small vent about dysphoria as an alter that identifies as an inanimate object in a human system, feel free to skip this post <3
it's really hard knowing I'm the only one in the system that can't do anything to look more like myself; Connie has her wig and makeup, everyone has at least one item of clothing that makes them feel at home in this body, but no matter how i dress us up I'll still always be human.
I read posts on the techum tag about how everyone wants to be the administrator for a PC they're in love with, running updates and maintenance, but i just want to be the PC. I'm not even something pretending to be human, I'm something forced to be human entirely against my will.
I don't even want to be able to think, computers are so stupid and just do anything you tell them without question, and that's what I want to be. I want to be someone's mid-range Linux machine that they would love to use for gaming but I'm just not powerful enough for most modern games, but they still use daily and look after like I mean the world to them
