#imbackbby

Something crawled up my ass yesterday and said, “you know what sounds like fun? Blogging on Tumblr.” I’m notorious for abandoning social media accounts and letting people assume I’m dead because I simply don’t have the capacity to care. But it’s that same “idgaf” attitude that actually makes me want to use Tumblr again. No one has to look at it, I don’t need reblogs or notes in order to feel some sense of validation, I just like it for the ✨aesthetic✨

But who even am I?

Hi! I’m Andrea and I’m just your average zillennial working two jobs and a side hustle to provide for my pet hamster named Pabu and my fish named Takumi. I’ve never found myself particularly interesting, but I live a decently happy life with my friemily (a word I just made up to explain that my family is made up of ride or die friends). I like to travel places that are surrounded by nature, and I’m a HUGE foodie, so locations known for their eats are a good bet too.

I’m a born and bred Texan that is THRIVING in the sunny state of California. I’m currently 26, but I’ve been saying 27 for almost a year because I feel like I aged twice as fast in the global panorama. It could also be a subconscious thing because I have this desperate desire to be taken seriously in my profession and whether it’s my age or my genitals, something always gets in the way. But I don’t want to dwell on that thought for two long.

Anyways. I wanna use this space as a little brain dump type thing. Like a diary, but a hell of a lot less personal. Maybe. Maybe not 🤔 Let me think on that for a bit.

I don’t love the idea of my personal thoughts being a potential trigger for someone else in the world, but I also would really love to help normalize some of the dark stuff in life. I have some old blogs on this page from like 2014 that are pretty dark, but looking back on it 7 years later, I can use my newfound perspective to be proud of the growth I’ve gone through since then. It’s actually REALLY cool.

Alright. I’ve convinced myself. I won’t leave out the dark stuff, but fair warning: I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder a couple of years ago so when I’m in a low, I’m REALLY low. I feel like I’m possibly in a happy middle ground at the moment, which is likely why I’m able to take the time to write this.

Or I’m actually manic and not fully thinking this through and being impulsive? NAAAAAAAH. The level in which I commit to this is solely up to me. No pressure.

And that my friends, is how I talk myself down (in shortened form) from a potential spiral. I just encourage myself to live in the moment and do what makes me happy right here, right now. It might not be THAT healthy in retrospect,  but I can look back on this in 7 years and make that decision for myself then. My wallet may already have some very strong thoughts on my “retail therapy” habits, but they can SHUT UP. I’m poor. I like having things. Deal with it.

So I don’t know how much I’ll commit to this or what exactly I’ll be posting, but I want to hold myself accountable to a least a little somethin’ somethin’. I’m definitely going to make some travel blogs whenever I go places. Here’s my upcoming trips--

July: Lake Tahoe

August: Atlanta, GA and maaaaybe El Paso, TX

September: If I didn’t go to El Paso in August, I’ll be going in September

October: Puerto Vallarta, Jallisco

November: I’m hoping to go to Sonoma County and San Francisco!

On Instagram I do a “monthly highlights” post, so I’m definitely going to do that here as well. One thing I always have a ton of pictures of, but never actually post anywhere is food. So I can post that here as well!

Overall, I just want this to feel like a digital representation of my authentic life, however that looks. Now I just hope that Tumblr doesn’t pull a MySpace and go belly up. Because if I’m putting in the time and effort to make my memories available on the internet for my future self, my future self BETTER be able to actually access this shit!

As always,