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Harassing/Stalking

Gabe claimed that I was stalking his friends and sent me this anon that contains my birth name. I am not happy that he posted my birth name on public without permission and it made me uncomfortable that he kept calling me she/her or a girl. Back when we were dating, he would correct his friends whenever they’d use they or he for me, saying “(birthname) is she/her”, and they were like oh okay. I was feeling uncomfortable and tried to talk to him about it and since he was my boyfriend at that time I only wanted him to use it, but I couldn’t say so because I was really scared he wouldn’t like me anymore just because I’m genderfluid. That’s why I let him keep telling others to use she/her. What bothered me the most though was that he would tell his friends to use she/her because I have boobs, which is clearly transphobic and transmisogynistic.

When we first started dating, he suddenly disappeared a week or so later. He blocked me on most of his media apps and deactivated some accounts. I was freaking out and worried something had happened to him in real life. I waited for maybe three days then I couldn’t take it anymore so I messaged one of his irl friends and asked him if Gabriel was okay and that hopefully he wouldn't get mad with me about this. His friend began explaining to me that Gabriel was good, all happy and was talking to them and the group chat about this guy he meet irl that they thought he may have a crush on, and that Gabriel was questioning himself a lot. His friend told Gabriel that they were concerned about my thoughts and feelings about this, but he ignored that for some reason. His friend told me all of this because they wanted us to talk about it and I wanted to talk to him about it as well and see for myself if he actually does like this person, because then we shouldn’t be dating. If he wanted to keep dating though then I wanted to see if we could fix this.

After this, I decided to post on my old tumblr of how “I am sad and hurt, hopefully it wasn’t the truth, I can’t believe that he had done this. I wonder if Gabriel really likes his new friend as a crush. I feel bad and want to cry. My heart hurts” and then his friend quickly messaged me these:

This shows that he had been watching and stalking my blog for about a week, despite having deactivated his tumblr and having blocked me on his social media.

All of this is the reason why he decided to claim that I am ‘psychotic’ and ‘stalking him and his irl friend’ and posted this:

These are some of his blogs, which I’ve blocked him on.

I’ve also blocked his rabbit.

He also leaked my friend’s nude in a group chat that contained 4 or 5 of his friends, my friend, and I, just because my friend annoyed him or they had a problem. I don’t have screenshot of it but people were commenting “oh gosh!” and telling him how wrong it was, and Gabriel’s only response was “I told him don’t f with me! I told him so! I told him I’m going do something!” My friend was like “what the fuck, gabe” and was telling his friends “why are you guys commenting about how gross it is, this is messed up”.

So I directly talked to Gabriel in private about how wrong it is to post someone’s nude even if you guys might have problem with each other. He only kept saying “I bet you hate me now.” I kept telling him “I don’t but I’m going tell you that’s wrong of you” and that he should apologize to my friend. I then decided to message my friend.

Moving on, Gabriel would keep insulting me at random times.

I got tired of him doing this so I decided to try and stand up for myself.

Racism

^In this cap I was trying to defend myself again when he was insulting me, and then he decided to use the n word even though he is not black.

^In this cap I am asking him why his friend thinks I would kill him, and he once again used the n word.

He would also tell me all the time that since my mutuals hate white people, they’re racist.

Transphobia and transmisogyny

He has said to my face that nb is fake and hurting ”real trans people” and that my act of being genderfluid is hurting them and I’m transphobic. I have been feeling horrible and guilty for nearly 5 months straight and I couldn’t tell anyone I’m genderfluid because I kept thinking I’m wrong for it and that I’m terrible and that he’s right in saying I’m a piece of shit.

When yaxaxa/Nina was around before the call out, she called him out once because of what he would say about trans people and she said that she didn’t understand him. He posted one time saying “lol lucky I could block whoever I know isn’t real trans.” I was still scared of him but I really wanted so badly to tell him that he shouldn’t say that about people because their appearance might be the way it is right now because of parent issues, fear of coming out, insufficient funds to change their appearance or that even maybe they’re comfortable like that so they’re still real. But he always knew how to make me feel bad and would always turn the tables around against me, hence why I never spoke up.

^This is what he replied with to the post Yaxawa/Nina made about him.

^I also found this ask from Yaxawa/Nina’s blog. That’s his other old url.

^I screenshotted this because it got me thinking how it say he’s following me but right after it is that ask. Let me tell you this, nobody and I mean nobody who follows my blog is against nb and I have never had a mutual who is against it either. The only person I personally know who is against that is him.

Here is his fake apology

I had decided to block him because I was starting to have frequent panic attacks because of him. However, he noticed and sent me the following messages.

He use to snap at me a lot back then and would insult me and tell me to shut up just because he was not in a good mood or lost a video game or due to life problems.

I thought I should be understandable and forgive him for saying all those awful things.

He was being so kind to me and didn’t snap at me for nearly three days. I thought maybe he had changed but I was dumb. People can’t change that fast and that was foolish of me. He started posting this:

I asked for an irl friend’s help for this because we both know I would go soft and let this pass. I typed down what she told me to on the phone.

The links he sent contained the following images:

So I decided to ask him about that.

But he just used the n word again, even though he is not black.

I didn’t get the whole screenshot but I only responded with ‘ok’ after that, then we stopped talking for one whole day. The next day he told me “I would rather fuck other girls than a basic f*ggt tumblr bitch like you” and quickly blocked me.

I would love to have even more proof and screencaps about all the horrible things he has said and done, but he deactivated his Facebook account (which contained more proof), and he logged into a few of my old blogs and deactivated them.