#ifeltterrible

So just a little background info, I've always been socially awkward and terrified of talking to people. I don't know how to talk to pretty much anybody. That being said,when I was younger I was on a trip with my youth group and I was trying to make friends with people. So I stepped out of my comfort zone to attempt to talk to people and I said something apparently not normal. I was having a good time and whatever I said just made everyone stare at me with this look like "wtf you are so weird". I felt awful, so I shut up and kept to myself the rest of the time. I wanted to cry so bad, so I just stared at the table we were sitting at, pretended to be happy, and fake laughed when everybody else laughed.