#inflection point

But also I've just got to the part with the prison and I am SO FUCKING PLEASED WITH MYSELF for the little similarities between that and the whole setup and situation I came up with for Inflection Point.

Imperial labour prison, all the sketchy ??? about sentence length and people increasingly being thrown in there for Not Much but especially for anything even remotely "anti Imperial", manual labour designed to keep everyone busy and tired, even the whole general feeling of him being completely stunned and out of it when he arrives with a group on a transport

Plus, communal showers (albeit less sexy ones sadly), the jumpsuits, goo = food and even the little goddamn plastic tray and spoon !!!

Heeeey. Tbh I have no idea how long this has been sitting in my inbox and I am so f***ing sorry if it was an eternity *ahem*.

Speaking of rewritten history, how about the Slave Bible, which became a roadmap for wiping out the inconvenient past.

Political conservatives deplore rewritten history, which they perceive in the 1619 Project and Critical Race Theory. However, rewriting history involves erasing events, achievements and people. The 1619 Project and Critical Race Theory seek to acknowledge and redress significant historical oversights. If you want rewritten history, there is no better example than the ‘Slave Bible’, created by…

Finished my Yunoelle art inspired by the amazing fic Inflection Point @fengreyfront with three versions

I’ll tell you something about my process. 

I pour hours and hours into writing a chapter, then hours and hours into editing and revising and editing and revising and editing and revising to death. The constant back and forth of “Was this sentence too out of character? Yes it was. Would he/she really say that? No way. Would they act this way in this situation? Would they even be in the situation?” etc. This sometimes means scrapping an entire draft and starting from square one multiple times (this has already been the case with this entire story and the last two chapters).  

Then, when I find it satisfactory (which is a difficult place to get to for a perfectionist), I post it. 

Then I suffer from burnout after pushing myself too much and overdoing it.

Then I go into a bit of an existential fic writer depression of, “wow did I just spend that many hours of my life on that?” 

Then I try to step away and tend to all the things I neglected while I was writing.

So, it takes a while to come back around from that and want to write again.

So to circle back to your question, haven’t made progress unfortunately. Haven’t touched the existing potato draft. I completely lack motivation at the moment, sorry to say.

I mean it when I say reviews/comments are the only thing that hold me accountable to move forward. I’m not getting paid for this shit lol. I get nothing from writing other than creative release and personal satisfaction, and maybe some words of validation if readers are kind enough to take the time to humor me. But that’s it. It’s all a time consuming, painstaking labour of love. So when the joy and excitement of writing leaves me, there’s no real incentive or reason for me to carry on. 

However, when people really show enthusiasm for my work, it not only helps ease the existential depression and lifts my spirits so I feel like I didn’t waste my time, but I also end up feeling way too guilty not to continue lol. 

So I’m still in a my post-update slump, and it’s prolonged even more because I just wrote another fic for another fandom.

The look of dismay on Lana’s momentarily unguarded face when General Daeruun says you should go to Ossus alone ...