Its been a long time since I wrote to you. Just because I simply have not had the time because of work. I miss you! I have a bunch of stuff to write but I don't know how to put it all in words. My depression has come back really bad and I don't know what to do this time, I really wish I could just leave this world so I wouldn't have to deal with life anymore. Like really. Work has been good I have been getting hours out the ass and its all fun and shit but I just don't know what to do anymore when I'm not working. Like today I had off and all I did was sleep eat and clean, If that is what you call a relaxing day off work then okay. I have been really thinking about cutting again a lot lately and I know that its a bad thing but I cant help myself some times. T and I have been fighting some what more and more lately and I'm kinda just tired of her. I really wish she would just get her ass out of her head and do what she has to do to go to school. I cant stand feeling like this. Lilly I wish I could just go away from EVERYTHING and be alone for a long time. I wanna be happy I mean truly happy again. Yeah I mean the depression pills work but not all the time and I really don't like it when they don't work. God I miss Re I really wish she was here right now I could really use her help. She always knows how to make things better when things just fall apart. Oh I almost forgot to tell you, I pierced my cartilage. Next month I'm going to do more piercings. Lilly Why cant I get C off my mind. I mean I haven't seen him in a long time but man I really miss him. I really do........
