#imbackbitches

anyways heres steven stone

I think I've been depressed, lately.

The days go by

Monotonously - I get lost

In the noise of the TV,

And when I find my way back

I can't discern how much time has passed.

My children need me,

My body needs sleep.

My head won't clear itself enough

To remember to eat.

I need rest, I need time, I need space for myself.

I'm burnt out, unimpressed, cynical, I need help.

The smell in the air brings back memories but not – of an event,

or a trauma, just a feeling and the feeling isn't pleasant

The days all blur together like a color palette- mixing

Into ugly shades of brown and grey

and streaked

With tangible, identifiable colors.

but as soon as I reach out for one it seems to get brushed away

Into the muddy mess on a paintbrush with no canvas

My life is headed nowhere as society collapses

I try to keep a smile on my face and pretend

For my children

For my spouse

For the future generation

That I have hope but I'm so afraid

Because guns matter more than children.

I never imagined that I might worry,

and consider keeping my children

home from school so they’re not the next

victims

Of a school massacre

Because a young adult who has less control over his actions

and emotions

Than my four year old

Has access to a weapon that will kill a hundred in seconds.

And I'm Afraid because two men kissing each other

is viewed as more dangerous

Than the white men in uniform

Who can kill you legally,  

As long as the color of your skin

is within a certain range

but, it's not a racial thing anyway,

If he wasn't ready to die he shouldn't have committed a crime.

But while we're on that topic,

what about the missing women?

Millions of indigenous women

but the media's gone silent

because no one really cares unless

you're Gabby Petito and have a billion

Instagram followers clinging

To your every move

Because women are a commodity

and it's worse if you're not white,

and that's another thing,

about those people who claim to be PRO LIFE

The rich white elite will ALWAYS

have access to

discreet medical procedures,

If you know what I mean

And the rest will do what they've done since the dawn of time,

In back alley slaughterhouses - not

The slaughter of fetuses

but of the desperate people looking for a last resort.

So in banning abortion you're just condemning

poor people to die.

But that doesn't matter because 58% of people

below the poverty line don't fit your blond-haired blue-eyed ideal,

the way the unborn fetuses do because they're

not real

and it's never been about

Saving anyone.

I would pray for our future but God is dead,

Humanity killed her with corporate greed and instead

We just trudge through a society bent

on controlling and killing the masses