Vent.
I can't abandon my son like my mom did me. What am I suppose to do now. I'm living half my dream and that was to move to California, I got the opportunity while down range and I took it. Now I want to get my son here with me but everyone is giving me a hard time. Why, am I not his mother, do I not have rights to have my son live with me?! Yes his whole support system is in NYC, but I'm his mother dammit. I have my shit together, I can support him just fine and I promised to take trips back and forth for holidays and for him to see the family, I'll even send him for the summer. I seriously need advice. Legal advice. Parental advice. What am I do?! I'm going crazy. I'm happy but yet I still find myself crying at night because my son isn't here with me. I don't regret him but God knows I regret ever getting in bed with that boy, I say boy because he's no man. I wish I would of had my prince just as I planned, when I had my wife and we were ready for babies. But now I have to deal with this little boy. My son is more of a man than he is. Dammit, idk what God has in store for me but I hope it's all good in the end.
