#important !!

just going to be to the point here. i cannot call what i am on right now as a semi hiatus or even a hiatus at all, really. i don’t want to make this a bigger deal than necessary or repeat myself because i’ve already shared my thoughts on this matter here before, but to be blunt i have no desire of ever writing for this blog again. so really, i should say that i am not on a hiatus, but rather that i am genuinely saying goodbye to nateezfics. i don’t need to explain anything, but to be transparent, i have lost interest in ateez and kpop as a whole. it is sad to say; kpop has been a major part of my life the better part of the last seven years. i noticed this decline in interest months ago, but had held onto the hope that i would rekindle my interest and love for it again. but now i cannot deny it. being into ateez/kpop just doesn’t feel the same anymore…like something hasn’t felt quite right to me. there is no desire to write fanfiction for ateez/kpop anymore. i simply have moved on.

i will always cherish the memories, the people i’ve met, the mutuals and friends made. of course ateez/kpop will continue to be something i look back on with fondness. i will always remember the happiness it brought me over these years. it’s an odd feeling, considering how deeply involved and passionate i used to be, but such is life…some times you just outgrow things, and that’s okay!

in this time i have rekindled my love for anime. i have also continued to be passionate about playing genshin impact, and have even started writing fanfiction for it on @zhongtea. if you want to keep in touch with me as well as read my genshin fanfiction, you are more than welcome to follow me over there!

so…here it is. my last time signing into nateezfics. thank you to the almost eight thousand followers, thank you to the handful of moots, and thank you for all the fun and great memories! i may be leaving, but i will always be grateful for the time spent here. much love!

using AI will never be justified and anyone feeding into it even for prompts is a shame to creativity BUT let’s not put every other work you see in AI checkers and point fingers at writers who are genuinely trying to write !!!! if you have that much time go get a hobby or a job idk

People online are acting like Aussie engenes “disappointed” the boys and judging the entire crowd off a few random videos. Meanwhile most of us were literally there and know what it was actually like. it was LOUD. People were screaming, doing the chants, trying their best to give them energy. we made the members smile multiple times. it was bittersweet but we tried.

Every friend or person i’ve talked to who was there says the same thing: it was loud. like genuinely loud. by the end of the show people literally had no voices left from screaming so much. I was about to draw blood in my throat from screaming...When the fanchants started everyone around me was screaming as loud as humanly possible and it was so loud. there was honestly no way to scream any louder than that. we gave everything we had.

And another thing people don’t seem to realise: a lot of us were doing heeseung chants too. Multiple times throughout the show. Just because you personally haven’t seen a video of it doesn’t mean it didn’t happen. there were thousands of people there and one phone clip cannot capture everything that happened across the entire arena. Not all clips get shared, many of us dont share our videos for whatever reason too.

Something people also need to realise is that videos don’t capture crowds properly. phone microphones mainly pick up the person filming and the people right next to them, while dulling everything else around them. So when you watch a random clip online it can sound quieter than it actually was. thousands of people screaming in a venue just doesn’t translate properly through a tiny phone mic.

and honestly, just because we’re not “breaking the sound barrier” through your phone screen doesn’t mean it didn’t happen. that’s not how crowd noise works on recordings. the energy and volume in an arena full of thousands of people simply cannot be captured accurately through a small phone microphone.

there were also multiple fandoms there. people were still cheering and screaming out of respect and excitement, but sometimes it was just general cheering rather than specific chants because some people might not know them (like how i screamed for treasure even though i don’t know their chants). that kind of mixed crowd noise can blur or drown out chants on video too—but in person it was still incredibly loud.

what a lot of people also don’t understand is the heeseung situation happen THIS EXACT week. A lot of us are insanely hurt and emotional. Us aussie engenes didn’t even get time to process any of it before seeing them. Imagine waiting years for your first chance to see all seven, only for things to happen right before and then still having to show up and be strong for the members (just like they did for us—believe it or not it goes both ways).

And we did.

Yes, there were some ot6 stans there (ew). Obviously no one supports that. But acting like that represents the entire Aussie fandom is just unfair. Most of us were there because we love them, all 7 of them, and wanted to support them with everything we had.

Australian engenes already have it hard. we’re so far from everything—tours barely come here. So when they finally do, it means everything to us. we have such a strong connection to them too with Jake being Aussie, so finally seeing them meant the world to so many of us.

So maybe instead of judging based on a few livestreams or random clips, listen to the people who were actually there. people who attended are all saying the same thing.

We screamed until we lost our voices. We DID the chants, full OT7 ones. we gave them our energy. And yes, many of us were chanting heeseung’s name too. It may not have been at the same time all together but you could hear it still.

We saw them smile. we saw their reactions. We know what it felt like in that moment.

So calling aussie engenes “disappointing” without knowing what it was actually like just isn’t fair. Please give us a little grace too. We’re hurting as well, and we still showed up.

At the end of the day, this isn’t something the fandom should be divided over. Everyone is trying to do something in their own way because they care. The goal right now shouldn’t be fighting each other—it should be supporting the members and standing together, whilst supporting each other.

Hey guys uhh, we need to talk. I want to specify that PLEASE READ THE MODS TOS. ITS VERY IMPORTANT and I would appreciate it if some of you guys don’t send any inappropriate asks to me nor the other mods.

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I know I havent answered asks like. whatsoever and i am so grateful for all of you being super patient with me!! Thank you so much for all of the support on my accounts too.

sadly, i do have a lot on my plate, please understand! with school ending soon i still have a TON to do! many tests, many state tests, so much homework being assigned... it gets exhausting, really

most days i dont even have time to go on my phone because of homework or helping with chores(plus, part-time job too, family events, fieldtrips GAH so much.....)!

i always read the characters dialogue(and whatever information about them) whenever i answer the accounts inbox so that way theyre more enjoyable for you guys to interact with! but you can see how that can be a little time consuming :'(