#ihecollabproject

And here is a link to Alex’s livestream (he starts looking at it around the 2:36:52 mark): https://www.kamcord.com/v/n7o4v0HicB1

My submission for the IHE collab project thingy

So I guess I wanted to share what Alex and Jar media mean to me. First some background. I had a really rough year. I went away to my first year in college in Canada. I was studying animal biology because my parents pushed me into the STEM field. I don’t blame them, they did what they thought was best for me. But I don’t enjoy science and I’m not very good at it. Of course my freshman year was all science courses. My grades started slipping and for the first time in my life I was in danger of failing. And I did. I became depressed and I thought about killing myself on a daily basis. I didn’t tell anyone until it had progressed very far because I have social anxiety and showing that I had screwed up terrified me. The thing that got me through was IHE and Jar Media. When it was night time and I was having withdrawal from Paxil because it got stuck in the mail they’re the ones that calmed me down. When I had negative thoughts about myself just listening to Alex’s voice made them go away. Jar and IHE can always make me laugh and I had something to look forward to every Monday. I saw that Alex followed his passion, so why couldn’t I? I survived and I’m switching to English. I’m seeing a therapist and my parents were super supportive after I told them. I don’t know if I would have gotten through it without Jar.