#ihatebeingalone

with everthing going on at the moment i feel like everyone is struggling to figure out what they are even doing anymore. like i personally feel like when i’m not at work or hanging with my boyfriend i feel so useless and wonder if this is what my life is going to look like for the rest of the year :( over the past few 2 years since having moved away from home for college i have felt the pressures of growing up and being someone in life even more especially now that i am on my own. like yes i love the independence don’t get me wrong but it is so lonely when you’re alone ( and yes i said i have a bf but that’s not the type of lonely i am talking about) and you just start to feel so anxious and don’t know what to do with yourself anymore;

this whole quarantine makes even worse because, while i do get a minor case of social anixety when i go out in public, even if i only had a bit of money i used to take the bus to the mall to walk around grab a pretzel or do some window shopping and now it’s so hard cause i’m confined to the tiny room i rent at someone’s place and i feel so claustrophobic.

i feel like this whole post made no sense but that’s usually how my brain works. i think of stuff and just let it out .