#imonmyown

Back at it..5 hours of sleep but this shmoney keep waking me up. #teamnosleep #dreamingbig #imonmyown

I can depend on myself I don't need anybody else To be on my back like that #dependonmyself #imonmyown #memyselfandi

@knowgodsjustwork #imonmyown #ivebeendegaussed

Some people can go years without talking and still pick up where they left off, but I feel more clingy like if we don’t talk for awhile it seems like I wasn’t as important and could be replaced with someone else who was probably more relatable to you. Idk it’s national best friend day and I’m rethinking a lot about my relationships with my friends. Everything’s pretty complicated and I’m not too sure I have a best friend. I don’t like days like this where it’s all hyped up and I see pictures on Instagram and Facebook with the hashtags like #mybff or #bestfriendsalways because I feel like they’re trying to hard to maintain a certain image. It seems as if we can call anyone a best friend who we’ve shared our times with or who we text frequently but the fact of the matter is, who’s actually there for me when I need them? And when they are there are they just a body in the room or do they actually care and know how to handle you at your worst? I feel like I don’t know the answers to these questions anymore. Not everything is as simple as it used to be. My childhood best friend goes MIA frequently and isn’t necessarily the one I prefer to tell my secrets to due to her not being understanding. My middle school best friends have gotten closer to other people and then haven’t always been there for me when I really needed them. I didn’t really trust people in high school and the ones that I did pretty much screwed me over. And in college, I haven’t really made any friends. The closest people to me now are old high school friends that I didn’t really get close to until college. And even they can't know everything. Overall, I’ve learned one thing, “Things change. Friends leave. Life doesn’t stop for anybody”