#idoltina

Author:  idoltina

Rating:  T

Status:  Completed in October 2011

Word Count:  14,466

Summary:  Everyone is born blind- literally. Falling in love with one's soulmate means gaining sight. Inspired by this. Eleven experiences that teach Kurt Hummel about sight, love, loss, and acceptance.

Tropes/Genre:  soulmate!Klaine, blind!Kurt, blind!Blaine, angst, highschool!Klaine

Lynne’s review:  So much to take in here - I had to read it very slowly to understand it all. This world is so very different. This story is heartbreaking in so many ways. Grateful that our boys found each other. Eventually.

damn woman. okay, here goes.

3. favorite line/scene you wrote this year

I am unhealthily enamoured of my writing in general but I'm gonna go with this, from The Outlaw Killian Jones (and the legend Emma Swan):

A rusty gate hinge, investigation later revealed, had been the culprit behind the Spectacular Pig Hullabaloo of 1893, whereas Miss Swan had simply vanished, with no explanation given or obvious method of egress.

12. favorite character to write about this year

look I will never not love Killian Jones, but since I started writing dramione this year I have to go with Draco Malfoy. He's a character I wasn't especially interested in when I read the HP books but after I fell headlong into this ship and saw the incredible fanon that has been built around him, I may have developed a fascination. It's been an interesting experience going from a canon ship to a very much not canon one, featuring a character that was extremely thinly drawn in the books and fleshed out enormously and in so many creative and distinct ways in fanfic. I feel like I'm just starting to explore him.

13. favorite writing song/artist/album of this year

I don't mix music and writing. idk why I just don't. I know songs are huge influence on a lot of writers but my brain doesn't do that, I guess. I can't listen to anything with words when I write either, so... sorry.

15. something you learned this year

That fandoms can change quite a lot and very quickly, and sometimes the best thing is to just let the change happen and move away from the fandom, even if you hate to see it go. And sometimes in moving away you end up finding something so much better you wonder why you waited so long to make the move.

22. events you participated in this year

CS January Joy - good ships and wood ships and ships that sail the sea

Dramione Double the Trouble - wherever i wander... forever i love

Captain Swan Historical Fics event - The Outlaw Killian Jones (and the legend Emma Swan)

Dramione Pumpkin Spice Fic Fest - emotion in motion

24. favorite fic you read this year

going into a new fandom, you read a LOT. Like, a lot a lot and sometimes you don't always remember or bookmark all the fics you loved. Sometimes you don't even realise how much you loved something until after you've read it and months later it's still in your head even though you can no longer remember its name.

(the 'you' in this not-so-hypothetical scenario is me. very bad at bookmarking and remembering. adhd, etc)

However, I will mention one fic that I think is an extraordinary work of art, even pending its final chapter (which I'm confident will be just as brilliant as what's come before) and that is Love and Other Historical Accidents by @pacific-rimbaud

25. a fic you read this year you would recommend everyone read

like LaOHA above, this is one that I genuinely believe even people who aren't into the ship would enjoy, if they can buy into the characterisations. It's a WIP but updated regularly, and as its beta I can assure you that not only will it definitely be finished it just keeps getting better and better. If you like history and mysteries and travel and adventure and battle couples and magic and snark and slow burn and the upending of beloved tropes and French and incredibly clever writing then this is the fic for you. I love it so, so much.

it is Draco Malfoy and the Mortifying Ordeal of Being in Love, and I mean. Even the title. Right? Right.

