#ingkyn

oh em gee. clover. i don’t even know when this is from and i’m so sorry. i just checked my inbox . that is so on me.

thank you for the ask i miss you!!!!!!!!! and you NEVER EVER have to apologize for being busy. brother i am always busy. thank you for sending this ask. ily.

i am doing okay!!! getting back into the swing of things!!!

OOOOOOHH i have thoughts on this.

1) i think of this as similar to those trends where people “meet” the young version of themself, the one that hasn’t gone thru a life altering event that changed them fundamentally as a person. you see the version of you that no longer exists, that no longer can exist, but that you existed as some time ago. knowing you can never go back, there’s no way to go back, and that you envy them endlessly for having the luxury of not having lived everything you’ve gone through yet, it builds a sort of resentment inside. i think red would resent classic for not having to have lived red’s life. he’s part of the group that would say “why me? why was i the one that that happened to?”

2) which brings me to my second point: red would resent classic bc he represents a life that red can never go back to, but also because red was the one that lived his own life. red would fall down the classic eleanor shellstrop (good place mention!) rabbit hole of “that meant she was always capable of change, i just wasn’t worth changing for” type deal. there always existed other universes where red didn’t live through the hellish underground, but red didn’t get to live those. those were saved for other versions. and red was always the one that had to live in mafiafell. and he’d resent classic for not having to live thru mafiafell.

3) he would enjoy having his own company. he would resent classic, internally, despite himself, but he would enjoy having conversations with someone who is, for all intents and purposes, himself. their minds work so similarly, one of them can start a sentence and the other could finish it without missing a beat, almost like he were going to say that exact string of words before the other did. i’ve read a couple slash reader fics where red and classic exist in the same timeline (bc of some fuckup with a machine) and the convenience makes getting the machine back up and running significantly easier. i’ve personally considered writing fics like that!!!! and it’s not off the table for me.

4) red: “huh.”

classic: “‘huh’ yourself.”

red: “i jus did.” and then they laugh together. it’s definitely more of a “i am you. so i get you.” moment. red just can’t ignore the resentment he feels. but he doesn’t mind classic. i get the feeling he’d enjoy the company of horror tale sans slightly more. more of a level playing field. but specifically the horror tale sans from Fur a Good Time, Call… by popatochisp on ao3. love him (i’ll tag the fic, definitely read it!!!!)

ha ha he he ho………. lerts jus say…………. no

joking kind of. i have finally been working on it again. guys i’m so sorry i update so irregularly. genuinely engineering school is ripping me apart slowly.

my classes are just hard. that’s it. they’re just hard as fuck and it takes so long to do my work. and when i’m not doing schoolwork, i’m at my job, which is part time, but it takes up a bit of my week. and if i’m not doing those, i’m working on my other job as a grader for a physics course, and if not all of those things….. i’m probably eating . or like . hanging out. which is not very much time.

i am finding more and more time as i fall into a routine with my courses and balancing responsibilities. and i always hate to have this be the update bc i want to have something to show for being gone for months…. but i do not. there is some stuff written down. but it is not polished and it is not at all the final cut.

i love you guys above all. you are all so incredibly patient with my writing, and to those of you who have stopped reading, i want to thank you for ever spending the time to consume my work, and i absolutely understand not sticking around for (checks watch) TWO YEARS???? like that’s so fair. that’s a long ass time and i have barely posted 3 chapters in the past year. to those of you who are still here, i love you so much and i am so appreciative of your time and support. you guys are all so amazing and kind.

holy shit . dude.

THAT FUCKING GMAE.

it pisses me off so much. so. so much. and yet. my family plays it so much.

i’m having a hard time figuring out how it would go.

WHAT THE FUCK !!!! HELLO!!!!!!! YOURE AN ANGEL????????

i don’t think yall understand what these kinds of messages do to me. you are so wonderful and kind and i can’t thank you enough for taking the time out of your day to type this out. genuinely it makes my week, these comments.

this is also insanely flattering i’m kissing you on the mouth /j like. do you know how huge of a compliment that is. i want to makeout with you you’re so awesome.

oh my god okay this is a very interesting question to me because when i’ve done ut fics in the past i have always disclosed the soul color early on, or made it a plot thing. but this time? i donno!!!! if it comes up i might go with the classic red for determination.

college is rough rn. i have trouble finding time to take care of myself as it is, but my classes are sort of leveling out to a state of manageable stress. because of this, i am able to delegate small bits of time to writing, which i have otherwise been unable to do.

i am 4000 words deep in a new chapter, with a new energy for writing. it should be up sometime in november but i will not stress myself with the details. i want to keep quality to my writing and i will not be rushing these chapters because of that. however, i will not be taking months on end to write these chapters either. i want to amount these chapters to a solid month. yes, that is a long time. yes, it is subject to change. i don’t know if i can manage a consistent schedule for posting at the moment. but the second i feel able, i will let yall know and i will update my schedule. you can always look at my master post for this fic if you have questions !! or you can dm me!!! i love dm’s!!!!! <33

NOT COMPLETELY RANDOM THIS IS THE EXACT REASON I ADD THOSE THINGS IN MY FIC!!!! so readers can ask + think about them i think it is so fun and i’m SO happy u caught that!!!!