#ijust..

People you can depend on and they will always be there for you... Right? In my experience especially as of recently I've noticed that people who claim to love and care for you are there to suck you dry until there is nothing left. 

Coming from a home that treated me like property, yea. I'm used to not going out or talking to people for extended periods of time, or my mother inviting people my age to hang out with her. The wrong people, people she liked but I couldn't stand. And the few I do like seem to ignore me and when I call them out on it I'm the bad person for telling them that their being a shitty friend. 

The people that I do talk to seem to blow me off and just not care, it's about them and their needs. Always. They flake out on the last minute  or never text back, they don't answer their calls or just flat out ignore me. I cant figure out why either, I've always been the best friend I could be, Always there for them when they need me. Why don't I get that same love back?

Is it me? I'm not exactly lovable but I do try....

I Just.... I would like someone to treat me like I treat them....

well. Hey

what if my life is gone.

Everybody would be happier..

I wouldnt have to cry anymore..