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may: a fic you have regretted posting?

nothing sprang immediately to mind, which i think is a good sign. i have really old fic, stuff that i wrote when i was still a teenager that i think is terrible. i have fic where the characters do or say things i wouldn’t have them do now, because i’m more mature or knowledgable or aware of things like internalized misogyny. there are fandoms i was briefly in that feel, now, like a fever dream. but there’s nothing that i fully think, oh i wish i hadn’t done that. 

recent: the most recent fic you have posted online? The Devil’s Right There in the Details The Closer, Brenda/Sharon, Rating: E (eventually), WIP Brenda folds Captain Raydor into her division to save her from a worse fate. She has good intentions but it turns out she doesn't much like Raydor and Raydor doesn't like her, either. ancient: the first fic you ever posted online?

i... honestly couldn’t tell you. honestly. something the x-files, probably?? the oldest fic i have on my ao3 is a csi fic from 2005 but even i think that date is wrong because i remember writing it in my freshman college dorm room lolll so it has to be from 2003-2004. I definitely have Harry Potter fic from 2004 on my ff dot net account which, as you know, that place is a cesspool. but my best guess is x-files to like, A LISTSERV, back in the day, god i am the CRYPT KEEPER. 

thank you xoxo

Share a sentence or paragraph from your writing that you’re really proud of (explain why, if you like)

oh this one is really hard because i’m like...really proud of my writing.  like up-my-own-ass levels of proud.  🤣 this is from for tonight you’re only here to know:

He has no names for what he felt that night, just as he had no words for everything she made him want. It’s something he only knows now, looking back--looking at her and the way she stands in front of him in all of her majesty as he understands that something in their coupling made the glamour she surrounded herself with shatter when her magic surged and her eyes flashed green.

Even that night there was something regal about her, Hook thinks, as he wanted nothing more than to fall to his knees, to worship at the temple of her body--he was hers for the taking, and she knew it.

So long as she wanted him, she could take him any way she liked.

He remembers the feeling of her hair as he tangled his hand in the dark locks--the dark locks that glittered gold in the torchlight, in his imagination, in his dreams, and now in reality--as he kissed her and he was anything but gentle. As she answered him--not gentle, either. Her skin was luminous as she removed her belt and tunic, as he unfastened the buttons of her shirt and exposed her to the dim golden glow of the torches, as she pulled herself closer to him and he grasped her from behind, crushing her against him.

It is her gown that glitters now, diamonds strewn across a blue blanket and Hook thinks she is aware of being watched, that he is watching her. Ariel tugs at his sleeve in a futile attempt to divert his attention but he is unmoving, his eyes only on her. Swan--Emma--is so still and so quiet that she might be a statue, her posture rigid as she holds herself tightly as a breath underwater and Hook thinks he might be the only one in this room who sees her as she truly is, and not what she appears to be. The gown is beautiful-and she is beautiful in it--but Hook finds himself missing the soft blue leather that showed off not the body of a woman of leisure, but of a fighter--supple as a bowstring, twice as strong.

Do you reread your old works? How do you feel about them?

yes.  👏 i am my own first audience and i re-read my own stuff constantly.  either for inspiration or comfort or for the simple pleasure i get from the stories i wrote because i wanted to have them to read.  i don’t love all of them.  there’s always something it would be fun to change or reconsider.  but yeah, i reread them and i still enjoy them.

What’s the story idea you’ve had in your head for the longest?

it is the one i am working on now, which is a CS romantic suspense procedural.  it’s on rewrite #4, it’s about 23k so far (will probably be about 30k) and it is approximately 2/3 finished.  CS are always CS but i had fun answering the big questions here and playing with the supporting cast.  i took some chances on those and i hope people will find them interesting.

idoltina replied to your post: Someone come over and bring fried chicken with you...

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I just spent the week reading a beautiful story by @idoltina called “Frozen Hearts” and had a bit of inspiration strike! If you haven’t read it, you’re missing out on some extraordinary work, so go and read it at once!

Author: idoltina

Rating: M

Status: One-Shot (Part Two of the ‘Meet Me on the Equinox’ Series)

Author’s Summary: “Let me see if I’ve got this right. Cooper Anderson takes some time off from his ‘busy acting career’ to waltz back into town, run into his little brother’s … friend from junior high, and offers to do something nice for her.”