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Isabelle Huppert et Tsuyoshi Ihara dans "Sidonie au Japon" d'Elise Girard, avril 2024.

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The ugly AND beautiful sides of Autism Reposting because there’s too many people reblogging and faving the ugly sides one alone.  So here we go. (Also PLEASE feel free to add to the beautiful sides I’m begging you, help other autistics feel happier about their autistic selves.) The Ugly Sides; -Originally was going to post on DeviantART but changed my mind because I got too much shit on there to trust people. Not saying tumblr would be 100% better, but I know there’s a community on here and I had less if no bad experiences about advocacy in here so. Here we go.- In order to accept, you must also take notice of the bad sides of something. It will help you understand better and better manage those things. And thus I will talk about some of the bad, ugly sides of autism. Because it’s not all sunshine and rainbows, especially because of how other people treat us. It’s not all bad either though. And you must aknowledge this too. (TRIGGER WARNING: Mentions of intense ableism, embarassing moments, mentions of functionning labels, mentions of abuse, mention of filicide and kamikaze/suicide, mentions of starvation, mentions of sexualization and sexual harassment.) But sometimes… Sometimes it’s having too many meltdowns in a row, or a shutdown at the wrong moment. (Advice for person who may be in presence of someone experiencing this; Be patient, if possible bring to a darker, quieter place, some water, a comfort object.) Sometimes it’s people not wanting to diagnose you, or vaccinate themselves or their kids because they would rather have a dead child than one like you, even though the anti-vaccine movement has been built on lies, an hoax debunked DECADES ago. (Self-diagnosis is okay. And vaccines work. Fucking. get. vaccinated. If your parents are anti-vaxxers, you can always find a way to get vaccinated another way.) It’s not necessarily having special skills that everyone will be mesmerized at, but being praised as superhuman when you do, and treated like garbage if you don’t. (Don’t worry, you don’t need special skills to be worthy of acceptance. Also, do not assume overcompetence or incompetence. Do not assume anything. Get to know the person and how they function and go from there.) It’s hurling insults around that you don’t understand are harmful or threatening to kill someone because it doesn’t sound that bad in your head, and everyone else is doing it, so it’s all right, right? (No it’s not. But if you encounter an autistic child yelling “I’m going to kill you!” , please try to understand that they are under extreme emotional turmoil. Be patient with them and explain as gently as possible that it’s not okay to threaten someone like that and perhaps why.) It’s having ‘caretakers’ saying how much you are a burden to them (you are not.) , it’s being too tired to function (though that might have to do with depression and anxiety more, sometimes you might experience too many things because of sensory overload for example. Or autistic burnout.) -In the same vein, it’s sensory issues and autistic burnout, it’s having you labeled as high-functionning or low-functionning depending on whether you can speak or not, and having your intelligence and capacities based on that, though it fluctuates sometimes. (your speech and your functions both.) It’s being so overwhelmed that you would hurt people you care about - you don’t mean it, really, it’s just a meltdown. People think they’re temper tantrums and thus that you are panicking on purpose, but they are not. - because you can’t see what you’re doing, and it’s made worse by your own parents filming you and showing you at your most vulnerable moment to complain about you, or having them laugh at you and being afraid that people would take it the wrong way if they saw you acting like this because what would they think? It’s not understanding your own body and for some of us, it might be feeling something a little too late, and being treated like a baby or a dog or worse. It’s banging your head on the wall to make the pain stop. It’s being lonely and feeling like you don’t belong, because no one understands, no one TRIES to understand, and you try so hard to do what you must to live, to perhaps fit in (you won’t though, no need to try. Just be yourself and you’ll find the right people to be with.) , and sometimes you feel like that because you feel like you have never been taught how to better be your autistic self because the world is full of allistics and you had no autistic mentor to tell you how it is, why you feel this or that way and why does THIS person do THAT, so you try to blend in and be with allistics, but they find you too weird. It’s not understanding what people around you say about you because they don’t care to make you understand or they don’t want to try harder. It’s having your own damn parents think it would be better if they sacrificed themselves with you, jumped over a bridge so the world wouldn’t have to “suffer” your presence or have to “deal” with you. It’s allistics telling us we are either angels or demons and creating wars where they don’t exist between us so there is this false sense of supremacy and distance between our “Types”. Having to explain that you’re not perfect and you don’t have to be, but people don’t understand. It’s starving yourself sometimes either because of texture sensitivity or depression, or both. It’s being starved for attention, but not being sure who to approach to talk about your special interests with and being afraid you’re a bother to anyone you do this constantly with. It’s not being able to trust people, because too many people left. Sometimes, it’s being a woman, and thus overly sexualized, but once people learn that you are autistic, it’s being desexualized and infantilized, or being told “It’s okay, I still want to fuck you.” and that you’re “easy”. It’s having people speak for you so much that you end up not knowing what to say yourself or how to make decisions by yourself. It’s having sleepless nights because you are crying so much over how you will survive in this world. It’s you trying to get a diagnosis but having people say don’t exagerate, you’re not that dumb, or that girls or PoC cannot be autistic. It’s having people use your neurotype as an insult. It’s not being sure who to listen to when it comes to advocacy and not knowing enough or being brave enough to speak for yourself and others like you. It’s seeing characters that are so stereotyped it’s not even subtle. And so much more. There are ugly sides to autism, but acceptance starts when you can accept not only the pretty sides to it, but also the ugly, and put a term to the bad things you did to us, taking responsibility. -------------------------- The Beautiful Sides; Because someone reblogged the “ugly sides” one thanking me because they wanted a way to tell people why they hated being autistic. And that made me sad. So I decided to make one for the beautiful sides. And that, too, can educate people, anyway. Now, I am only 23, and I am still learning about myself and what it means to be autistic. I did not have autistic mentors to teach me. The good thing is the community. See? That’s already one beautiful thing. Now let’s see… What are the Beautiful Sides of Autism? -It’s having special interests; Being so passionate about something that it makes you smile and gives you life, and makes your eyes sparkle with glee! -For some, like me, it’s a big sense of empathy, being able to see things through everyone’s points of views (well, almost everyone’s.) and making for a compassion so grand that it encompasses a lot in your life, makes you want to be a better person and spread kindness just to see people smile. (Low-empathy autistics are valid too, though. Much love to you!) -It’s stimming! Feeling things in ways that allistics could never even dream of. (No beef against you if you have none against us though.) -It’s the smiling faces even through all the pain that we’ve gone through. -It’s the happy echolalia when one of your favorite character says something funny, or when you love the way a word sounds. -It’s the brave and mighty who fight for us, knowing that we are loved; the solidarity and the community, picking each other up when we fall. -For some of us it’s those special skills that we pick up that amaze people and and the wonder in their eyes. (No worries, even if you don’t have a special skill, you are ALSO valid and loved and worthy of life. Much love to you!) -It’s seeing things a different way, thus helping others see things they might not have seen the way we do. -It’s finding the opportunity to make a joke, even when it’s a terrible pun. -It’s knowing how to find the perfect gift for a friend or loved one because you pay particular attention to people’s interests. -It’s simply being YOU. And it’s so much more than you might think. Okay to reblog for all. May Peace always find its way to your heart and may you find love for your beautiful, autistic self.

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