#im sol

Ryu Sun-jae lived carrying the heavy guilt of Im Sol's paralysis. He blamed himself for not being able to save her. For not waking her up when he could have simply done that, and prevented the whole incident from happening in the first place. The words Im Sol said to him after accident, that he should have just "let her die" amplified his guilt even more, I think. (Which, obv I don't blame Im Sol for it, she is a human, she feels stuff.)

After that, he also reached out to her in 2009, called her in that radio show, and realised yet again just how much she was suffering. He literally heard his first love say that she didn't want to live. In his mind, it was because of him. He was the reason she couldn't leave her life fully, that she couldn't fulfill his dreams.

Even after that call, there was probably no confirmation that she had forgiven him. Because she didn't know who saved her from that accident. Even if she was his fan, to him, she didn't know that he was "reason" for her being in a wheelchair. He constantly lived with the reminder that while he was living successfully, Im Sol was living a life where she couldn't achieve her goals and dreams.

Seeing her so happy to see him, being his fan for over a decade, he might have still thought that he didn't deserve it. That he wasn't worthy of being loved by someone who he couldn't protect, and someone whose life he "ruined".

Then there's Baek In-Hyuk. Baek In-Hyuk who probably saw his out-going, happy friend go from his usual self into a closed off, isolated mess he became after the accident. He might have lived with frustration, that he couldn't help Sun-jae and that Sun-jae wouldn't tell him why he was suddenly like that.

Baek In-Hyuk, whose last conversation with his childhood best friend, who k*lled himself, was an argument. He might have hated himself for not being able to be there for him. That he was always around, but never could truly support him. He saw his friend become miserable, but couldn't help, and now, his friend was gone. And the last memory they shared was an argument.

For Im Geum, he had to give up on his dreams, and work hard, often overtime, to support for his family. While Sol tried to earn herself by starting her freelance editing business, she was still barely getting any customers, and he was still the one with responsibility to prove for the family. He didn't get married, because he simply didn't have the time or energy to start a relationship, since he was always exhausted. His sister's accident must have obviously affected him mentally too.

Lee Hyun-joo, about Hyun-joo, I absolutely love that even in the first timeline, she did not abandon Sol. Instead, she was always there, quietly supporting and even bought a bigger car to help drive Sol to places. A beautiful friendship, that didn't weaken at all during any time. Though, she might not have suffered as much as others, she still wasn't married and didn't have her beautiful children.

Park Bok-soon, she was so strong. She was hurting inside, seeing her daughter in so much pain, but she never showed it. She always made sure to be the strong one so her daughter could rely on her and feel safe. And, I am pretty sure she also knew who exactly saved her back then. She knew it was Ryu Sun-jae, but she didn't tell Sol because she thought that Sol would hate herself if she realised that she said all that things to Ryu Sun-jae.

And Ryu Sun-jae's dad too, he must have not seen his son smile, really smile throughout these fifteen years. And then, his son took his own life, leaving him miserable, helpless and completely and utterly alone.

And Kim Taesung, in the original timeline, there was no one to guide him to the right path. He wasted away his youth, ended up in a big gang fight and dropped out of high-school. He probably never got the disclosure he did in the fourth time line. There was no one who told him, assured him, that his parents do card for him, even if this might not have been able to show it at times. He probably didn't live a very successful or fulfilling life in the original timeline.

Then, there's obviously Im Sol. Im Sol whose life was suddenly turned upside down because of an "accident" she didn't remember. All her dreams were suddenly far too away from her reach. She was helpless, even though she had people supporting her, she felt helpless and alone. Because she was scared of how she would live like this. It must have been scary to just realised that you can't walk anymore. She wanted to end her life, because she saw no meaning in living anymore. But then, Ryu Sun-jae reached out to her, said those meaningful words and gave her hope and something to hold on to. Then, Sol became stronger, emotionally and mentally. She stopped being negative and finally started to look at the brighter side. She was optimistic. But then, after 14 years of being Sun-jae's fan, the man who gave her a will to live, suddenly takes his own life. Then what should she live for, when the person who told her to live gave up himself?