#icantfindmyself

🎼 floatinurboat - i cant find myself 🎶

Poco a poco siento que me alejo. Ya no deseo escuchar tu voz, ni anhelo tanto hacer el amor. Algo en mi se apagó, desde ese día que tu engaño me arropó. No fue el primero, sino el segundo. Abrí los ojos y me di cuenta de que para ti nunca fui prioridad, nunca te esforzaste por romance, ni en detalles conmigo. Me dolió saber que anhelabas el cuerpo de otra mientras me “hacías el amor”. Más me dolió que aclamaras tu amor como el más limpio, el más fiel… y terminaras hablando con otra, deseando a otra. Me rompió el corazón conocer que fui segunda opción, no fui importante como para tu sinceridad o para que evitaras herirme, no solo una, pero varias veces. Entonces cada noche me encuentro sufriendo, no todas, pero la mayoría. Cada día me encuentro evadiendo mis pensamientos negativos, oscuros, sofocantes. Desearía olvidar, nunca he deseado algo tan fuerte como olvidar. Quiero lograr amarme, y si entre eso me separo, espero que lo respetes. Si me enfoco más en mí, espero que lo entiendas, porque siento que me enfoqué y te di todo de mi para ti, y ahora estoy recuperando. Recuperando todo el amor, respeto, confianza y dedicación que te di, entre todo eso fallé en atenderme a mí. Así que no tomes a mal que quiera amarme, porque me he tardado en darme cuenta de que solo yo seré capaz de sanarme y aceptarme. Tu ya no puedes hacer nada. Lo siento, pero… a la vez no lo siento.

(where am i?)

I'm sorry for all of the horrible things I said of you. Because I didn't realize how you felt that Wednesday night. I'm sorry for all of the things I broke towards you. What happened was an accident, not on purpose. Nobody realized how you felt that night. You are not selfish, you are not fucked up. You are nothing that people say you are. You are light and beauty. You are human and from the bottom of your heart what happened that night was never meant to be. You broke down so many times before, but don't let this break you down because I know you're strong and whole hearted. You are not a bad person in my book. And you are not scum. You made an accident that you truly regret. But you will learn from it. You will grow and become better and do what is best for yourself. You will come back to love life for what it really is. Do not dwell on the past, do not be selfish. Be sorry, be happy, be thoughtful because I know you truly are. You are a beautiful person and you were meant to exist in life to make something of yourself. Don't let this bring you down again. I am sorry for everything. Because you were one of my dearest friends that I took for granted. I am sorry I never caught you when you fell after I promised you I would. But you got back up on your own and I'm happy that you're learning. I am sorry once again. We are not enemies. We are not friends. You are not lost.

this design is PERFECTION and it very very very simialr to H and L tattoo, but I am trying to figure out WHY is relevant I mean, is it from the flickr account of a person related to them or linked to them in some ways?? or it's just a random design that match H and L tattoos idea???? somebody explain! :D