#imoportance

Just the fact that I’m here by myself having to buy my own groceries and having to watch out as I walk home at night make me miss the security I once had. It makes me appreciate my parents so much more because they were so protective of me and there was a reason for that. I used to abuse that and I even wished I was on my own so that I could do my own thing.

I have the chance now and I don’t do anything about it because I know my limits and what I should and should not do. I think what’s really getting to me is that I am not provided for anymore. I miss having a roll of toilet paper already there. I have to buy that now along with other things like dish washing liquids and laundry powders. We take these things for granted when we’re with people who provide that for us and, man, how ungrateful are we?

I’m showering today without soap for the first time because I have no soap. And I have no toothpaste. I need to go out and buy some myself. It’s so depressing.

I think I understand a bit more the importance of not taking things for granted. Especially things from your family. I just laugh at how I realise it only now. But to be fair, I don’t think I would have ever appreciated them the way I do now if it weren’t for the distance and the independence.