it from appearing 3000 times (I think I may have been successful so far...)

Motivation? I don't know her *cries* This might be an unpopular answer but for me writing is an entirely passive process. My imagination runs laps around my actual writing speed so a lot of it is just me sitting in front of my laptop and being Tortured By Visions until I'm satisfied. This has unfortunately led me to take long hiatuses from stories (RIP Sanguine Witch est. 2018) because if my mind isn't chewing on it, the words don't come.