#inkbloodcd

YOU CAN SUMMON ANYTHING &. ANYONE TO YOUR SIDE, EVEN THE STARS! : yet there was one she knew who would not dismiss her call ... one who would always answer, 𝙵𝙾𝚁 𝚂𝙷𝙴'𝙳 𝙳𝙾 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝚂𝙰𝙼𝙴! ( A PROMISE THAT WAS NEVER VOICED, BUT KNOWN BY BOTH. ) ━━━━ her lance held in a tight grip, facing the enemy ... deep breath breathed in, &. out. subtle hints of being weary, the battle having left graces of scars upon her fair skin. 𝐀𝐙𝐄𝐌, 𝐃𝐎 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐒𝐄𝐄𝐊 𝐓𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐁𝐋𝐄 𝐎𝐑 𝐃𝐎𝐄𝐒 𝐈𝐓 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐃 𝐘𝐎𝐔? a question voiced within the convocation countless times, for she was a soul that acted, too recklessly perhaps, BUT IT WAS ALL FOR THE STAR, &. THE LIVE WITHIN. she was meant to be the guiding light.

lemme just gush here for a second : i wouldn't be here on my ayaka blog if not for b . i got back into genshin after not playing for over a year because she got into it and was telling me all about her adventures . so of course i added ayaka on my multi and wrote with her ayato and then i realized just how much i really loved writing her and finally moved her to her own space . tbh , i always leave this hellsite but two people keep me coming back and b is one of them . she is worth all the crappy experiences here and i would do it all again if it meant she was a part of my life .

she is one of the best writers i've ever encountered . i'm not even saying that lightly just to say it . her prose continues to amaze me . heck , even if we stopped writing i would still love her immensely !! she's been with me through so much and has given me so much direction in my life . i've laughed , cried , and fought with her and it only made everything between us stronger . i love seeing everyone love on her because she rightfully deserves it .

@inkbloodcd said: tell me about your relationship with your mother. how do you feel about her after everything? truly? SEND MY MUSE QUESTIONS ABOUT THEIR RELATIONSHIPS | ACCEPTING

(it's written with @creatrix-mea's anabella in mind because our interactions surely influence joshua's answer 💕)

"My mother... As a child, I truly only wanted to make her proud. I wanted to be... the one she wanted me to be. I would have done everything I could for her. I felt... pressured, but I still knew she loved me. I thought she was unfair with Clive, but with me... She wanted the best for me. Maybe sometimes it didn't come well, but her intentions were still good. That's what I still think to this day.

But then, Phoenix Gate happened. I lost everything that night, just like so many other innocent people. When I learned it was her doing... it broke my heart. I didn't know she could go this far. I still... have a hard time realizing it truly happened. Even if I know. And I am deeply sorry for all the pain and suffering she caused. I wish she could redeem herself. I don't know if this is possible, but I want to believe it.

THERE HE IS.

       ❝        I DO HOPE that the convocation at large's decision to declare our chrysanthemum's commitment to step down a defection does not mean she is exiled from the star. she seems quite expeditious to take her leave . . have you spoken to her since the DELIBERATION ? ❞     

(    🐇   )              SHE FEELS HIS concern in his chest that he conceals, chewing on her lower lip as she remains in bed. the healing magicks did as much as possible without the knowledge yet of what the poison attached to the dagger was - she was alright but she would not be able to travel for awhile. especially to diplomatic events such as the one she NARROWLY ESCAPED FROM.

darling emet does LIKE TO LECTURE though - she almost feels bad for butting in so that he may be able to SAVE HIS BREATH.

        ❝    I SURVIVED. YOU need not fuss.    ❞     

@inkbloodcd asked : [loud slurping noises right behind ayaka] " i hear you've become quite the accomplished swordswoman these days. "

𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒉𝒂𝒅𝒏'𝒕 𝒆𝒙𝒑𝒆𝒄𝒕𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒅𝒓𝒂𝒘 𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒂𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 . dinner was usually a quiet affair . most days they were accompanied by thoma , fewer days by ayato , but they were better than the ones without either of them . ayaka had anticipated ayato to come back to the estate late , but she's interrupted by the sound of him eating . her demeanor perks up , her posture straightening at his presence made known to her . ❛ brother ! ❜ she sets the piece of fish back onto her plate before turning to face him , however , as if reading her mind he makes his way to join her at the table . it was another late night , but she appreciates the effort he makes to at least join her even if it was for just a bit . how she missed their family dinners ; they were now few and far between but there was always a silent understanding between them that they'd make an effort when time permitted them the luxury to do so .

@inkbloodcd​  --  "  you love a little chaos . " — from emet/hades.    //     ↪  𝑼𝑹𝑩𝑨𝑵 𝑭𝑳𝑶𝑹𝑨

(    🐇   )                HER SKIN CRAWLS    as he speaks,   though in the back of her mind she is unsure if its out of    relief    that someone sees the beast deep down that she is or    .  .    her ongoing hesitation to allow herself the freedom to    BITE AT    the jugular.   what was it with galvus’    (    or,    mind you,    ascians    )    and their penchant of seeming to   KNOW WHO OR WHAT    she was or    enjoyed.

     <      YOU DO NOT    KNOW    ME.    what i    love.      >      

         a minute, she says as if the request is truly as simple as it seems, as if she means a literal, actual minute.  she doesn’t, of course.  and he knows this, knows her well enough to find himself anything but surprised when the...  creature is dropped into his not-at-all-waiting arms, a proper response— a no, he tells himself—  not even given in time.

         and so, he pointedly sighs as she quickly turns away from him, busying herself with her task, attention already gone...  but he does not object, doesn’t say anything, in fact, in the rather awkward moments that follow.  the creature blinks at him, its nose twitching.  and cautiously, then, he begins trying to rearrange it in his arms.

         he is generally unsuccessful in these attempts, much to his very apparent dismay.  the little familiar seems to turn into something akin to liquid each time he shifts it, squirming a bit, this way or that, nose still twitching.  and grumbling to himself, he remarks on that fact—

         “ does this thing even have bones?  oh, stop it, you. ”

(    🐇   )               SHE KNEW THAT     silver queen was in good hands,    even if said hands were not used to holding such a concept.    clementine trusted hades not to drop her outright and be kept busy while she    looked    for things that she required for later.    she’s amused with herself in how he so easily takes things that she places in his arms    ;    and while he’d sigh and complain all he likes    -    he still does   ENOUGH AND MORE    for her.

SHE GLANCES BACK,    watching him suffer and struggle with the little rabbit,    smirking to herself as she notes the near liquid way that silver queen holds herself.    she removes a tome from its spot,    looking back to him with a teasing grin    -    gods he puts up with so much when it came to what she    PUT HIM UP    to.

       ❛     SHE    DOES HAVE    bones.    silver queen just moves like a liquid with how you hold her.    don’t    FUSS TOO MUCH    my love.      ❜