#illuminaughtiess

Coming back to tumblr after like, 5 or 6 years since Twitter is falling off. Looking through my old posts here is wild, I was so sad 😭

My boyfriend is literally the most understanding and supportive guy in the world, and I'm very lucky to have him in my life. ❤

I feel like such a constant failure, and that everyone dislikes me. I try so hard to get ahead and to make myself happy but I'm not succeeding.

I can't even explain the deep sorrow that's in my heart. I saw my boyfriend break down in tears last night. "What will happen to my family, my friends?", he said. "What will happen?" My head has been pounding since last night. My eyes are swollen from tears. I feel sick. No more healthcare for me. Say goodbye to my insurance. Birth control is no more. I never felt safe walking alone, but now it's even worse. I am scared for my life, my family's lives, my boyfriend and his family's lives. But I won't stay silent in fear. I will keep moving forward. I am standing with others who are terrified. We will fight for this country. #HeIsNotMyPresident

I'm fucking annoyed.

I am SO FUCKING overwhelmed. I want to scream.

Some people won’t change for the better, no matter how badly you want them to, or even how badly they want to change for themselves. If they don’t take the time to unlearn their bad habits, they will never ever change. Saying sorry will only matter so many times. You have to change your behavior for it to really mean anything.