Puppets, Monsters, Fears and Glow
Dear Diary,
They say fears should be conquered and monsters should be killed but as for me, I have never experience such things. I have to be used to the fact that monsters and fears are my allies and not my enemies, which is why it came to the point that I have skeletons in my closet. I didn’t intend for it to happen but I have to if you lived in a home full of puppet masters. Ever since i left the comfort of my home and lived in the comfort of puppet masters I was forced to shut up and man up. I was raised to act and speak like how they want me to and if I complain I get the whips and canes of pain but not all in my life was horrible, there are good ones too like my friends that I call my family. Even though I have the comfort of my friends they can never save me from who I am and what I have become, a monster hiding in the light. In front of my relatives I have to act like the perfect little princess with a good heart and a white soul because if I don’t my puppet masters will pull my strings hard and painful. With my friends I can act a little bit like me but not fully me because if I do they will misunderstand and I will look like the bad guy so in the end I only have myself and my monsters to be with. My monsters understands my pain while my fears lets me be who I am and slowly they both consume me until unconsciously darkness surrounds me and I have become a dark king behind a useless white princess puppet. My words are soft and gentle but my mind is dark and self hating. What makes me sane? It’s my heart that has never been tainted and lets the REAL light in, which is why even though I’m surrounded by the dark there’s still a few glow in my hell and they are my friends, my faith and him. Thanks to the three of them I could be sane and feel safe.
