#im...not okay

me outside: yah

me inside: triple h is never coming back

In this past month, my grandma, who is very, v e r y close to me, has been diagnosed with stage 4 cancer, and she's reaching the end of her battle.

All of this has been happening for just barely, not even a month. It all happened so fast, she just started to rapidly go downhill. She went from being the strongest person I know to barely being able to walk. I was just told yesterday that its spread everywhere in her, and she probably only has days left. Weeks if she's lucky.

I'm not okay.

I really don't think I'll be able to do commissions for at least a week or two, so donations to my kofi or paypal would be really appreciated, because I havent worked on almost a week and a half. I still have phone bills and gas to pay for, but I don't know when I'll be going back to work if I'm helping my grandma in her final days. I don't know how active I'm going to be. My grandma is my person. My best friend, and she raised me. I've been in a downward spiral for days. I might do a livestream and do small requests for donations because I really need the money while I'm off work.

Please consider donating, it'd help a lot. If you can't please reblog to help me out. I don't know when I'm gonna be emotionally ready to start working or doing full commissions again.

this week is going to be shit...

first i slept in on like my only day off so i lost half the fucking day, then i got banned from the TOME discord for being stupid (i get back on in 3 days but idk if i’ll be able to survive) and now my girlfriend is getting bullied by her parents and i cant fucking do anything...i want to die tbh but im too much of a coward. school fucking sucks atm, my anxiety is always horrible these days, i have a shit ton of homework, i havent drawn anything good in weeks because i havent had time because fucking shcool...venting isnt helping. i need a pick me up...anyone wanna chat? pm me, maybe? please...im so lonely i just...need to distract myself.