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I met @gabbymaiden who was gracious when I mistook her for another actress. But I remember now! I know her from “Chef Julian” and “I Love Dick”. Thanks for the photo, Gabby! . . . . #sdcc #sdcc2018 #sandiego #sandiegocomiccon2018 #sandiegocomiccon #denver #atlanta #theburningmetronome #burningmetronome #mfiac #nerdteam30 #gabbymaiden #chefjulian #strangerthings #ilovedicktv (at San Diego Comic Convention)

Dear Friends, I had the honor of co-writing and performing on a track for a tv show. The show is called "I Love Dick" and the song is called "Zan Hastam" which means "I'm a woman" in Dari. It was great collaborating with you @pulserecording Anne Preven @annetenna and @nicostadi @azitagram, and Mustafa Saeed @pashtunes thank you for comin' through to play some Rabab on the song. Thank you so much @jillsoloway @topple @callmegubbins @joelewis and all of your amazing team. Could not have had more fun and feel more aligned with a show made by almost all women that pushes the gender binary, the female gaze, and pushes the genre / form of storytelling etc ! Everyone go watch the show it's streaming on @amazonvideo starting today and it's really great. The song is in episode 102 called #theconceptualfuck directed by the amazing @kimberlypppp xx ariana #ilovedicktv

I haven't been writing much- it's been a big week back at home- Felix's graduation, Hosting the #ilovedicktv event, reading @_soho20 with Nicole. And still trying to understand and take care of my feelings about what happened at middle/high school in the 80's and 90's and trying to support the victims and being told by a lawyer that I was I a victim too since a teacher sent me about 100 "emotionally manipulative" letters. It's not that I didn't know it was real or wrong, it's that I thought because I was not sexually abused (ha! In this case, raped and assaulted later, thanks patriarchy and rape culture) it wasn't as important. I've been think about the ways the systems keep us working against each other, that saying someone has an agenda or is looking for attention is like saying you're just doing this for attention or you asked for it. That's it's all on the same continuum. This is a picture of me reading about censorship and vulnerability and cancer and rape. I loved talking withNicole- was so interested her ideas and feelings about being forced to be a strong black women, that her "softness was swiped" from her. There are so many ways of being silenced. And so many ways of showing solidarity and love. //// #Repost @carla_marie_jr (@get_repost) ・・・ @cd_clifford reading at @_soho20 last night with @goodwin9, as part of the exhibition #otherwiseyoudontseeme. Such powerful words and presence!! 🌺🌷🌹❤️

2/2 I love the way they enjoy each other. I love they describe "the box" as making safe space for creativity and improv and scenes written by hand. I love the small subversiveness in the pilot where Chris is "the holocaust wife" and it's Eileen Myles' back as the other "fellows wife." I love that desire is the story. Fuck everything else. And I think that THIS- this female gaze, this NOT male gaze, not male perspective looking at women as objects of pleasure, but female gaze, not just turning the tables and ogling the male form(tho there's some)- that THIS is in line with a new sex ed, one that teaches love and affection and desire as something mutual and fun and messy. This is the TV show that says fuck you to rape culture. Jill Soloway as director, Sarah Gubbins as writer, India Menuez as Toby, Griffin Dunne as Sylvere, and Mandy Hoffman (original compositions) are all up for Emmy awards and I hope they fucking win. So we can fucking celebrate them and then there will be more work like this. It's like nothing I've ever seen. When Toby tells off Sylvere? She's not nice to him just cuz he's an older white man in power? It's so fucking cathartic. I didn't realize my work wasn't for them, that my audience would never be men in power, until I was almost 40. And I was just fangirling all over the place- I mean that show is arousing and these actors are beautiful and smart. And seeing it with an audience, laughing together and being silent together? SO GOOD. To be aroused in a dark room, when since the #fuckcancer and it's attendant loss of libido I can barely remember to masturbate? And I was wearing this cute jumpsuit I got at Goodwill in Florida for $3? I ...I feel like myself again. I am my own fucking superhero. I was super enthusiastic and maybe a little funny and sexy and too much. I weep at the return of self, but it's the self that been fired and kilned and hammered. And after this week of such rapeyness with the sexual misconduct on at the High School I went to, and evidence I found, ugh, I needed this night. #feministart #love #endrapeculture #dismantlepatriarchy #femalegaze #ilovedicktv #fyc #fuckcancer #fun #healing

un is healing. The female gaze is healing. I feel seen and mirrored in I Love Dick. I started crying when India Meneuz / Toby's 20something self is lying in the floor of the living room with her elementary school self, holding her own hand. Watching Kathryn Hahn as Chris watching herself with Sylvère when she was on college. The way trauma is lived and how we need to hold ourselves and each other. I want this show to win all the awards. The composer Mandy spoke so eloquently about creating that aural landscape using mariachi and tin to create the sound of Marfa. I love how the show just cuts to feminist art and back into the scene. We're in the restaurant then we see Sally Potter and Chantal Ackerman (oh! grief!) and then we are back in the restaurant. I love seeing myself- yes perhaps too close to home with the successful academic partner and me as the messy artist- but seeing women's lives explored in a way that centers queerness and non heteronormative narrative structure. And that explores beauty intellectually and visually- that uses the form it works in *itself* to explode the narrative. #feministart #endrapeculture #dismantlepatriarchy #femalegaze #love #cancer #rapeculture #fyc #ilovedicktv 1/2

Congrats to Kathryn Hahn on the @AmazonVideo premier of I Love Dick! She was so fun to shoot! #kathrynhahn #ilovedicktv @ilovedicktv

With a few of the editors of "I Love Dick" ❄️️❄️️❄️️ #ilovedicktv #amazon #sundance2017 (at Sundance Film Festival)