#imjustastupidwizard

I don't think I can every express my excitement for finally dyeing my hair purple. I have high hopes

You will always be unhappy when you try to please everyone else

You're just another name on my list of people who I fucked over

i have never wanted to be dead more than I have right now. i'm so sorry.

its amazing how much good you can have in your life and still manage to fuck it all up. I don't deserve you, any of you

I don't want to be here any more. its as simple as that. I always end up fucking something up. what I do is never good enough for my mom, and I don't think it ever will be good enough. i'm hurting him. i'm hurting everyone with what I do...so why not hurt myself as punishment...makes sense right? i've tried to do better but it doesn't work. so here is to hurting myself for the hurt i've caused others.

why is it that every time you even bring up her name I instantly get jealous. I get angry and hurt all over again.

its becoming harder and harder to put away my old cutting knife when i do the dishes. everytime i see it all i want is to feel it against my skin. just one more time. to help me like old times. see the new scars. but the old ones on my thigh tell me to stop. its just.....getting difficult....